A Long Walk To Nothing episode 31

A LONG WALK TO NOTHING

Episode 31

Donald has not driven far from Eddy’s house when he s₱0ts a car similar to that of Richærd at a mall where he is also going to do some shopping from…. he stops and packs his car next to it and he’s able to confirm, indeed it’s Richærd’s, he is about to get out his car when he sees two men exit the mall, it’s actually Richærd and one other guy who looks familiar, they are both holding shopping bags and talking happily like two lost best friends trying to catch up…… He waits for them but the two stop to talk and laugh at whatever joke they were making….. He opens his door anyways and steps out, he walks to where the two are standing but they don’t turn

“Hello” he says and Richærd turns sharply

“Hi Bro” Richærd’s expression actually doesn’t change and he seems more excited

“Whitey?… What’s up with you, thought you were already in the office” he says

“I had to grab a few things here….I’ll be there in a while….and you tsup with you”now Liam is quiet

“I’m glad I ran on you…..I have somewhere to go and take over for me, I won’t be back soon”

“Is everything OK with you” Richærd asks concerned

“Yes… Not what you like to hear right?”…. He turns to Liam

“Hi….my name is Donald ”

“I’m Liam…” They shake hands

“Liam….the name sounds familiar”

“We actually ran on each other a few weeks back…you were with Cecilia….I know you” Donald raises one eyebrow but Liam stares him in the eyes not blinking, at this point Richærd is enjoying the show that is unfolding

“Liam….the fitness instructor right if I’m not mistaken”

“Exactly…you’re right” Donald turns to Richærd

“Whitey….. you two know each other?”

“How else do you think I maintain this great physique…. I’m his client and he’s my man”

“I see” Richærd can actually see the sarcasm in his friend so he acts fast

“I better get going” Richærd says to Donald who looks like he’s now putting the pieces together but Richærd and Liam walk to their respective cars and Donald waits till when they both drive off, he goes back to his car and drives off, he is not shopping anymore but going to Alexia’s
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Alexia is back home from her night out, she’s done cleaning the house and she’s now trying to fix lunch for the girls as she sings…..she’s in the kitchen and the girls are watching TV in the living room so she doesn’t realize when Donald walked in…….

“Dad” Celine calls running to hug her father the moment he walked in

“Oh princess” he scoops her in his arms and swings her all round

“How are you and how is school….I missed you”

“School is fine….Dad, have you come back now…are you not going back again” She’s too excited and can barely control her excitement…Alexia from the kitchen hears some voices and comes out of the kitchen, she stands at the door looking at Donald all surprised, Donald takes his gaze from his daughter to the girl on the couch who is watching quietly

“Who is she?” He asks his daughter

“She’s my friend…. Her Dad is also mummy’s friend”

“Really?” He asks

“Mummy’s Friend? Who is that friend of Mummy”

“Donald” Alexia calls him cutting the ugly discussion short and walks towards them

“You didn’t call to say you were coming….I didn’t know you were coming” Donald looks at her all furious and Alexia can see it in his eyes so she asks the girls for space

“Girls….can you go play upstairs please! I need to talk to him” Alexia says to both Celine and Glow and the obedient girls leave running up, she now walks closer

“What are you doing here Donald”

“Which friend of yours has a child that age?” He asks

“You don’t know my friends”

“You don’t even have friends”

“I never had friends back then…. This is a new Alexia, and this new Alexia has friends”

“And a boyfriend”

“Excuse me!”

“Admit it Alexia, you have a boyfriend and that’s the reason why you were so in a hurry to divorce me so you can be free”

“Wai wai wait a minute! Hold up!….. Why that tone? What are you even doing here”

“I’m here so we can talk….” He sits down and adjusts his neck tie

“How is Cecilia” Alexia asks on purpose

“I don’t want to talk about her, I’m here to talk about us”

“Us?…. What about us”

“Don’t you think we might have rushed things up?”

“Excuse me!”

“Alexia, to error is human and to forgive is divine…… I think I want to give this another shot, I want us to start over” Alexia rubs her hands in her long hair trying to hold her anger

“Donald…. What happened to the love you and Cecilia feel for each other”

“This has nothing to do with her”

“It has everything to do with her, she’s the woman you left me for, before you left you said so much hurtful words to me, you gave me clear and valid reasons, s€× was no longer exciting, I became fat and ugly and so many other things that I can’t help you to remember”

“Don’t put all this on me….it’s clear you were so eager to get rid of me too Alexia”

“What did you expect Donald, that I keep those papers in the house, shocked and cry about it and just be waiting for a miracle….. Was it not you who sent me the divorce papers, was it not you who walked out of this marriage?”

“No…you could have resisted, if you cared about our children and their wellbeing”

“It’s obvious you’re drunk this morning…when you sobber up, you can leave because you know your way out….whatever you’re saying Right now is trash” she begins to walk away but he holds her arm pulling her back

“Let go of me” she scre-ms

“You’ll not walk away from me especially when I’m still talking…. Who is the man? Is it the gym instructor?….answer me because I know you have a lover”

“What does it matter to you if I have a boyfriend or not…..am I not a free and single woman?”

“It matters because you’re the mother of my children, whatever you do matters, you are supposed to act responsibly especially in front of that little girl….but what have you done, you have settled for a man who has a child, he probably dumped the mother”

“Is that even a wired thing to you? If a man with whom I have two children was able to abandon me in a blink of an eye…. I don’t care what other’s would do

“I’m so disappointed in you Alexia”

“Hahahahaha…..you amuse me Donald, what’s going on? Has she done what she’s good at again?” Alexia asks as she laughs

“Shut up” he’s mad

“I won’t shut up, you said I was not your dream woman…I’m not a go getter, you wanted a woman who can challenge you, the one who can compete with you, you said love is like quicksand and our arguments became too much to handle…..now that you have exactly what you were looking for then why are you bothering my life now”

“I never said all that….I never did”

“Oh you did, we are divorced now and I’m so happy we are….I loved you Donald”

“And i love you Alexia”

“Love….you see I’ve always thought there was something wrong with me….that I am the problem when you began changing Donald, you blamed me for your sins, you worked so hærd to brake my strength, my ego and you succeeded”

“I love you Alexia” he repeats the word again

“Hahahaha… Donald you don’t love anybody, not even yourself…..”

“I was able to prove that for twenty long years….. I’m so sorry I said those words please forgive me, it won’t happen again”

“Oh dear! If the feeling of love can feel, could it also hear the words when you say ‘I love you?’, do our eyes feel pain when the tears begin to fall? Can they hear the wind when it starts to call? Do the walls of our soul crack before they break when they see the one we love turn to be fake?, does our heart cry out when it feels Love’s pain when it finds out it’s been broken all over huh! Oh Donald! If mouths could think before saying the words they’ve said, we would send our Brains sleep and send it to bed….if our eyes remembered everything they saw, we would all be artists with hands that draw….if our minds, hearts and souls worked at the same time together, we would understand more about love and pain that we give and cause one another forever but sometimes it’s the words we carelessly say that changes one’s destiny forever…. That my Darling is what happened to me”

“Alexia this isn’t you, you have never been this bitter…I know it”

“Life and it’s injustices changed me…when you left me, I felt like my heart had died, I felt I was drowning in the ocean, I cried, I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t eat but God helped me”

“Let me make it up to you”

“In what way?”

“You don’t need another man to be happy… We can still make it work”

“No Donald, what we shared was in the past, what we now share are two beautiful children”

“And our hearts too”

“No….I don’t have a heart……it died….. it’s where you used to live until you broke it apart…the scars on the left are the one’s where you lied…on the right it is from all that I cried, the big h0les that you can see are the times you cheated on me, right in the centre, there is a tear, that’s the day you left me for her but where you see it all turning black, it’s where it started dying knowing you were never coming back…now my heart’s journey with you has come to an end, the reality now is I’m gone..it has no chance to mend, at least not with you” a tear escapes Donald’s eye and his Voice breaks as he speaks, he’s trembling

“After all that we shared? Twenty long years”

“Do not ask me to remember because the moments that we shared should not be remembered because as far as I know it was FAKE, you have to accept that your arms are no longer my home, I developed wings on my own, I began to fly on my own too….you had everything in your hands, my warmth, my dreams even though they were just dreams of a useless clueless woman, you had my happiness….. you lost your place that day you grabbed your bag and left me for her…..” Donald is weeping louder this time so unable to control himself, he’s about to neal but Alexia’s phone rings

“Who is it…your lover?” She doesn’t say a word but grabs the phone from her pocket, the moment she has it out, Donald grabs it and looks at the screen

“My love?” He asks furious

“Give me the phone” Alexia demands but Donald will not listen

“I said give me the damn phone Donald” she grabs his hand and when he sees her getting upset, he releases his hand and she takes the phone from him

“Baby” she answers

“Sweet why are you not picking your calls….I and Richærd ran in to…..”

“I’m here with my ex husband” Alexia cuts Liam short just to alert him and he gets the message but he’s jealous

“What does he want?”

“I don’t know but I can’t talk to you right now”

“Are you safe? Are you OK? Should I come”

“It’s OK….. Pinky promise remember” he calms a bit

“I trust you and I love you”

“I love you too Babe” she ends the call and turns to Donald, he’s now lost his strength and can’t stand so he sits down supporting his head with his hands

“If you may, please I would like to continue with my chores in the kitchen….the one’s I was doing before you barged in unannounced….and Oh! By the way, I talked to Eddy he’s cool with you coming back home but if you’re coming, inform me so I can pack out ” she begins to walk away but he gets up, holds her arm violently

“We are still talking”

“Let go of me Donald….. I warned you, I told you when you were making this decision for the both of us that you can’t hurt a good woman and go Scott Free, everything fights for her and now everything is fighting for me, why don’t you just leave me alone….go back to Cecilia, accept that she’s the woman you love” she walks away and he doesn’t stop her, she stops abruptly, she turns

“The choices we make yesterday definitely manifest in our today, the past is not always where you left it….don’t blame me if I found comfort in another man’s arms because you never taught me how to move on with my life, I learnt on my own and I’m doing just fine” she walks away and Donald is contemplating suicide now……

to be continued