I left her apartment with a gaping hole in my heart.. The satisfaction I expected to feel was non existent. I feel just empty.. I looked deep into me and found nothing to hold on to…nothing… I started feeling so bad when I remembered her face.. So shattered and broken.. Filled with tears..
“Fork, smith?! You going all soft on me right?” I thought.. But i couldn’t forget her face.. And the way she felt in my arms.. So perfect and beautiful.. Withdrawing from her is the most painful thing I’ve ever done in my life. She is so perfect, and I’d never felt more complete than I did these last few weeks.. I love everything about her.. Her sharp wit and intelligent conversations.. She’s been like a best friend to me and i just threw all that away with my actions. I briefly considered driving back to her place; but phone pinged and I got an sms about the position for a new CFO, and my heart sank.. This just became shittier.
I walked briskly into the building with my spine straight. I have to pick up the pieces of my life, shattered all around me.. I’m sure he expects to catch me all sad and cowered. That’s not going to happen. I entered my office and glanced at his office across from mine. He is not around.. I sighed in relief. I collapsed on my chair and quickly put together a slide share presentation for my CEO’s emergency meeting. I went to her office and discussed extensively with her about the requirements to be the CFO.. She put me through it all and told me that Smith and I will be paired on a project..
The person with the best output will be given the Job. I sniffed hard in indignation.. ” This means we have to work together and still compete?” I asked.. “Yes my dear,” She replied..
Shtt, my mood hit rock bottom.
I got back to my office and felt his presence..
I decided to take the bulls by the horn and went to face him with what we’ve been given..
Avoiding him; which was my initial plan is not possible anymore. I knocked on his and he came to open the door for me… I stared at him in shock; he looks like hell warmed over.. Bags under his eyes, hair rough and face haggard.
My initial instinct was to run into his arms and ask what’s wrong, but i cautioned myself and went straight to the point. He offered me a sit, and we began to discuss. I left his office after 2 hours of strategies.
As I drove home from work, i thought about resigning because I can’t just bear seeing him everyday. After that day after, he’s back to his normal assholey self and even worse.. His digs at me has become personal, and im now ready than ever to win the job over him. The thought of being his senior gives me joy and is the only thing keeping me warm at night. Infact, his wicked behaviour is the only thing burning the fire in my heart.. I’d have resigned.
Try as much as I may, i still love him.. I catch myself playing our memories on a loop in my head.. I totally withdrew to myself and even zoned my mother out. Im obsessed about getting the job. That’s the only thing that’s not making me go mad. I see him everyday at work and we have to work together in close quarters to achieve the aim of the job.
The only thing that changed about him is his whoring ways.. He totally alienated himself from his drone of office admirers and gave the work his 101?. Whenever i think of his ideas and what he’s planned, i begin to panic..
He’s very intelligent and I’m very scared of losing to him..
The competition is a very fierce one and i feel myself being pushed past my limits.
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