Incomplete episode 7 – 8
INCOMPLETE
Writer: Anonymous❤️
Sequence 7
I looked at my mother In-law while trying to take in the words she just said like yes I am very devoted to God, I am not perfect but I try to live by his example and I do all that is required of me so why can’t he just give me one child to shame all these people around me? Why is he turning a blind ear to problems? Is he really there? Didn’t he say he would give his children whatever they asked for? For a minute a stood still doubting God’s existence because of what Dan’s mother said.
“Stop dreaming” Dan’s mother shook me
I didn’t answer her but just went back to my room, dried myself and changed into something warm then slept on the couch that was in our room, I felt disgusted to sleep in the same bed with a man that was so comfortable allowing others hurt me.
“Pam wake up” Dan shook me in the morning
I opened my ears slowing and I could see the sun shining through the window, my body was aching I guess it’s because I wasn’t used to the couch
“Why did you leave the bed?” he asked
“Stop asking me questions it’s too early” I said
“I am sorry about yesterday” he said
I laughed out so loudly he must have thought I was losing it “Oh now you are sorry huh after you mother undressed me right in front of you and your sisters, tell me this is a joke Dan” I said
“She is my mother I can’t just stand up to her, she is just concerned about my well being” he said
“Then you should have married her instead” I said
“You are pushing your luck Pam, that’s my mother you are talking about” he said
“Well I don’t care” I answered
“What have you done to my wife? This is not you” he said
“You should know even the softest people on earth have limits” I said and walked to the bathroom, he wanted to enter but I pushed him out and locked it.
When I was done I walked out and found Dan trying to unlock my phone. “What are you looking for there?” I asked
“Nothing I just wanted to make a call” he said
“You are such a bad liar” I said
I got the phone and unlocked it then gave it back to him, I was facing the mirror so I was watching what he was doing on my phone, it looked like he was looking for something, I just faked a smile and continued dressing up.
It was a Friday so I opted for black ripped jeans and a white Lace Top. Then I debated on which shoes to wear but finally settled for my yellow stilettos, my hair had a funny smell due to the water Dan’s mother had poured on me so I applied some Blue magic and tied it behind. I walked out of my room and found the table empty my breakfast hadn’t been served.
“Nono” I scre-med out
“Yes madam” she answered as she came running to where I was
“And where is my breakfast?” I asked
“Your mother in law told me to remove it from the table after I served she said you are supposed to make breakfast for everyone”
“Oh my! Can my day get any better?” I mumbled
“I am sorry madam” she said
“It’s fine, it’s not your fault” I responded
I went back to my room and got my bags and phone and walked out without saying anything to Dan, I bumped into Dan’s auntie in the passage as I was going downstairs.
“Morning” I said
“Morning to yourself” she responded
I sighed and continued walking then she held my hand.
“What now?” I asked
“Is this how a married woman must dress?” she asked
I didn’t respond “Answer me and what type of woman just wakes up and leaves the house without doing any chores or think making breakfast for the family” she asked
“The one who is literate enough to realize that life is not all about making babies and cleaning” I said and removed my hand from her grip then walked away.
“Such disrespect” she said
My sister called me the minute I got to the office.
“Baby” she said
“My mummy” I answered
“How have you been?” she asked
“Fine and you?” I replied
“I am fine” she said
“My in-laws are visiting” I said
“Hope they are not giving you hell” she asked
I sighed before answering “No they are not”
“Pam I hope you are telling me the truth, you know how I hate being lied to” she said
“I am saying the truth Chloe, you worry too much” I said
“You are my only sister, it’s my duty to worry about you” she said
“Don’t worry I am okay”
After talking for a bit I hung up and started working immediately
The day went on very fast, I wasn’t looking forward to going back home and face my in-laws and their insults so after work I went over to Chloe’s house to have dinner then drove home around 20:00.
When I opened the door the wh0le family stood up as if gunning up on me for coming home late in my own house.
They attacked me, called me names and insulted me, I was powerless and Dan wasn’t around, Nono hurried to where we were and tried to separate them from me, when she managed I rushed to my room and locked myself in.
Come to think of it why was I still in this house suffering for someone who doesn’t even care about me. I vowed to stay by my husband no matter what would come our way, I promised to stand and fight for our marriage but was this marriage worth fighting for or maybe I wasn’t doing enough to fight for it, I love Dan so much but this love is hurting me, shouldn’t love give you a sense of peace, comfort and protection. Is it still love when all you do is cry?
Was it time to pack my bags and walk out? How would people look at me? What would God say about me if I walked out knowing what he says about divorce, I can’t continue living like this because so many forces are against me and I might just end up dead fighting for a lost cause?
Dan didn’t come home that night and when I woke up the next day I just felt the need to go out and spoil myself I was so tired of being stepped on, I just need some quietness. So I took a quick shower and wore a yellow short dress and boots since it was a bit chilly outside I tied a head wrap on my head and went out to make myself some breakfast. When I was done I walked out ignoring all attempts by my in-laws to ruin my day.
First I went to the salon, they undid my hair and washed it, afterwards plaited it. I wanted to do something different so I settled for a blond fringe, I liked how well it shaped my face, I have never plaited fringe because for some reason i thought I would never look nice in it like Chloe dies but looking at myself in the mirror made me think otherwise.
Afterwards I did my nails then went for lunch. From the saloon I went shopping, I had the money so why not spend it on myself I went from shop to shop and bought a wh0le lot of stuff by the time the day was ending I was tired but that didn’t stop me from watching a movie.
After the movie I got myself some food and drove home, when I got home I didn’t leave the car but just sat there playing loud music and eating my food, I was singing along because I felt so good about myself.
A few minutes later someone came to knock on my window and I pretended not to hear.
“Open this window before I break it” Sharon shouted
I opened the door and got out, “what is wrong with you?” I asked
“Can’t you see it’s late, you are disturbing the wh0le neighborhood? “She asked
“Hey please Shaz this is my house I can do whatever I please”
“I am Sharon and not Shaz and this is my brother’s house” she said
“I don’t care how they call you, Shaz or Sharon it’s all the same and you should know your brother has a wife so shut up” I answered
She laughed and clapped her hands” You call yourself a wife? You that can’t have kids” she said
I lost it and slapped her then she slapped me back, I pulled her hair and kicked her down then started hitting her, she was scre-ming her lungs out, her relatives came out and they separated us.
“You want to kill my child for me” Her mum asked
“I will not only kill her, I will kill all of you and feed your bodies to the dogs” I answered
She was so mad she wanted to hit me but I pushed her off me, yes it was disrespectful of me to have done that but I have had it with these people.
“You have started war” she said she walked to the house while everyone followed her behind.
I just laughed at the scene I had caused then I called Nono and she helped me with my parcels. They were a lot I could see all of them where surprised when we got in with them.
“Busy wasting my Brothers money” Sharon said
“Find a husband and spend his money” I answered and walked upstairs
I could hear them discussing of ways to have me kicked out but I cared less. I locked my room and slept peacefully after praying since Dan wasn’t home.
I woke up and bathed the next morning in readiness for church, when I reached the dining room I had my breakfast and dashed out. Church was relaxing there is nothing more pleasant than spending time in the father’s house.
That house is peaceful it delights me and brings me unimaginable peace and joy, I couldn’t help but sing along when they sang he is able by Deitrick Hadden.
The song was a reaffirmation to me that even when he has taken long to give me a child he will surely give me one because he is able, I felt ashamed for having doubted him that day. I listened attentively to the lyrics as tears streamed off my eyes.
“God is able to do just what he says he would do, he is gonna fulfill every promise to you, don’t give up on God cause he won’t give up on you. He is able, he is able”
The pastor went on to add that whoever is believing God for a promise should patiently wait because our God is a God of truth and whatever he says he will fulfill, exceedingly and abundantly above all we can ask or think according to the power that worketh in us and all we need to do is believe that it shall come to pass.
Have you ever attended a church service where you felt the wh0le message was all about you? That’s what I felt, it was so amazing to know that God was communicating to me through his people, the message at church wasn’t a coincidence but it was preached so I could patiently wait for my gift. I walked out of church feeling blessed I knew I would have not only a child but children in God’s own time.
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Writer: Anonymous❤️
Sequence 8
After church I drove to Chloe’s house because she told me her husband and kids where coming home.
“Oh My God, did someone do the fringe” she exclaimed when I walked into her house
“Something smells good in here” I said as I hugged and pecked her cheek.
“You look good I love the hair, the blond gosh its stunning” she commented while running her hands through it
“Thank you, it was inspired by you” I laughed
“I am even surprised you finally did it” she said
“New look I decided to try it out” I said
“It looks great on you, you see I never lie” she said
“Now I know better” I laughed
I changed into one of her comfortable dresses and helped her to cook, Joe and the kids arrived at around 15:00, we both rushed to welcome them when we heard the noise.
I hugged the kids as Chloe embraced her husband and car-ssed his face then they shared a k-ss.
“I missed you my darling” he said to her
“And I missed you more, this face I missed waking up to it” she said
“I am back now, you know what that means” he asked
Chloe giggled “They are kids here Joe” she said
“Is it a crime to miss my lovely wife” he asked
“Of course not baby, it’s good to have you back, sleeping alone makes me feel cold” she said
They k-ssed again this time around forgetting where they where and who was present.
I stood still and just admired how great the two looked together, they still had that fire burning in them despite being married far longer than Dan and I .How do they do it? Maybe it’s because they had kids so their lives are complete, if only I can conceive.
I envy what they have, they act like teenagers when they are together at least that’s what love is all about. Maybe I married the wrong man because what I was experiencing in my marriage was the opposite of what I was seeing from my sister. I have always wanted to turn out like her, even my marriage I wanted it to have the same spark that her own has. I was woken from my day dreaming by Joe.
“What’s on your mind, little one” he asked
I blushed” I am no longer little” I answered
“You are our baby, our first born” they both said together and we laughed
“Ah please you guys I am someone’s wife” I said
“So?” Chloe asked, I hit her playfully and we shared a family hug then went to the other room to talk, it was just amazing to be part of a family that makes you feel wanted, one thing I loved about Joe was the fact that when he married my sister he accepted me as part of her he didn’t try to separate us like most men do, he didn’t complain when I called her at odd hours to cry or talk, he is an understanding man, a man that values the importance of family.
I had an awesome day bonding with Emilie and Ernest (Chloe’s children), the kids are adorable they make me forget all my problems, a day spent with them is a day well spent.
I drove home later around 18, when I got in I could hear people laughing, I went to the living room and just watched how comfortable my in-laws looked in my house, I even wondered when they were leaving.
“Oh look whose back” Rose said
“It’s the barren woman” Sharon answered
I was about to curse at them when my mind took me to 1st Peter 3:9 “Do not pay back evil for evil or cursing with cursing instead pay back with a blessing because a blessing is what God promised to give you when he called you” so I surprised them by being responding in a nice way
“Hello family hope we all had a great Sunday” I said with a full smile
“And what’s gotten into you” Dan’s auntie asked
“Nothing I am just happy excuse me” I said
I joined Nono in the kitchen and finished off preparing supper then I called my In-laws to the table, I sat on the left side of the table and dished up for myself then started eating as they watched me in amusement because this was the first time I was eating at the same table as them.
“So aren’t you worried about the well being of your husband?” Rose asked
“Why would I be? He is a full grown up man he knows his way home” I said
“Have you thought of the possibility of him having another woman elsewhere?” she asked as if to mock me
“Everything is possible with members of this family” I said
“Meaning what?” his mother answered
“Nothing, excuse me” I said as I stood up.
Dan’s sleeping out habit is something I am slowly getting used to, it hurts to wake up alone when I have a husband but what can I do. When I was in college I remember my roommate used to complain about how her sister’s husband was maltreating her, he would do as he pleased, disrespect her in front of others, I always used to say I would never stay in such a marriage, I would tell her if I get married and he starts to trip I would walk away, I just never got to understand why she stayed in that marriage even when it was falling right under her nose.
Now that I was in a similar situation I didn’t have the guts to leave, this has taught me that it’s so easy to judge and make conclusions based on what others are going through from a distance but you only get to understand the depth of their situation when you are faced with the same kind of trauma
My sister and the other people I have confided in have made it so clear the only option is for me to leave but I love Dan so much leaving him will mean him getting another woman, maybe she will even give him children and I will have to watch all that when it should have been me by his side. Me staying doesn’t mean I enjoy being humiliated, I stay because I am hoping my marriage still has a chance of being redeemed, I choose to stay because I feel God is teaching me and my husband some life lessons and after that our lives will get back to normal.
I miss spending time with my husband, going out on dates, watching movies together, cuddling and making love, all that we used to do when we just got married, the distance kills me every day but sometimes I have to act like I don’t care.
After sometime I said my prayers and slept, when I woke up I went straight to take a shower because I didn’t want to be late for the meeting I had in the morning. I checked through my closet and choose a black short dress and wore a pink blazer on top and wrapped it up with Pink stilettos with a bit of gold in the sides.
Dan walked in just when I was doing my makeup “Have you lost it?” he asked angrily
“What are you talking about?” I asked
“You fought with my sister and pushed my mother what kind of a monster are you?” he asked
“Dan please don’t start with me, ask your mother why I did what I did” I said sounding as calm as possible
“You are testing me Pam and I swear if you continue you won’t like what I will do” he said
“I hear you” I responded
He didn’t like my response so we got into a heated argument and I was even late for work, when I finally managed to leave the house I drove like a mad person knowing how important my meeting was, I got to my office and quickly collected what I needed for the meeting just when I was dashing out I met my secretary by the door.
“Madam, Mr. Monde is here to see you, should I let him in?” she asked
“I can’t see him now I am rushing out to Intercontinental Hotel to meet up with some clients, I am already late as it is” I answered while signaling for her to get out of my way
“But he says it’s urgent” she said
“I can’t see him now, just schedule another appointment for him” I said as I walked out
I walked to the car drove very fast because I didn’t want to miss my meeting, the people I was going to meet where quiet impatient and if I delayed I would find them gone.
Even if I was slightly late we managed to have a successful meeting I went back to the office and attended to other things, by the time I was going back home it was late and I was exhausted but I didn’t complain because I had a had a productive day.
One week later, things still haven’t changed in my house I have had it up to my nose with my in-laws and things keep getting worse, I haven’t told my sister yet what goes on in the confines of my house because I know she will explode and tell me to leave. I am not yet ready to leave my husband and if I decide to leave I want it to come from the heart and it shouldn’t be a decision someone enforced on me.
I am hurting in,side, I have been broken by the insults and name calling but when you see me walking down the street what you will see is perfection, you will see a happy strong woman. It’s always like this with most women, we hurt in silence, we cry behind closed doors over the things we have no control over but when we bath and wear makeup and walk out we smile as if everything is okay, it’s because we are women, we are strong beings even with tears in our eyes we manage to brighten others and say we are fine.
What I am going through has made me realize the inner strength that we women posses, sometimes you might say I can’t go through what she is going through, I can’t take in all the pain I would die if I were her but only when you find yourself standing in her shoes will you be able to know just how strong you are.
It’s hærd being a woman because you have to take the blame for most of the things that go wrong in relationsh¡ps, if the marriage is falling they will point fingers at you, no children in a home it’s all your fault, if he cheats they say you aren’t giving him enough attention, if he abuses you, they say you haven’t been respecting him so he is punishing you, they will ignore all the short comings of a man why? Just because he is a man and men will always be men, they justify it by saying it’s their nature, don’t bother with them as long as you please him you will have no problems but when will he ever please me? One silly mistake I make as a woman in my relationsh¡p or marriage even my ancestors get to hear about it, even my fellow women will point fingers at me and call me names is this how it’s supposed to be? Is this the standard because I am tired of being the one taking the blame always.
TBC