MEMOIRS OF AN UGLY GIRL
By HSR* 📝📝📝
– *Diary entry –31*
I am sorry it’s been a while I have been supper busy with school i have hardly had time to sit down and talk to you.
It’s four o’clock on a Sunday morning and I am wide awake.
I am sitting on my bed listening to music.
So I have a lot to tell you, I need to fill you in on the past two weeks.
The past few weeks run through my head like an athlete running in a marathon, so much has happened, so much has changed I don’t even know where to start from.
Well first things first, I need to get myself some tea to kick start my day then I can tell you all about it.
I get out of bed and stretch my arms before I walk out to the kitchen to make myself a cup of tea. Walking to the kettle, I fill it with water and set it on the stove to boil. After a while, it starts bubbling and I add the tea leaves.
When the kettle whistles I pour the tea in a cup and add sugar, I carry it and head back to my room. The house is unusually quiet at this time of the day, the divas are still sleeping I am sure they won’t be up till later in the day.
I take a sip of my tea and place the cup on the table, it’s very hot and I love it this way.
Okay so I know you are anxious to know what’s been happening, let me satisfy your curiosity.
First things first, Uncle Steve went back to Chipata, oh yes you heard me right- nigga left. I just hope he doesn’t visit for the next two years. I need me some fresh air. My auntie is still around, poor bitter frustrated woman where can she go from here; she has been quiet depressed the last few days, news just got to her that her husband is marrying another woman not that I am excited about what’s happening to her but I think she needs this to save as a wakeup call for her to set her priorities right.
Anyway away from my auntie, my cousin Sherister is pretty much upset about her father’s decision to marry another woman, I guess she had hoped he would forgive her mother and take them both home but luck wasn’t in her favor. She has been emotional all week because her father still doesn’t even want to see her face.
Koko- my woman crush every single day, we have been talking on phone the past few days. It’s just sad that her sister’s child past on last week but the good news though is that she is coming back tomorrow, I swear I can’t wait to see her.
I miss my woman so much, I have so much to tell her.
And last but not the least, Elijah!
Oh you should see how my face brightens up when I think of him, that man is heaven sent I swear, I don’t even know what I did to deserve him.
So guess what Diary!!!
Well Elijah and i are an item now.
‘Awwwww!’ it finally happened, I couldn’t say no to him when he asked me out, i think I too deserve a little bit of happiness after everything I have gone through.
We are taking things slow, one step at a time and we are keeping our relationship a secret because I am his student and you know what that means.
So diary, I haven’t told anyone about our relationship apart from you- let’s just keep this between the two of us. #winkwink
So what else did I want to tell you? oh now I remember, Valentines is like two days away, what do you think I should get for Elijah, Nigga has been too good to me I just want to get him something to appreciate him and then another thing is that we have been invited to his sister’s house for dinner on Valentines, apparently he has told her about me and she wants to met me.
My nerves have been on the edge ever since Elijah told me about this, I am still not sure if I should go or not. Like what am I going to wear for such an event? How do i even act when I get there? Will she like me? Pardon me if I seem to be asking too much but this is all too knew too me and I feel like it’s too soon to be meeting his sisters though Elijah insisted and I don’t want to disappoint him.
I think I need a friend to advice me on all these things.
Where can I hire a friend diary, someone genuine and trustworthy?
I miss Angie though we shared some good moments together how I wish she had been true to me from the beginning.
You know what Diary we will sort all these things out when the time is right. It’s almost 6 hours and I need to start cleaning, Elijah will be picking me up later so we can go to his church, these days when he comes over, he parks his car a few houses away from ours and I have to walk over there to meet him because I don’t want a repeat of what happened the last time he came home.
I hope I will find some time to talk to you again later in the day before the week gets busy diary but if I don’t, don’t despair I will see you soon.
I love and appreciate you!!!! Kisses Zendaya
MONDAY FEBRUARY 13th*
– *Diary entry –32*
‘Tu! Tu! Tu!’ My alarm clock rings as loud as it can enough for me to wake up.
Yawning and stretching my arms, I hit the alarm clock to turn it off.
Then i rub my eyes and sit upright,
How come it’s morning already? I need more sleep and more rest. Well maybe I could skip class today I try to convince myself but I roll out of bed eventually when I realize I have an important presentation at school which is part of my CA.
I head straight for the bathroom hoping the cold water will knock the sleep out of me.
A while later I walk out of the bathroom feeling a whole lot better- I feel alive.
I quickly get dressed pack my books and laptop before I walk out of my room to the kitchen to have my breakfast. I have made it a point to have all my meals these days.
I am sitting in the kitchen having breakfast when Sherister walks in all dressed up for school, she is wearing a short black dress that displays her tiny baby bump, I swear pregnancy looks good on her, she is glowing and she doesn’t even know it. If I look this good on my first pregnancy then I will be getting pregnant every year- Wishful thinking I know.
‘Morning,’ Sherister says as she pours herself a glass of Juice.
She shoots me an evil glance, she hates to be called Rister it annoys her big time. I only call her that when I want to get on her nerves and it works all the time.
‘My name is She-ri-ster! What sort of Rister bullshit is that?’ She rolls her eyes
‘Rister sounds s£xy,’ I laugh
‘Zendaya! I am seriously not in the mood for you right now.’
‘How is our baby doing?’
‘We are cousins remember, whats yours is mine cousin.’
She clicks her tongue, ‘I don’t know what has gotten into you this morning but please leave me alone.’
I am about to respond to her when my phone buzzes- it’s a text from Elijah.
‘Good morning Gorgeous!’
‘Good morning Babe!’
‘How are you? I hope you slept well.’
‘I am fine & ya i slept well. You?’
‘Same here. I miss you though.’
‘I miss you too.’
‘Ready for school?’
‘Can’t wait to see you.’
I chuckle and reply, ‘me too.’
‘I will see you later babe, take care of yourself.
‘Take care of yourself too, I love you.’
‘I love you too,’ he replies
I place my phone on the table and continue eating. I can feel Sherister’s curious eyes on me, I glance up to find her staring at me.
‘Just a little curious, are you seeing someone?’
I raise my eyebrows, ‘How is that any of your business?’
‘We are cousins remember and we must tell each other everything.’
‘Oh please,’ I stand up
‘Do you want a lift to school?’ she asks
She got her back from her father so she can easily move to and from school
‘I would love that,’ I smile, like who says no to a free ride. This girl is dramatic though, I don’t understand her, some days she is nice some days she is extremely mean.
Anyway she finishes her breakfast and we walk out of the house to her car, I slid into the passenger seat while she gets on the driver’s side.
She pulls the car out of the drive way and soon we are on our way to school.
The drive to school is quiet, while she has her eyes focused on the road, I have mine focused on my book, I keep going through the presentation to make sure it’s perfect.
Thirty minutes later, she parks in front of my school.
‘Thank you for the ride cousin,’ I smile stepping out of the car
She drives off as I walk in.
‘Pa Phiri morning,’ I politely greet the security man at the gate.
‘Zenidaya morning my child.’
I roll my eyes, ‘Zen-da-ya.’
He laughs, ‘One and the same thing.’
I shake my head, ‘Haba. I need to get ready for a presentation at 8.’
‘Alright, all the best.’
I walk to my classroom, I find some people in groups obviously going through the final touches of their presentations. My group and I finalized our work on Friday all we need is just to go through it one more time then we are good to go.
‘Hey! Hey!’ one of my classmates greets me.
‘You are good?’
‘So I was wondering if you can help us with a little bit of information,’ she says
I knew that greeting had a condition to it, the only time most of these people are ever kind to me is when they need help with something.
She grabs the book from another colleague and comes to my desk, every member of her group joins.
‘We need some points we are kinda stuck?’
‘Are you kidding me? This is Monday and we should be presenting in like an hour’s time yet they haven’t even written anything concrete.’
‘Just a few points to get us started; please we will quickly do a write up before Miss.
I want to say no to them considering how badly they treat me most of the times but I hate repaying evil for evil.
‘Okay, I will help but I will be quick just twenty minutes because my group members will be here soon.’
Well, I spend the next forty minutes explaining to them and giving examples, while they take a few notes here and there, their question is even easier than the one they were given yet they failed to come up with answers, it think it’s just laziness mwe.
They rush off to their desk and start writing.
‘You shouldn’t have helped them,’ Angie whispers as she seats next to me, she is part of my group.
‘They always treat you badly.’
I laugh,’ As if you have ever treated me any better.’
‘Let’s not get into that, we need to go through this,’ I gesture to the other guys to join us.
08: 15 hours
Miss Christine walks into the classroom and as usual she is wearing a really short and tight dress, the class erupts in a burst of quiet murmurs.
I shake my head she really knows how to draw attention to herself.
She puts her bag on the table before she speaks out.
‘I am sorry I am late something came up but we will get into the presentations right away.’
‘Okay!’ Sarah responds, her group is the first to present.
‘Just hold on shortly before you start, someone else will be joining us. He is going to help me grade this presentation,’ she smiles
There is a knock at the door a second later.
‘I will get it,’ she tells Rose who is about to go to the door.
She opens the door and smiles widely at the person on the other side.
‘Hey! Come on in,’ she says.
My heart beats hard when I see the person who has just walked into the classroom.
We lock eyes briefly before he quickly looks away; well at school we try to keep our relationship as professional as possible to avoid any suspicions.
‘No need for introductions I guess,’ she says
When Elijah and Miss Christine are settled in, Sarah walks to the front and starts with the presentation, I am jotting down a few things as she goes on and on, the presentation is good- quiet good actually they did their research.
A few claps sounds from the rest of the class as she concludes
‘Thank You Sarah and your group,’ Miss Miss Christine gestures for her to return to her seat.
I am up next but I am so nervous, this is the part I hate about school, standing in front of the classroom and presenting, though lecturers have told before that I am good at this, I just never believe them, I still have a low self esteem you can’t blame me though.
‘Zendaya! Miss Christine yells startling me from my trance.
‘We don’t have the whole day,’ she snaps at me
I stand up, take a deep breath and make my way to the front of the class.
I focus my eyes around the room and try to be as confident as possible.
‘—–so Event management coordination, generation, advancement and execution help specialists additionally include administration actualized as occasions, item propelling, question and answer questions among others, ‘I finally conclude.
Most of the people clap and cheer for me as I head back to my seat.
‘Good job,’ Elijah says
Surprisingly even Miss Christine is impressed.
The last group is almost winding up with their presentation, I can’t wait for this class to end, i am kind of irritated at the way Miss Christine keeps whispering in Elijah’s ears and leaning on him like who does that, this lady is trouble, I swear I can’t deal.
Eventually the last group finishes and we all hand over our papers to the madam.
‘Excellent work you all,’ Elijah says as he stands up to finally leave
‘Thank you for helping out,’ she smiles at him
‘You are welcome Christine.’
I roll my eyes, ‘Christine!’ I mutter under my breath.
‘I will bring these papers next time with have class,’ Miss Christine
says a minute later before she leaves the classroom.
So we have one more class before we call it a day, I seriously can’t wait to go home, Koko is coming today and I am excited- I can’t keep calm.
‘Zendaya can we talk?’ Angie asks
‘I don’t think we have anything to talk about.’
‘Please just spare me even 5 minutes of your time after class, please.’
I love Angie, I still miss our moments but I don’t know if we can restore what we once shared, well maybe I should her a chance and see what she is going to say.
‘Okay,’ I respond.