Memoirs Of An Ugly Girl

Memoirs of an ugly girl batch 8

MEMOIRS OF AN UGLY GIRL
By HSR* 📝📝📝
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*MONDAY- JANUARY 16th*
– *Diary entry –15*
 
Dear Diary,
 
It’s a Monday morning; Koko and I are sitting in the kitchen having breakfast- its peanut porridge as usual.
‘How are the studies coming along?’ she asks
‘They are tough Koko.’
‘Well I have no doubt you will make it my munchkin.’
‘You always believe in me.’
‘Of course, I am your cheerleader,’ she smiles
‘I know I say this almost every day, I love you a lot and I appreciate the sacrifices you make for me.’
She smiles, ‘Is it the porridge?’
‘Hah Koko,’ I hit her playfully
‘I love you too my princess, I can’t wait to see you graduate and I can’t wait to walk you down the aisle.’
I clear my throat, but before I can respond, a car horn hoots at the gate.
‘That’s my cue to leave,’ I stand up, grabbing my bag
‘Dodging the discussion,’ Koko laughs
‘Koko I have to go to school now.’
‘Okay, we shall still talk about walking you down the aisle when you get back.’
‘I will see you later woman,’ I peck both her cheeks.
‘Have a great day hun,’ she says as I open the front door.
‘You too,’ i respond before storming out of the house
Angela’s car is parked in front of our gate. I open the door and jump into the passenger seat.
‘Hey,’ I say as I fasten my seat belt
‘Hey,’ Angela responds in a low tone.
I give her a quizzical look, ‘You are okay?’
‘Yes,’ she shakes her head
I stare at her, her eyes look swollen as if she has been crying.
‘What happened?’ I ask
She looks out the window, ‘its Liam.’
‘What has he done?’
Liam is Angela’s boyfriend though I haven’t met him before, I have seen his photos and she has told me a lot about him, as far I am concerned their relationsh¡p is stable.
‘He ended things with me this morning,’ she bursts into tears
‘Why?’I gasp in surprise
‘I don’t know, he just called and told me to stay away from him, he said I am not who he thought I was so he can’t be with me anymore.’
I stare at her in silence I don’t know what to tell her because I have never experienced a heart break before.
‘I love him Zen, Liam and I have been together five years, how can he abruptly break things off with me?’
‘Maybe it’s just a misunderstanding or something, see him after class and hear what he has to say.’
She sniffs and wipes her eyes, ‘I hope this is just a misunderstanding, I will die if he leaves me for someone else.’
‘Maybe he is upset about something so let the dust settle, talk to him in the evening.’
‘’I will do just that,’ she manages a smile.
‘It’s going to be okay,’ I try to reassure her
‘I hope so.’
She clears her throat, ’Thanks for listening.’
‘Anytime Exe.’
‘Exe?’
‘Yes you are my nigga,’ I wrap my hands around her and hug her.
‘I thank God for you’ she says as she starts the car.
‘The feeling is mutual,’ I smile
The drive to school takes about thirty minutes, when we get to school she parks the in the first available s₱0t and we get out of the car.
‘My face looks a mess right?’ She asks
‘Nothing a little make up can’t solve,’ I respond
‘Okay.’
We walk down the hall to the ladies so she can retouch her makeup. Angela is so good at this makeup thing, I try but I am not as good as she is.
‘Do I look better now?’ she looks at me
‘You look beautiful now Exe.’
‘Okay.’
She stares briefly at the mirror before we walk out.
We rush to class because we are like 10 minutes late.
When we get to our classroom, I push the door open, Elijah is sitting at his desk, on his side is Sarah, she is wearing a really short dress and heels.
My heart skips a beat and I instantly get angry.
Sarah annoys the hell out of me.
I stare at them for a brief second he seems to be paying attention to what she is saying. The rest of the class seems to be busy with their own stuff.
‘Zen,’ Angela whispers
I step aside and ask her to walk in, when she does I walk in too slamming the door with force and it makes a loud noise, everyone looks up at me.
I shrug my shoulders and walk to my seat.
‘You are jealous,’ Angela whispers
I choose to ignore her.
‘Such ugly manners,’ I hear Sarah say as she walks back to her seat.
‘Fool,’ I say under my breath
I look at Elijah and he looks at me too but I instantly look away.
I don’t even understand what’s going on with me, I don’t know why I am feeling this way and acting like this.
‘Since everyone is here, we can start.’
He begins to explain but I hærdly get anything from his lecturer, my mind is lost in thoughts.
I am jolted out of my daze by the vibration of my phone.
I pick it up and read to read the message, ‘Are you okay?’
Guess whose texting, I roll my eyes and place my phone in my bag.
It vibrates after a minute again, ‘did I do something wrong?’
I click my tongue switch my phone off before I place it in my bag.
After a while people begin to ask him questions based on the assignment he has just given us, when he answers all the questions, he shuts down his laptop and packs his books, he is about to walk out when Sarah calls him.
‘Sir,’ she calls
‘Yes Sarah.’
‘Well I didn’t clearly understand the last part of the assignment.’
I laugh out loud Angela hits me Sarah gives me one of those evil looks.
‘I have another class in like five minutes, just ask around from your friends I am sure someone can explain that last part to you and if you still don’t get it, I will give clarity tomorrow,’ and with that said he storms out of the class.
‘Good for her,’ Angela whispers
Sarah rolls her eyes and walks over to our table.
She looks at Angela then at me.
‘Just because Angela is friends with you doesn’t make you a star, know your lane Zen, you don’t want to be in my bad books I can mess you up pretty badly.
I choose not to respond, Lord I hate confrontations.
‘Know your lane too Sarah, you are all over Elijah can’t you see he is tired of your nonsense, dude practically ran away from you.’
‘The girls behind us laugh.’
Sarah is mad, she is about respond but the next lecturer walks in she walks back to her seat.
My classes seem to go by slowly and boring.
By the end of the day I am tired and exhausted, I just want to go home and sleep.
Diary entry –16*
 
Dear Diary,
 
17: 00: Standing by my window with a glass of juice in my hand trying to get some fresh air into my lungs.
There is a pile of books on my bed, I have been trying to work on this assignment for nearly three hours now but so far I am not satisfied with what I have written down.
So right now I am trying to take some time away from the assignment, I will figure it out later.
Well, Elijah has been trying to talk to me since yesterday but I have been avoiding him, I haven’t responded to his calls or messages since yesterday.
I don’t even understand why I am acting like this though, like I know we are just friends and nothing more but I am upset, I am upset at the fact that he keeps entertaining Sarah and her flirty ways, Dah! I know what you are thinking right now, I have no right to be upset but I seriously can’t help it, Sarah is a beautiful woman and I can’t compete with that, I am so Jealous of her right now.
You know when we talked that night at the club, I felt a kind of way and deep down I hoped me and him could get to know each other better and create some sort of bond, I have seen such in movies.
‘Get over yourself Zendaya, guys like Elijah don’t hang out with girls like you,’ I hear my inner voice speaking
This is my voice of logic and reason, each time I wanna do something silly it’s always there to warn me. So yes I need to get over this little feeling because men like Elijah don’t hang out with girls like me.
‘Couldn’t you have made me a little beautiful lord even just one percent of beauty would have made a difference,’ I ask no one in particular.
I am lost in thoughts when suddenly my phone rings its Angela.
‘Exe!
‘Tsup my nigga, what are you doing?’ she asks
‘Just standing by the window tryna get some air, this assignment is giving me a headache.’
She laughs, ‘I haven’t even looked at that assignment.’
‘Wait till Elijah kicks you out of his classroom then you will have time to look at his assignment.’
She clears her throat, ‘Elijah is bae he can’t kick me out of his class.’
‘Elijah is Bae he can’t kick me out of his class,’ I imitate her.
She laughs, ‘So I am bored, wanna go to the mall with me?’
‘I don’t feel like it, I need to finish working on this assignment.’
‘You are such a bore.’
‘What’s at the mall?’
‘Chills come on just for a few minutes please pretty please.’
‘Fine,’ I laugh
‘Great! I will be there in a few minutes.’
’20 minutes?’ I frown
‘I am already on my way.’
‘You just never cease to amaze me.’
‘Dah.’
‘Bye let me get dressed.’
‘See you soon Nigga.’
‘Sharp,’ I respond before I hang up.
I already took a bath when I got back from school so I just decide to change my clothes and apply a little make up, yes you heard me right, a little makeup, I am trying to keep up with the trends, I am trying to look more girly who knows I might end up meeting my potential somebody.
A few minutes later, my phone vibrates it’s a text from Angela.
‘I am in the kitchen with Koko. Hurry up.’
‘Why aren’t you coming up here?’
‘Koko is bae.’
‘Fool, that’s my Koko.’
‘Ours.’
‘Whatever.’
I put my phone back on the bed and slip my feet into a pair of blue sneakers afterwards I briefly stare at myself in the mirror before I match out of my room.
I walk straight to the kitchen ignoring Auntie Naomi and Sherister who are lying on the floor in the living room.
These two haven’t spoken to me since Sunday and I like it this way, I am just surprised they didn’t tell Koko about what happened, I didn’t tell her either because I didn’t wanna bother her.
‘Hey Koko.’
She turns her head and looks at me in a weird kinda way.
‘What?’
‘You’ve got that girly look on.’
‘I am just a small girl in a big world tryna look pretty,’ I smile back at her
A huge smile spreads across her face,’ I haven’t heard you talk like this I think Angela is good for you.’
‘Tell her Koko, I am making this girl glow.’
I laugh, ‘You wish.’
‘Koko thank you for your time, I am taking this girl out for a few minutes.’
‘Please take her, make sure you find her boyfriend.’
I roll my eyes, ‘That’s not funny Koko.’
‘It’s a deal Koko,’ Angela laughs
We wave goodbye to Koko and head for the front door, auntie clicks her tongue as we walk past her, I choose to ignore her.
‘So, how are things with Liam?’ I ask as she starts the car
She sighs, ‘Liam doesn’t wanna see me.’
‘That’s sad.’
‘I know and my heart is bruised, I called his sister she said we should meet up over the weekend.’
‘I see.’
We talk about school and the assignment as she drives; we get to the mall a few minutes later.
When we step out of the car, she takes me to that ice cream shop where Elijah and I first met.
‘So you brought me here for ice cream?’
‘Well Ice cream is the best remedy for a broken heart.’
‘Dah!’
She orders ice cream and we sit at one of the tables.
‘So I have a confession to make,’ Angela says a while later
‘I am all ears,’ I look up at her
‘I brought you here because there’s someone who wants to talk to you?’ she says quietly
‘Who?’
‘Hey,’ says a familiar voice, before Angela can respond.
I turn around to see Elijah standing a few feet away.
My heart slams hærd against my chest, I open my mouth to say something but words fail me, I can’t speak I just hold my mouth open gasping.
‘Earth to Zen,’ Angela waves her hand in my face, ‘You are acting like you have seen a ghost.’
‘What are you doing here?’ I finally managed to ask
‘I think this is my cue to leave,’ Angela stands up
‘You have to be joking,’ I shake my head
‘Talk to him Zen.’
Before I can protest she is already out of the door, like really who does that, I am fuming with anger right now but I don’t move.
‘Can I take a seat?’ He asks but I respond with silence, he pulls back a chair and sits down anyway.
An awkward silence fills the atmosphere, I feel like running off but my mind tells me to keep still.
He clears his throat a few minutes later before he decides to speak out, ‘How are you?’
‘I am…. okay.’
‘You have been avoiding me tsup.’
‘Just tryna keep my distance, I don’t want to get too close to my lecturer.’
‘I thought we are past this Zen.’
‘Well you thought wrong,’ I respond and take another lick of my cone ice cream.
‘I don’t get you anymore, one minute we are fine next minute you are angry and not picking up my calls, like why are you tripping?’
‘I am not tripping just stop following me around like a lost puppy, stop texting me, stop calling me, leave me alone!’ I say a little louder and the person on the other table stares at me awkwardly.
He gives me a pained look, ‘That hurt.’
‘Sorry.’
‘What did I do wrong?’
‘Nothing, it’s not you it’s me I just don’t wanna be friends.’
‘I like you Zen and…….,’
‘Just stop right there, I don’t wanna hear it.’
‘Zen!’
‘Please just focus on being my lecturer, let’s forget about being friends.’
‘That’s what you want?’
‘Yes.’
He takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly, ‘If that’s what you want then cool.’
‘Okay.’
Zena 💋💋💋💋💋
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*TBC*

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