Debbie’s secret episode 17 – 18

🤫DEBBIE’S SECRET🤫
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CHAPTER 17

SEMI FINAL
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Not everyone is an ANGEL… your BEST friend can turn out to be your worst NIGHTMARE!

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I walk into the house and seated on the couch. my eyes were already damp and swollen from crying too much.
maybe I hoped for a little too much.
I just thought that maybe, just maybe he would learn to love me despite knowing everything.
The pain in my heart just intensified a million times.
why?
why am I this hurt? why does it hurt just like the first time.
I will never find love. who would learn to love me if they find out that I had a child.
I can’t believe this is all happening. I can’t live like this.
“Debbie”
mom called. I raised my face to look at her.

“what happened honey?” she asks and I began to cry more.
she sat down next to me and held my hand. I couldn’t utter a single word. I was hurting so bad.
I shut my eyes as the tears fell and she pulled me in for an embrace.
“Shh it’s okay” she whispered softly to my ears while Patting my baby slowly.
“He hates me mom” I finally managed to say after the long silence.
“who? what are you talking about?” she asked a little dumbfounded
“Nathan. he found out during dinner that Casey is my son.” I say as the tears streamed down my cheeks for the second time
“He doesn’t hate you”
“he does mom. I messed up. it’s all my fault, I didn’t listen to you. maybe if I did when I was a, teen then all this wouldn’t have happened.” I say holding her hand.
“Debbie everything happens for a reason. you can’t keep blaming yourself for what happened” she tells me
“I should’ve told him but I didn’t even when you said I should. now everything is complicated” I tell her whilst sobbing.

“it’s not complicated. Nathan loves you a lot. I’m sure of it and he can’t leave Casey just like that. you guys are closer than you think. don’t worry everything will be fine I promise” she says and k-sses my hair
I nodded and went up to my room.
I undressed and had a cold shower then wore my nightie. I Sat at the edge of my bed. I picked up my phone.
I dialled his number but decided against it. what if he doesn’t want to talk to me? what if he shouts at me.?
What if he tells me to stay away from him?
All these thoughts and many more ran through my mind so I threw my phone on the bed and bowed my head on my palm.
it’s all over.

I opened the door to Casey’s room and walked in. he was already asleep. I sat down next to him and k-ssed his hair.
he opened his sleepy eyes and stared at me.

“Mommy you’re home?” he says and I nod. I wiped my tears. I don’t want him to see me crying or he’ll loose it.
“I’m back baby. did you have dinner?” I ask
“Yes mom. grandma gave me spaghetti” he tells me “mom are you okay?” he adds
“Yes. mommy is fine. I’m just tired” I lied
“has uncle Nathan gone already?”
“yes and he said to say goodnight cause I told him you’re already asleep” I say and he smiles
“can we go see him tomorrow?”
“he’ll be very busy so next time okay?”
“okay mommy”
“go to sleep my little nugget” I say ruffling his hair
“okay. goodnight Mom. I love you” he k-ssed my cheeks and I rolled up the blanket
“I love you too. I love you baby and I’m very proud of you. I don’t care what anyone else thinks cause I love you so much” I k-ssed his hair, switched off the light and left the room.

I met mom standing outside.
“you should probably tell the kid about Nathan…”
“No mom. I can’t. he’s still a baby and besides he’s way too young to understand any of this” I tell her and she nods okay
“I understand Debbie. and I’m with you”
“thanks mom”
“But I wonder, how did Nathan find out about Casey being your child. that information is too discreet to get to him” mom said with a serious face.
“well i don’t know. we were the only ones who knew about it and… ” I stopped on my tracks after my mind flashed back to the message.
“And what? Debbie are you okay?” mom asks waving her hands across my face.
“Mom I’m fine alright. I’m going to bed. love you” I said and rushed into my room shutting the door.
Thandi!!!
I should’ve known. It has to be her. She was the only one who knew about Casey being my child. how could she betray me like this.
I always knew she was this jealous but I never knew that she would take it this far to the extreme. Chloe was right all along. Thandi cannot be trusted and to think that I thought she was like a sister to me. I’ll definitely have to confront her about this tomorrow.

FAST FORWARD
The next day I took my breakfast and headed straight to the office. I have to settle all this mess and after that, We are leaving this country to South Africa.
I thought about it last night. it’s far better to walk away from all of this.
I haven’t told mom but I’m certain she’ll approve.
it’ll be better off for Casey as well. I can’t raise my son if I’m gonna still keep thinking about what was never meant to be.
So I’ll quit my job and then we’ll head back.

I walked straight to her office and pushed the door open forcefully.
“Hi Debbie. what brings you here?” she asks but I stare at her in disgust. The mere sight of her had started to irritate me. if I wasn’t so kind hearted, I would’ve puked all over her or slapped her cheeks so hærd
“I’m not here to exchange pleasantries. I’m just here to say thank you Thandi so there, thank you” I said with no emotion in my voice. She looked surprised probably not expecting to see me.
“Debbie I don’t understand… ”
“shut up Thandi” I cut her short and she gasps “Are you satisfied?” I ask her
“Debbie… ”
“who told Nathan about Casey being my child?” I ask and I noticed how nervous she was by my question.

“w.. what?” she stuttered
“just answer the damn question?” I yell
“Fine. I did. are you satisfied? whatcha you gonna do about it” she ask and I shook my head negatively
“how could you? how could you do this to me Thandi. I thought we were friends” I tell her but she gags
“Friends? are we friends Debbie? you think we can still be friends after everything I had to go through with you?”
“I don’t understand?”
“that’s the point. you never understood me. back in school and even now, you never did. I told you how much I love Kress but yet you still went out with him. you think I was blind not to realize the fact that you were already falling for him.” she tells me.
“Thandi…?”
she let out a low laugh “I met him first, I told you how much I needed him. I asked you if you had a, relationsh¡p with him but you said no. You have a son and yet you’re still every guys favourite. you never once considered what I would feel or what I wanted. everything had to go the way you wanted. what about me? can’t I be happy too?”
“you can’t tell the heart what to feel. if Nathan had ever had a, little bit of love for you, he would be with you now and not me” I tell her amidst sobs
“so your heart is telling you that he loves you? you’re trash now Debbie. get a life with your bastard son and leave Kress alone” she yelled at me
“I plan to” I tell her leaving her speechless
“what?”
“it’s what you wanted right. for Kress to be yours. well he is so you can have him. I don’t want to have anything to do with him anymore.”I giggled
” I thought I had the best friend in the wh0le world but everything was just an illusion. I blindly trusted you. You failed to realize to realize how much I loved you Thandi. I gave everything to you. we grew up like sisters. and because of your jealousy and obsession with a guy, you just threw it all away without taking a second glance ” I say but she threw her face away
“I’m not like you to fight over a guy. I gave up Freddie and I’m giving up Nathan and if you’re so convinced that he loves you then you’re free make your move. I’m leaving this country so I won’t get to see your shadow lurking in my life. goodbye Thandi and good luck”
“Debbie” she called but I walked out and shut the door.
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I walked to Nathan’s office, luckily, he was in,side.
“Come in” he said in reply to my knock on his door.
He felt uncomfortable seeing me but I didn’t care less.
“Debbie I don’t… ”
“it’s okay I’m not here to bother you. just hear me out please” I say and after taking one look at me, he shut his laptop
“what’s this about?”
I didn’t reply. I just dropped the letter on the table. he opened and read through it.
“I’m quitting” I finally managed to say. he stared at me I disbelief
“What do you mean by you’re quitting?”
I sighed “I can’t work here Nathan and not with you always being around cause I’ll get to see your face every day and I’ll be reminded of everything. I’ve thought about it and this is the best I can come up with”
“so this is how you want to handle the situation. after lying to me, this is the mature decision you can come up with?” he asked. his eyes becoming red all of a sudden
“so what do you want me to do? sit here and cry my eyes out?”
“you’re despicable Debbie” he said standing up
“last time I checked, you’re not entitled to me and you’re not the boss of me anymore. I admitted to the fact that I was at fault but if you think that I should be blamed for all of this then go ahead” I tell him not knowing where I got the courage to speak to him like that.
“I was raped Nathan. I hated my child for five good years for a crime he didn’t commit. You can hate me but please leave my child out of this, I can’t bear to see Casey suffer. he has gone through a lot already. you won’t know what I had to go through, maybe if someone close to you had been in my position then perhaps you would understand. I can’t force you to love me and I won’t love you at the expense of Casey got it?” I said to him almost crying
“Debbie?”
“I loved you Nathan and that was certain but you didn’t love me that much and I won’t force you to and I can’t hate you either cause it wasn’t your fault too. take care Nathan” I say and walk out of his office.
I cried my way back home and rushed to my room
Maybe it’s better this way. you can’t have everything you want in life. and maybe it wasn’t in my Destiny to have Nathan.
it never was…

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DEBBIE’S SECRET BY KIARI HORSFALL
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DEBBIE’S SECRET
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CHAPTER 18

FINALE
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if you LOVE someone, Learn to accept Their past, DON’T hold it against them LATER…

I sat down in my room, I haven’t eaten or moved an inch from where I sat. I just stared out the window thinking about everything that just happened. I was betrayed by my best friend and the guy I’ve finally learnt to love doesn’t want to have anything to do with me.
My eyes were already damp and swollen from crying too much. I thought of deleting his number but will it help, when his name is already registered in my heart so I just dropped the idea.
I looked at the time, it was noon already. mom would be back soon with Casey.
I can’t wait to tell her about what I intend to do and I hope she supports me as well.
“The more we get together, the merrier we’ll be” I heard Casey’s voice from my room.

I rushed outside to meet them.
“Mommy” he smiled and ran to meet me immediately he saw me.
“How are you baby?” I asked taking him in my arms
“I’m good” he said and k-ssed my cheeks “I missed you very much mommy”
“I missed you too baby” I tell him and he winks at me. Naughty boy.
“Debbie why aren’t you at work” mom asks placing Casey’s bag on the couch.
“Casey I would like to talk to grandma and I want you to go change in your room OK” I say and he nods
“Alright mom” he said and ran in,side his room
“Mom I need to discuss something with you and I want you to please listen okay?” I beg
she puts on a serious face and said “okay”
“I want us to leave this country and go back to South Africa please”
“Why? is it because of Nathan?” she asks stating the obvious
“Yes mom. I can’t live here anymore. I’m sick and tired of this place”
“Debbie we all have a life here. you can’t just expect us to pick up and move. have you given this a thought? what about Casey’s school and your job?” she asks
“I’ve quit already. I can’t work in a place where I’ll constantly run into him and we can find a good school for Casey over there. it’ll be fine. just the three of us” I say with pleading eyes
“Debbie… ”
“mom please. just this once, I’m begging you”
She kept quiet for some minutes before finally saying “okay Debbie. if that’ll make you feel better then I’m in”
“thanks mom” I say hugging her and she k-ssed my hair
“We’re moving?” I turn to look at Casey with a sad face. I knelt on on one knee.
“yes baby we are.”
“but why? won’t I go to school anymore?’
” of course you will sweetie. and then mommy would find a good job and we can live happily ever after. don’t you want that?” I ask him. I know it’s wrong to bribe my kid but do I have a choice?
“but what about uncle Nathan?”
“Casey you have to forget about uncle Nathan. please”
“I’m sorry Mom” he apologize
“Tell you what? how about we take a tour of your favorite places one last time before we go. is that alright with you sweetie?” I ask and he gave a light nod
“Can we go tomorrow mommy?”
“Alright tomorrow it is” I say and he hugs me a little too tight
“I love you mommy”
“I love you too baby” I whisper to him.
I wish I didn’t have to lie to him like this but do I have a choice? I just hope that one day he’ll understand and realize that I did all this for him. he’ll realize how much I love him and how much I want him to be happy.
I will try my very best to be a great mom to him. I’ll play the role of both a dad and mom. he won’t miss his father, not one bit. cause I can’t bear to see my kid suffer. he means everything to me. I would love him for the rest of my life, even if it means not getting married till eternity. I’m willing to take that risk.

The Next day, I booked our tickets for our flight to South Africa. I couldn’t wait to leave. I haven’t talked to Nathan and Thandi after my conversation with them yesterday and I didn’t care less anyway. Even though I miss him a lot.

I took Casey out at noon to his favorite restaurant, Burgers Paradise and after that we went to a Toy store to get some toys. I’m just doing all this to make him feel happy that we’re moving.
“Mommy I want this one” he said pointing to a toy on the shelf.
“Casey, we can’t buy everything”
“but I want it” he whines
“if we get that then you won’t eat for the next one week” I tell him
“Why?”
“what happens if mom spends all the money buying toys for Casey?” I ask and he frowns
“please mommy. I won’t ask for another one. please” he begs swinging my hands and making puppy faces.
I couldn’t help but laugh
“Alright but just this one” I say and he smiles
we walked to the section to grab the toy when Casey shouted again
“mommy look. that’s the toy uncle Nathan bought for me last time” he say pointing at it. why did he call his name. I won’t be able to forget about Nathan if Casey constantly talks about him.
Just then I noticed him frown
“Baby what’s wrong?”
“I miss Uncle Nathan” he blurts out. his face looks so sincere. what spell did Nathan cast on my child
“Baby do you love your uncle Nathan?” I ask, not sure why I did but I just need some closure.
He nods “yes I do. he’s very nice and sweet and he looks good for mommy” he adds
“You talk too much these days” I roll my eyes
“mommy do you love uncle Nathan?” he asks.
“i… um… Casey you’re too young to ask these type of questions” I say trying to think of a lie to tell him like I always do. I wish I could tell him but he’s way to young to understand any of this.
“I bet you do” he says again
“I don’t Casey”
“of course you do. you love him just as much as you love me. I’m very sure of that mommy” he tells me
“Casey it’s just too complicated and I know you won’t understand but trust me, someday you will OK.” I say and he nods
“great now let’s get that toy” I say and took it from the shelf. they wrapped it up and after paying then we went to the park.

I sat down on the bench at the park as I watched Casey play with other kids then I opened my bag and brought out some fashion magazines and went through them. I later took my sketch pad and a pen to sketch some designs. I was so engrossed in my work that I had no idea that Casey wasn’t there anymore.
I was busy with my work until someone threw a ball at me.
“Casey be careful. I’m trying to focus on something here” I yell but there was no response. usually Casey would say “yes or OK Mom but I didn’t hear any of that.
I raised my head to look at the playground but Casey wasn’t there.
” C-Casey” I stuttered.
I stood up and put my things in my bag and hanged it on my shoulder.
“Casey” I yell on top of my voice but he didn’t respond. Fear took his hold over me.
Where could he be? he’s not the type to walk around like this. what if someone took him? what if something bad happens to him?
OMG what will I do now? I asked myself. I walked round the park but still no sign of him. my eyes were already sweaty.

I picked my phone from my bag. I have to call mom. maybe he might be there. I dialled her number, my hands were all shaking. I was about to hit the call button when my eyes caught Casey. He was being carried by someone and he was laughing too.
“Casey” I call as I ran to meet him. he saw me and the person put him down and he also ran up to me. I hugged him pretty tight.
“Are you okay? were you hurt? huh?” I ask already crying
“I’m fine mommy”
“why did you run off like that? you left mommy. didn’t you know that I’d get scared and that I’ll look for you?” I ask him
“I didn’t go out with a stranger mom I promise”
“then who was it?”
“I went with uncle Nathan” he said pointing to the car. I raised my head to see him and his waved at me.
“why did you go with him?”
“We went to buy chocolates” he replied smiling
“Casey let’s go” I say holding his hand
“but uncle Nathan… ”
I cut him short “he’s not your uncle okay. we are your family and he’s not a part of it so from today, don’t ever go out with him alright” I yell
he frowns “Alright”
I held his hand and we started walking away.
Just then I heard footsteps behind us and before we knew it Nathan was already in front of me.
“Debbie”
“what do you want?” I ask feeling irritated
“we need to talk?”
“about what? you’ve said what you want and i also said what I want. isn’t that enough? please leave me alone” I say and tried to go the other way but he blocked my path and stood in front of me..
“Move” I said angrily “and next time, don’t you dare try to touch Casey okay” I add
“Please hear me out okay. what is your problem?” he ask “can’t you see its hurting me as well. just take a good look at me, I haven’t slept ever since you told me that you’re leaving and this is how you’re reacting to it?” he adds. I stare at his face.
his eyes had dark circles underneath which means he’s not lying.
“I still meant what I said yesterday” I tell him
“I know and I’m not here to change your mind but please you can’t walk out on us when we are this close to being together” he tells me
“So how is that my problem?’
” Look Debbie I don’t blame you for anything. I was wrong not to understand what you were going through. I should’ve known that your life wasn’t as perfect as mine and I’m a complete jerk…. ”
“No it’s not your fault. I should’ve just told you everything and believe me, I wanted to but I was very scared. the truth is that I was scared that I would loose you I didn’t want that. I’m sorry” I apologized
“I’m sorry too. I love you very much Debbie. I wasn’t sure about how I felt until yesterday when you left… ”
“Nathan I love you but I can’t be with you or anyone who can’t accept my child. he’s my son and i can’t love anyone at the expense of him” I tell him
“Debbie when I said I love you, I meant all of you including Casey and I’m willing to accept Casey as my own” he said and i felt the tears build up
“Nathan are you sure?” I ask in disbelief
“Come here little man” he said to Casey and he ran to meet him. Nathan carried him in his arms. “I’m very sure Debbie” he adds “whatever happened wasn’t yours or Casey’s fault. everything happens for a reason so don’t blame yourself” he tells me
I felt the tears slide down my cheeks
“so let’s start from the beginning. Hi I’m Nathan. what’s your name?”
“I’m Debbie Stack.” I say wiping my tears “I’m almost 23. I love clothes” i say about he chuckles
“so who could this cute boy be?”
“that’s Casey my son and I’m very proud of him. he means everything to me” i say and Casey giggles
“I like you Debbie. you’re very honest. will you go out with me?” he asks and i blush but recovered quickly
“Yes Nathan. I will”
He opened his arms and i embraced him along with Casey. Then he k-ssed me on my l-ips.
“I love you Debbie”
“I love you too Nathan” I reply
Maybe he was destined to be mine after all.. I don’t know but I think it’s all better now. I’m just glad everything turned out perfectly…

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we’ll finally call it a wrap after the bonus…
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KIARI