A Road to Nowhere (episode 19)

©Oby Chinyere

Sarah spoke first after a long speechless stare from Oscar who couldn’t say anything.

“Hi…Oscar…what brought you to this city…what are you doing here…

“i…I live here now, relocated to this place, I live across the road, not too far from here…and you…what brought you here…

“I live here too…and I comes here most times to buy things…

They had another quiet stare before Oscar looked at the boy and spoke…

“Is this your son…

“Yeah, my son…

“uhmmm…uhmm he is cute…

“Thanks, I got to go now, nice seeing you again.

“ple…please wait…we need to talk Sarah…

“Talk about what…don’t have anything to say to you…

“if you don’t have anything to say to me, fine, how about we start with the child in your arm…at least there’s something to talk about…

Sarah’s heart started beating, she held her son tight, close to her chest, she knows Oscar must have seen the striking resemblance and she can’t deny the fact that he is the real father, but she will try not to allow him get close to her son, Oscar has once called and warned her off even threatening her that if she place the child in his front he will walk past without looking back, he said the pregnancy wasn’t his, and she has cried her eyes out that period and later put it all behind, and decided to work hærd to give her son the best, she wanted to become everything in her child’s life, and it has being like that for her until this moment, coming face to face with Oscar again, the father of her son who denied him even before he was born. She has being living in this city quietly, and when her son arrived she has loved him like her life depends on it, even without being told she knows the boy has so much of his father’s resemblance, she has known from onset that she was pregnant for Oscar and not Ryan, when she found out she was pregnant she quickly knew who it belong to, and she has came to Oscar and told him about it, she didn’t bother talking to Ryan because the pregnancy wasn’t his, she has not spoken to Ryan ever since she came down to the new city, even before relocating, she has left him behind, it was time to move, it was very sad she had loved the wrong man all this while, who couldn’t love her the way she wanted, the city was cool, and within months she moved down she has quickly settled in with her son,

She has never thought she was going to meet any of the men from her past, most especially Oscar, her son’s father, who was in a relationsh¡p with Melinda, and has warned her to keep far from him. She knows she hurt him, and he has strike her h-rder with his words, by telling her never to bring any child to him in the future, and even if she ever lay him at his feet he will walk past without looking back. Those words cut through her like knife, it hurt everyday she remembers it, and looking at him now brings back wh0le lots of memory.

“Is…is.. My son right…?

“No, he is not…and you have no right to call him yours…he is my son Oscar, like I said earlier it was nice meeting you, I have to go now…

Oscar held her as she tried to walk past him

“I’m not done Sarah, we aren’t done, is quiet obvious, I don’t need a soothsayer to tell me that he is mine…we need to talk, don’t care if you want to or not…

“Then talk if you want to talk, but I don’t have anything to tell you…talk..

“here is not the perfect place, I can’t talk here, is either I come to your place, or we stay any place of your choice, better still you come to mine, I don’t bite…whichever, but you have to make a choice if you don’t want me to come looking for you with force…

“Fine, I will let you know when I’m ready…

“I said now, make a choice of what you want…

“Tomorrow is fine, there’s a hang out joint not to far from here, we can sit and talk there, you can’t come to my place and I can’t come to yours…so we will sit out and talk…

Oscar left her and she walked away and he stood staring at her as she walks away with her son still in her arm,

He held his mouth from scre-ming, his heart was beating fast, it just hit him again that he has a child, a son without even knowing, why would Sarah denied him the right to know that the child was his, why did she keep quiet all this while, if he hasn’t run into her he wouldn’t have known, “so I’m a father, I have a baby boy, oh mine, I’m a father…and I never knew…I have a son for real…oh I’m a father…

Oscar heart was filled with joy as he drove home and started looking forward to the next day, he will be able to hold his son in his own arm whether Sarah likes it or not.

He was so happy the following day and he waited until it was approaching mid day, he called Sarah, and her line was off, he was cursing under his breath as he walk round the house and kept trying her number, he took his car key and decided to drive to the mall if he will see her again, but he waited no sign of her, he went to the hang out joint she mentioned and no sign of her, he sat down at the place, hoping and praying silently that she will show up but she never did until the owner of the place told him it was night and they were closing for the day, Oscar checked the time and it was 11pm, he quietly walk back to his car, kicking off everything he sees on his way out of frustration, he drove home and couldn’t sleep through out the night, thinking about Sarah

The following morning he started trying her number again, it was ringing but she didn’t pick, he kept trying both while at work and when he got home, he was moody and couldn’t think straight again, he drove to the mall, hoping to see a sign of her again but nothing,

After one week Sarah finally called Oscar to come out to the hangout joint and Oscar drove down to see her and was so angry why she will ignored him all this while, Oscar was boiling as she saw Sarah she was not with the baby, she was alone.

“What is wrong with you? We agreed to meet and you…just disappeared why are you filled with disappointment, you are never truthful to yourself or to anyone, you came back again to frustrate my life…where is the boy…my son,

“he is not your son, and you have no right to call him that, when do you become a father to start claiming my child, stay away from us, we don’t need you or anyone in our life, we are doing so well without you being in our lives, I kept him away from you, you never wanted him, you told me if lay him in front of you, you will walk away and will never look back, you warned me off and ask me never to disturb you in the future, I should not do anything that will affect your relationsh¡p with Melinda, and so many hurtful things you said that I don’t want to remember…so you appeared now and want the same child, same child you rejected and…he is not your son Oscar…

“shhhh, isn’t that obvious, I don’t even need a DNA to prove that he is mine, is actually so obvious that he is mine, but is okay.. I don’t want to take him away from you, all I want is to be in his life, forget about what I said or did in the past, I never meant any of those things, I was just under preasure, we all got hurt at one point or the other, which I don’t want to remember now, I want to hold my boy, and play a father role in his life, if you refuse then I will come with force, we can’t be shouting the way we are doing now because we are not mad, bring him to me or I will search you out and come to your house…here is my address, if you disappear again, I will search for you with everything I have, and when I find you I will get my boy with force, you can get your lawyer then… I will come with mine, in that way we will be able to settle this, since you want the little boy to be expose to danger then is fine, you want it by force then I’m ready for you Sarah, don’t try to deny me access to my son again, come let’s talk about how we will co parent without involving a third party, we are having this conversation because of our son, so we really need to talk, here is my house address, and try to pick your calls too or you will be expecting me at your door step…don’t be surprise of what I will do…

Sarah angrily walked out after collecting his address, and Oscar walked back to his car, they were both angry as they all went home, the following day, Oscar was praying silently that Sarah will come, she has put off her phone again, Oscar keep checking outside to see if she was coming but nothing, after sometime he hærd a knock and rushed to the door and it was Sarah, she came with her son, Oscar was so happy as he ushered them in, Oscar made food as he was expecting them but Sarah said she was not hungry, he gave the little boy the things he got for him, he carried him, just holding him in his arm makes him want to cry out with joy, the boy felt sleepy and Sarah nursed him to sleep, after the boy slept he asked Oscar where he can lay him and he showed her his room, after she laid him down comfortably she came out to the living room with Oscar who was following her up and down, she stood while she spoke to Oscar

“I’m not here because of your threats, I’m not even scared of those things you said yesterday, I just do not want to expose my child to violence and danger, you still do not have any right, you are just like a sp**m donor…

“whaaat… do you call me…don’t you dare call me that again, are you crazy, aren’t you the one that denied me access to him, do you even let me know that the pregnancy was mine, if you are looking for apology for what I said, you won’t get it, I never meant any of those things I said on the phone to you, you caused it all, you hurt me real bad, finding you with another man in bed, how do you expect me to feel, I should give you an applause, or award you, I said things out of anger which I did not mean and you are here emphasizing on it, never you call me a sp**m donor again, do you know the meaning, I have left the past where it belong, let’s just co parents in peace, live your life and let me live mine and don’t keep my boy away from me…you are so dam wicked, playing with my feelings the way you like, toiling with me, do you even know what love is, if you do then you will never want to hurt somebody that once loved you, which is not even anything again to me, all that matters now is my son,

“I was sorry for what I did, I beg and pleaded to be forgiven, I take no pride in it, I was loving the wrong man who doesn’t deserve it, and I said I was sorry and yet you said things that cut through me, to me and to my child who you are trying to claim now…to me you are still a sp**m donor,…you are nothing to him…

I have warned you Sarah to stop daring me, stop calling me that…i..

“sp-rm donor that’s what you are Oscar…

Oscar went with force to Sarah as he was already boiling in rage, he couldn’t hit her so he held her in anger, warning her, and not even knowing what to do, as he stare fully in the face of the woman he has loved so much and the mother of his son, Sarah saw that Oscar has change he was a different person when he is angry, she became scared, and Oscar pushed her and she landed on the chair, surprise at Oscar reaction, she was scared,

Oscar saw that Sarah was now afraid of him, he went to her and Sarah slapped off his hand from her, telling him not to touch her, they both started struggling and Oscar cupped her face into his hand and k-ssed her, Sarah try to hit him off but he was strong and pin her to the chair, and k-ssed her like his life depends on it, Sarah tried to relaxed back, she couldn’t escape from his strong grip.

Oscar’s emotion was running wide as he held Sarah in his arm, k-ssing her passionately, releasing all the wh0le anger and all the emotion he has held in, he tasted salt in his mouth and saw that Sarah was crying, he hated himself because he was rough handling her, he was not behaving like himself, he quickly straightened and apologise, as he drew her into his arm comforting her, and they stayed that way before he said,

“I don’t know if I will ever stop loving you, I don’t know if this feeling will ever go away, I’m sorry…I’m so sorry Sarah, for everything, I still love you but is fine if you don’t, is understandable, and I will try not to trespass, it will be hærd but I will try, I wish you love me even little from the way I feel for you, especially now…

Sarah looked at him, and knew that Oscar has never stopped loving her, she was so please to be in his arm again, and to have a son for him, she k-ssed his neck and his mouth, and Oscar quickly responded, this time it was quiet, loving , uniting kind of k-ss, as they drank deeply of each other.

And from that time their love life began again. There was no more augment or fighting, they became an item and everyday for Oscar was great, and with Sarah back to his life everything around him looks beautiful. He loved her more than he can imagine and Sarah fell deeply in love with him unlike before, she was grateful to God for giving her another chance to be in Oscar’s life again.