His golden secret episode 15
HIS GOLDEN SECRET đđ
(being perfect)đź
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BY RUTHIE LEE đ¸đ¸
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EPISODE 15
âmom did Peter tell you thisâ I asked feeling a little bit angry about this, heâs so juvenile.
âI told you it doesnât matter how I know!! Answer me is it true?â my mom yelled and believe me when I say this is the first time Iâve seen her yell.
âyes itâs true, I do have a boyfriendâ I tell her and she gasped heavily and I had to refrain myself from rolling my eyes.
âafter..after.. everything your dad and I told youâ my mom said dramatically moving her white blonde hair back.
âyou guys say it like its a bad thing, James is really a nice guâ
âJames? Thatâs his stupid name?â my mom said and I glared at her
âitâs not a stupid name, and heâs a really nice guy just because you donât know him or you havenât seen him doesnât mean you have to judge him the way you likeâ I yelled feeling my cheek heat up.
âyouâve got a boyfriend now and heâs giving you the audacity to yell at me right!! Samantha I didnât give birth to you to waste your body on useless boysâ my mom yelled and I sighed and dropped my backpack on the Floor.
âIâm not wasting my body mom what the hell are you talking about youâre saying gibberishâ I yelled and my mom gave me a sounding slap that my blood rose to my head thatâs the first time sheâd ever laid hands on me, I looked up at her and saw she felt guilty for what she did.
âI..Iâm.. Iâm.. S..
âyou know what mom,â I sniffed tears dropping down my eyes like water fall and I could feel my nose red already.
âI think you and dad brought me up the wrong way, having a boyfriend doesnât mean Iâm wasting my body on him, having friends doesnât mean Iâm wasting my earthly time and watching movies doesnât mean my thoughts are getting ruined, all those things you said to me were all lies. Lies!â I yelled and my mom flinched. And I cried even more.
âIâve gotten a boyfriend behind your back whoâs been really sweet to me, Iâve been watching movies behind your back and Iâve learned a lot of thingâs which I thought I knew and the most sweetest part of all was making friends, I finally made friends mom..â I cried.. âFor the past sixteen years I havenât had any friends if only Naomi hadnât said hi to me at first I wouldnât have had a friend, being perfect isnât everything itâs not going to take me anywhere, and guess what nobodyâs perfect, Naomiâs been singing that to me everytime but Iâve been too busy being a bitch around her because of you! Because of dad! I thought I could be perfect, I thought I was perfect but I was being deceived by me And your ugly thoughtsâ ..
My mom stood still as she watched me let all my anger out and god it felt so good.
âyou made me live in a world where it made me an arrogant bitch, and Now I canât get it out of my blood because without that blood thereâs no Samantha, Mom you destroyed me, I loved myself at first but everyday something new, something tells me Iâm always wrong when I feel like Iâm right and now my friends wonât even talk to me and itâs not my fault itâs all yours cause you made me this way and itâs hurts now I know how my friends feel when my theyâre are around me, and I know what you were trying to do all along, you were trying to get Peter and I together, so whatâs the difference with me dating James!!â I yelled picked up my bag and started to walk upstairs while she just stared at me. Just as I got to the middle stairs I turned to my mom and said the word that will get her flabbergasted and appalled.
âI hate you momâ I said before storming into my room and slamming the door pretty hĂŚrd for her to hear.
I threw my backpack on my bed and walked into my bathroom, I turned on the shower and let my uniform get w-t and clingy to my body, I later took off my uniform and wasted a lot of time in my bathtub before coming out and changing into casuals clothes and falling asleep. What I just told my mother came out from every part of me, being perfect isnât as easy as she thinks, itâs hĂŚrd for me too and I donât want to be âthatâ perfect girl and I am not perfect.
I woke up by the sound of knock on my door and rubbed my eyes and got up from my bed. I turned on my phone to look at the time cause itâs nighttime already , it was (9:23pm) and I heard the knock again.
âBeatrice?!â I yelled.
âitâs not Beatrice itâs meâ I heard my momâs voice from outside and I sat down on my bed again. Iâm not opening the door for her.
âwhat do you want?â I yelled so she could hear me from outside.
âplease just open the doorâ my mom begged.. ânoâ I stated angrily.
âhoney youâve been in there for hours and youâve missed dinnerâ my mom said sadly.
âitâs not the first timeâ I yelled.
âhoney please!.. Look Iâm sorryâ my mom said and knocked lightly on the door and I sighed and walked to the door.. I turned the door knob and opened the door and my mom tried to smile seeing me.
âgood night momâ I said and slammed the door. I went back to my bed and pulled my blanket over my body.. That night I couldnât sleep a lot was bothering me but I didnât know what but I know Tracey was one of them and I couldnât sleep cause Ive already slept for hours, I manged to fall asleep around four in the morning and woke up by seven, I didnât go for my morning jog cause I didnât feel like it and I just got ready for school like that.
I was glad I didnât run into my mom in the living room and after eating breakfast, Evans drove me to school.
I made a tiring journey to class and I didnât see anyone in class. I sighed remembering todayâs sport day and I dropped my bag and made my way to the gym class, I silently passed everyone in the gym room not letting anyone See Me and I walked into the girls changing room, three unfamiliar girls were in,side the dressing room and two were standing and the third one was sitting on a bench crying while the ones standing were consoling her.
âJennie itâs okay. You donât have to cry over spilled milkâ one of them said to me the girl sitting down and she cried even more. I turned to my locker and start to remove my uniform, I tried to mind my own business but I couldnât cause the girls words were ear watering.
âIsaac was a good guy but you have to let him go, itâs over take it that wayâ one of the girls said to the Jennie and she didnât reply them she still cried seriously.
âJen.. He said youâre not good enough for him, he said youâre too dumb and naĂŻve, he said youâre slow and boring, just let go of him and never talk to him again.. If you see him on the street ignore him okay?â the other girl said to Jennie and I shoved my school uniform in,side my locker and slammed the locker door, scaring the three girls, I adjusted my jersey and turned.
âJennieâ I called and the three girls turned to me.
âyeah?â Jennie sniffed and looked up at me, her nose red and puffy, her cheeks red and her eyes swollen.
âIsaac is a human like you, even though he called you those absurd things if you see him anywhere donât ignore, be the one to say hi with a smile, talk to him show him youâre happy without him and if he says anything thatâs not funny laugh, show him youâre not boring, slow, dumb and naĂŻve..
âwho are yo.. Jennieâs friend tried to interrupt me but I cut her off still telling Jennie what to do.
âshow him you can be strong, less boring, sophisticated and free spirited, let him know youâre not his levelâ I said with seriousness and Jennie hiccuped tears rushing down her eyes. I knelt down in front of her and cleaned her tears,
âhe broke your heart, now itâs time for you to shatter his heart and rip his soulâ I said and one of the girls gasped.
âexcuse meâ I said stood up and walked away, I didnât know why I did that but I just felt like I had to and while walking out of the girls changing room I noticed my eyes w-t and I cleaned them, maybe I felt for Jennie, but Isaac was a really stupid boyfriend, I donât know what I would have turn to if James was the one who said all those things to me i donât even want that day to exits.
James was standing at the front line with Kaden and Lucas, and beside them was Tracey, molly and Victoria. I sighed and stood alone watching them.
âokay everyone gather around!!â coach Rick announced and everyone started to move forward until we were all standing in front of her.
I watched as James glance at the door a few thousands times and then talked to Tracey about something.. Coach Rick said we were going to play volley ball boys against girls and while picking the first team to play in the first round she sâą0tted me from the crowd.
âyou girl, come outâ she said and I walked out from the crowd and seeing me James smiled.
âyouâll be the first team leader andâ
âcan I take a sick leave please?â I tell her and she paused.
âwhatâs wrong with you, you look goodâ she said.
âbut I donât feel goodâ I said and she clicked Her tongue and gesture her head towards the door for me to leave.
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âokay tell me whatâs wrong with you?â the school nurse miss Rita asked as I walked into the schoolâs infirmary and laid on the bed.. ânothing just feeling a little tiredâ I said and she nods happily. Seems like sheâs not in the mood to give anyone any treatment..
I decided to close my eyes for a little bit but I was interrupted by a cold hand that touched my wrist. I opened my eyes and found James beside me.
âwhat are you doing here?â I asked.
âIâm supposed to be me one asking that question.. Are you okay?â he asked as I gently sit up.
âyeah I just didnât want to participate in any sports activityâ I replied. âohâ he said.
âwhat are you doing here arenât you supposed to be in the gymâ I asked moving my hair back.
âI saw you coming here so I followed you, I was worriedâ he said and I smiled a little. âthanksâ he was worried. Thatâs sweet.
âbut no worries, you can rest, and Iâll go back to the gymâ he said and I nod and laid back on the bed.
James had already taken two steps forward when he stopped and walked back to me k-ssing my forehead. âjust know that I really really like youâ he laughed and I rolled my eyes. âwhatâs up with that? That was cheesyâ I said and he laughed before walking away.
I tried to fall asleep but I couldnât, I wasnât sleepy but I didnât feel like getting up from the bed and nurse Rita kept texting and laughing at her phone screen which made me watch her every minute and when she glance at me I just looked away.
Hours passed and I decided to go back to the class and I told nurse Rita and she just nods not paying attention to me but her phone.. I walked out of the infirmary and walked through the classes hallway, I made my way to the gym class which was empty and into the girls changing room, with me being alone I took my time and changed into my school uniform.
I made my way to the class, and immediately I was about to enter the class I heard the bell for lunch break, and the teacher in our class walked out, while I walked in and went to my seat.
âhey Sam! Are you okay?â Victoria suddenly jumped in Front of me, I flinched a little but I controlled myself.
âyeah, Iâm fineâ I replied looking at my desk.
âoh thank God, I thought something happened to you when you told coach Rick you had to go to the infirmary, but itâs seems like youâre fineâ Victoria said and I shrugged.
âso are you going for lunch?â she asked.
âyeah why?â
âgreat! Letâs go togetherâ she squeaked.
âitâs okay, Iâm going with James you can go with Tracey and Molly, I wonât bother you guysâ I explained, âwhat makes you think, youâre a bother to us?â Tori asked calmly sitting on a chair beside mine.
âI donât know, seems like Tracey has something against meâ I scoffed, rolling my eyes after that.
âoh Traceyâs just being that way, she said she really wanted you to seat with us but she said youâre being a total kvetch..â Victoria said and I huffed. âshe said if you just listen to her and beâ
Victoria was interrupted by Tracey and James, as Tracey pushed James slowly in front of us.
âokay tell herâ Tracey ordered and James rubbed his neck.
âdo you really have to do thisâ James whined.
âyeah I doâ Tracey stated and James stood in front of me firmly and he let out a nervous grin.
âSam..â he called and my brows raised up at him.
âI have to tell you somethingâ He said..
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