My life at thirty episode 16

My life at thirty episode 16
Throughout the week i didn’t hear from Aisha, reading was so hærd for me and all my exam was definitely in the hand of God as i was not able to assimilate all i was reading. Aminat tried her best for me but nothing can be compared to my Aisha, nothing can be compared to me first love, i truly loved her and cant just take her out of my life just like that.
I saw Aisha and his fiancée in school the following week and they even requested to give me lift out of the school which i decline with excuse that i was not going to town. It still baffles me how someone will be that callous as she never even bothered to call me, text or apologized for the way she treated me, it was just as if nothing happened.
We finished our first semester exam and were given two weeks holiday, i was not with the right frame of mind to continue with the coaching class, the initial excuse was my exam but i realized i had a weaken heart. Assimilating had become so difficult for me so i rather be myself than disgrace myself in public all in the name of continuing coaching classes.
It has been close to two years i last visited home, they didn’t even ask me to come home either, my dad send any little money he has to my account anytime he feel like. In fact, i don’t ask them for me since i have extra means of income, they send our food stuff through bus coming to Ilorin and there was even a regular driver that do help them out and we have been so close that anytime they are sending us food, he will come and drop it at our door step in the hostel for us. My accommodation fee is sent to my account, as usual, ismaeel doesn’t have any problem because of his many source of income
Break was over and we already resumed second semester 300level, they started pasting our results on the notice board. The first two result i saw was D. At the end of it all, the result was mixed together and i even had E in a course, that was the first exam we did for the first semester.
When the last result was pasted, my CGPA had dropped to 4.41 which means i dropped drastically from my first class position.
Our HOD was surprised about my result for that semester and he personally called me to his office in the company of my level adviser, they asked what was the reason for the decline in my result, if i was having any problem as they never expected my result to drop like that. In fact the HOD called for all my answer script to be sure it was actually my score. After going through all my result sheet he was so sure there was something wrong with me. He advised me to work on whatever is bothering me and never let it affect my academics. I appreciated them, thank them and promised them that my result for the second semester will definitely push me back to first class.
It was so funny that i didn’t later hear from Aisha again, i couldn’t help but wonder if that was how love ended with someone. I was in my room one day after i came back from school, i saw Aisha earlier with a guy in school in a somehow of rom-ntic mood, though she didn’t see me. Aisha had stop using the long veil and she resorted to just tying scarf on her head, in fact she had started wearing jean trouser which revealed her beauty to the outer world, i was so jealous as i continue to stare at her beauty. (what belongs to me alone before was now what the wh0le school is now seeing for free).
I didn’t know when tears started rolling down my eyes after thinking through everything that happened between me and Aisha. To say i love Aisha so much was an understatement, definitely it was not because of the S£x but for the fact that she thought me what love is all about, i never had any emotional feelings with the opposite S£x until i met her. The worst part of it was that i always see her in school like three times in a week but she always run away from me without leaving chance for communication. I was even ready to apologize to her if i was the one that offended her, i was ready to be by the side and let her see reason that i was the best for her but the chance was not there at all.
I didn’t know when Aminat enter the room, the only thing that brought me back to the atmosphere was her hand on my cheek, that was the first time we had a physical contact because they all know i don’t have contact with the opposite S£x, i don’t know what gave her the courage to touch me too. Aminat started ranting at me “ what is the problem Abdulrahman? Why are you crying? Dont tell me you are still thinking about Aisha”
“You are a total disappointment wallahi, what sort of a weak man are you?loo at you, looking so unkept, only God knows the last time you shaved, look at beards all over your face, For crying out loud, its been more than two month this lady left you for another guy, the lady has moved on already and you are still here crying, you better wake up to reality because its as if you think she is still coming back to you or you guys can work out things between each other, you want to kill yourself because of a lady, you are becoming a shame to manh-od jare Abdulrahman, i even thought you are strong looking at you from far not knowing that you are a weak fellow. No wonder Aisha left you for another guy, so you are this emotionally weak, you are a man for crying out loud, you will be a graduate in about a year time and if you cant handle something as small as a relationsh¡p while in school then how are you going to cope when you leave school, married and started handling complex relationsh¡p like marriage, you need to brace up and be a man for once jhoor”
All her words were so painful and entering my body, was it really her fault? Definitely NO. I was actually the one that fell in love blindly, i was so naive and amateur, Aisha definitely played a fast one on me but am i that dunce that she had to leave me for another guy without being remorseful? There was silence in the room as Aminat was walking up and down in,side the room she came to me again after a while and started talking in a soft tone
“Abdulrahman, sincerely you need to let go, forget about Aisha, she is gone for good, she doesn’t think about you again, she has moved on so you need to move on and think about your own, there are million girls out there that are much better than Aisha, you still have a long way to go dear.
Look at you, you are a fine boy now, very handsome for that matter, forget the Alfa stuff that you are doing, deep down in,side you there is a beauty which any lady will always die for. You will still meet so many ladies, far much better than Aisha, there are still a lot of us in the school, there is still NYSC, you will start working, and you will still meet female colleagues. Your neighbourhood too, there will be so many ladies flocking all over you, please you need to take this out of your mind and move ahead, i beg you in the name of Almighty Allah and Prophet Muhammed.
Me: Thank you so much Amina, have heard you…Almighty Allah will be with you too
Amina: Amen but is that a promise
Me: I will try
Amina: Not only try, you have to promise me………..
Me: Okay, i promise to try and do away with her thought
Amina: That is better….what did you eat this afternoon
Me: have not eaten but i will eat very soon, i only took cornflakes this morning
Amina: Cornflakes since morning and this is almost 6pm
Me: i will eat now…..
Amina: okay, don’t worry, what we will do is am not sure you will eat after i leave this place. Why not let us go out to a fast food and eat, while away time. At least change of atmosphere will definitely help a alot
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Me: there is no need for that Amina
Amina: No oooo..its my call and i insist, i know you wont want to reject my offer for the first time…please
Me: okay…No problem
Amina: Thank you so much but before we go
Me: what is it again?
Amina: we will first go to saloon, you will shave and from there we will hang out and come back home…..
Me: Shave again?
Amina: yes of course, seems you have not been looking at the mirror all this while to see what you actually look like
Me: okay, as your lordsh¡p pleases..
Amina: let me go and change in my room, you can also change too…am giving you just 5 minutes Abdulrahman
Me: okay…
She left my room and i was still thinking about all what she said, she came back like 5 minutes later putting on a jean trouser and a V-neck top with a small purse in her hand. I was still the way i was when she left, blue shirt and a jean trouser which was just like four inches above my knee.
Amina: so, you are still here? You have not change?
Me: okay, don’t worry, no need for you to change, we can go like this……
I wanted to take my cap and she said no need for that, she dragged my hand and led me out of the room, Amina was having more courage by touching me but i didn’t resist in the first place while we are in the room. We walked down to Zanrab bus stop, took a ca going to tipper garage and we drop by the round about, there was a shopping plaza by the round about, we enetered the barbing saloon there, luckily for us, there was a vacant space.
I sat down and heard Aminat discussing with the guy that wanted to barb my hair, he brought out clipper and tie cloth round my neck then he said “low cut with shaving”, i responded by nodding my head in affirmative.
That was how he started cutting my hair, my mind started flashing back to me and Aisha, the scene of what happened when she introduced me to Ibrahim in her house, the way she has been avoiding me in school and all sort, i was totally lost in thought
Barber: Se o ti wa okay bayi? (Is it okay like this)
“i looked at the mirror and realized my hair was already on the lowest ever since i started barbing my hair and for my beards, they are nowhere to be found again, he had trim them down to the lowest.”
Me: why? What happened, why did you cut my hair so low like this?
Barber: It was aunty that said i should barb it like this (Pointed to Aminat), I even asked while i was barbing it and you were nodding your head in affirmative
Amina: I asked him to barb it this way…you look finer….its okay don’t worry dear, how much is our money
Barber: N100…..
“Aminat paid the barber as we left the place”
Me: so, where are we going…..
Aminat: Wait now…we will take bike from here to the place
She stopped a bike beside us, “Agba-dam”, ibo ni Agba-dam” (Where in Agba dam) the bikeman enquired…”close to lawal house”..Initially i wanted us to take separate bike but she insisted we take one because i don’t know where we are going to. She sat in the middle while i was behind heron the bike
 
Tbc