Incomplete episode 11

INCOMPLETE

Writer: Anonymous❤️

Sequence 11

For a minute I stood still staring at the people that were in front of me and the big suitcases they had with them then I silently wondered if they are moving in or not.
My mother in law and her crew interrupted my thoughts as they made their way to us.
“Mary my daughter welcome, why are you just standing there feel free this is your house” my mother in law said as she hugged the woman that just got in. It was actually the same pregnant woman I saw Dan with at the restaurant.

Dan stood behind me motionless as we watched his family welcome Mary and the elderly woman she was with into our house, when they sat on the couch Rose got their bags and took them upstairs.
“Welcome our in-law” Dan’s auntie greeted
“Thank you very much for the warm welcome” the elderly woman responded
“What can we offer you?” Sharon asked
“Just water will do” Mary answered
I was still in a state of shock with what was happening around me and for a few minutes I neither spoke any words nor made any movements.
“What is she doing in my house?” I yelled
“Hey keep your tone down this is not your house” Dan’s mother said
“Mum let me take care of this situation” Dan answered
“What situation Dan? Oh so now I am a situation? First you impregnate this thing and you have the guts to allow her into my house into our matrimonial home? Dan what sort of disrespect is this? I know we haven’t had the best marriage but how can you decide to humiliate me in this way?” I yelled
“Pam or whatever they call you can you please hold your tongue because I am not a thing like you put it I am Dan’s wife, he didn’t tell you he got a second wife?” she said as she shoved her ring in my face.
I thought I heard her wrongly so I had to ask her again just so I could be sure she said they were married and indeed she confirmed it by throwing their wedding photos in my face. I picked the photos up one by one, Mary wore a dress similar to the one I wore on my wedding and Dan was in a grey suit, his sisters must have been on the line up or something and they were also some photos of Dan’s mum and his other family members.

I felt betrayed and stabbed, to say I was hurt is an understatement I was devastated and broken to the core what normal man in his right senses would go behind his wife’s back and not only get another woman pregnant but marry her as well?
God is this happening?” I cried out
“You won’t understand” he said
“When did you marry her?” I asked
“Don’t do this” he answered
“Answer me demit! How long has this been going on?” I asked as tears fell of my eyes
“You really want to know huh, well my husband and I have been married for 6 months now” Mary said
I have felt pain before I have been broken and torn to pieces a number of times but nothing can be compared to what I was feeling at that moment I couldn’t believe that the same Dan that I married was capable of hurting me like this. I looked at my wedding ring then I slowly removed it and threw it at him.
Tears poured out from my eyes and rolled down my cheeks, I felt so incomplete, inferior to all women whose bellies swell up. My confidence was shattered and I felt unclad. Why did God decide to punish me in this kind of way, all my life all I wanted was just one little baby to complete my life but no he decided to bless another woman with my gift, how could he allow such kind of evil to happen? How could he allow Dan to hurt me this way?

I ran out and got into my car, I was shaking I couldn’t drive so I called Chloe to pick me up, I was even falling to speak properly because of the crying . Dan came outside and tried to talk to me but I just couldn’t listen to him meanwhile in,side the house I could hear laughter and soft music playing his family were really happy that finally they had managed to get rid of me.
Chloe arrived 15 minutes later and I just ran to her and cried in her hands.
“What did you do her you bastard?” she asked
He didn’t even respond but just shed a few tears as though he was feeling remorseful for his actions.
“Shhhhhh I am here to protect you, no one will ever hurt you again” Chloe said
When I calmed down a bit I stared at Dan one more time, I looked at him from head to toe then I walked to the car without saying anything.
“I swear someday you will pay for all the pain you have caused her, for all the tears she has shed and one day you will kneel before her and ask her to take you back but it will be too late” Chloe said and clicked her tongue as she made her way to the car
The drive back home was long because no matter how much I tried to hide my tears they just couldn’t stop from falling off and as a result that made Chloe cry too.
As we got close to Chloe’s house, I wondered if I was ever going to love another like I loved Dan or if I was ever going to move on from the hurt he has caused me.

“Pam no matter what happens between us I will always love you with everything I have, I promise to always hold your hand and bring comfort and joy to your life” I remembered the words he said to me the first time we made love. It was intense and cute, the first time I gave myself to him on our wedding night I knew we were meant to be we were connected in every other way and I thought a bond like ours was unbreakable.

“How long are you going to cry Pam?” Chloe asked that evening.
From the time I got to Chloe’s place I just went straight to my room and cried my lungs out, I was crying away the hurt, pain and disappointment. It was impossible for me to stop crying.
“I feel I am not functioning as a woman” I said
“Hush don’t say that God will give you a child someday” she said
“No Chloe can’t you get it? I am incapable of having children I am barren” I cried out
“No Pam never call yourself barren” she urged
“But that’s what I am let’s call a spade a spade” I told her
“You will get through this, I promise I will stand by you through it all” she cried
Moving on is hærd it’s never easy to let go of a person you love. The scars of Dan’s betrayal would live to haunt me for a long time because I had given my all to him and what I got in return was sorrow and pain.
The days that came by where devastating, i had to go back to what used to be my house to collect my things and what hurt the most was the fact that they had moved my belongings from the bedroom to one of the unoccupied rooms and all the photos of me and Dan that hung on the wall in the living room where removed and replaced with wedding photos of him and Dan.

I am not emotionally strong that’s what Chloe has always told me and she says people can tell when one is emotionally weak hence they take advantage like in my case. I instantly broke down while I was packing my clothes.
“I told you that one day you would have to leave this house finally we have the last laugh” Rose said and laughed out.
“Don’t mind her” Nono said while she helped me pack my clothes
“How are they treating you?” I asked her
“Madam I can’t even stay in this house if you won’t be here I am leaving in two days time I already told your husband” she said
“But where will you go? And how will you take care of yourself?” I asked
“I will survive she answered
I remember when Nono just started working for us she was a young naïve village girl. She came to Lusaka after her parents died and the only relative she had here refused to take her in, I found her crying at night in the middle of the road when I had just got married and took her in and that’s how she started working for us and throughout the four years she has worked with us I have not had any problems with her except for the fact that she is too talkative.

And now that I was moving out there was no where I was going to let her wander around the streets I had to do something maybe help her get back to school or something.
“You should call me the day you are living then we can make a plan let me talk to my sister” I told her
“Thank you very much I will appreciate” she said
When I was carrying my last suitcase to my car, Dan walked in holding Mary’s hand as they laughed to a conversation they were having. He stood when he saw me.
“Pam hey” he said
Before I could answer Mary got his hand and placed it on her belly as a way to mock me.

“Hi” I replied
“I have been meaning to call you so we can discuss the terms of our divorce” he said
“I want nothing from you, you can keep it all, just sign the papers my lawyer will present you with” I said
“I don’t mind giving you some of the properties I have” he said
Just then Dan’s mother came outside
“My daughter you are back, how is our baby doing?” she asked Mary
“He is fine mummy” she replied
I got my bag and put it in the car then drove off, it hurt to see just how quickly Dan had moved on.
Two months later my divorce with Dan was finalized and I was back to being single has really been hærd for me, I cry myself to sleep so many nights and I haven’t been praying or going to church. I got leave from work because I wasn’t ready to see anyone, I am so angry at life and God. The once out-going full of life lady that I was has now become bitter.

I can’t recognize myself anymore because I am so resentful of others who are pregnant I find it difficult to look at other pregnant women and babies because each time I see a pregnant woman or a baby I am reminded of what I wanted but didn’t have.

TBC

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