My mind as a teenager episode 84

My mind as a teenager
episode 84
28 passed and I was grateful I had my room
mate who didn’t let me be alone that
Saturday.
 
The next day being Sunday,my girlfriend
suggested that I call him. I refused but she
insisted, saying that if I really needed to be
happy and move on,that I should call him for
the last time.
Me: Hello!
I think he was surprised to hear the
confidence in my voice
Ray: Rose
Me: How are you?
Ray: I’m fine.
Me: How was the wedding?
Ray: Successful. We thank God.
Me: Guess you guys will be going for
Thanksgiving today.
Ray: No. It was just the traditional wedding
that was done.
Me: Oh! Forgive me. Thought it was the white
wedding. How is she?
Ray: Who?
Me: Our wife.
Ray: She’s fine. She’s even here. Should I
give her the phone?
I thought for a while, maybe he has told her
about me or maybe not. My roomie gave me
a nod.
Me: Yes please. Give her the phone.
Wifey: Hello
Me: Good morning
Wifey: Good morning.
Me: Congratulations on your marriage
Wifey: Thank you
Me: You’re welcome. Please take care of him
for me o
Wifey: I will. Thank you.
Me: Please give him the phone.
I bade him goodbye and ended the call
before turning to my room mate.
Lucy: You’ve done your own part. Its now left
for his conscience to judge him. Don’t call
him ever again. If he wants to speak with
you,he should call you.
Me: If there is a way for me to block him in
all my social networks, I’ll do that. I don’t
want to see him again.
Lucy: You and I know that its not possible.
Just be cool. If he chats you up,reply in your
best polite manner. He’s not worth the heart
attack.
We started discussing other issues about
work.
I later blocked Raymond on my Facebook
when I saw he used his traditional marriage
picture as his profile picture. I would not
mind to see anything except the face of his
wife.
Easter was fast approaching and I was fast
preparing my resignation letter. I had missed
home a lot.
 
On good Friday morning, I went to the hotel
and gave the manager my letter. I didn’t even
let him open it before I walked out. I went
back to my apartment and finished up with
my packing. I bade my roommate goodbye
before I left for home.
My people were happy to see me.
They kept on complaining about how lean I
was.
Again,I apologized to mum for leaving home
without her permission. She asked me to
kneel down and I did. She brought a plate of
water and said a prayer of blessing then she
used the water to wash my face. We all went
together to the church that evening. I was
happy to be home after five months.
 
It was the next day that I started telling my
friends that I was back. They all wanted to
see me and they were happy.
Easter came and passed. My siblings spent
one week at home before school resumed
leaving me all alone. I decided to start
socialising once again. I had being indoors
since I came back and it always made me
think about my past. I started going to the
shop with mum. Three weeks after I came
back,Vivian lost her dad. He never recovered
from that stroke.
The date for the burial was fixed and as a
friend,I went there a day before the burial.
She was full of thanks because I helped in
almost everything.
I even sewed the burial clothe. Most people
were asking me if the late John was my
father.
After the burial which took place in may,I
went home.
 
Two days after I returned, Raymond chatted
me on WhatsApp. He said he wanted to see
me and I told him my house was available.
The next day,I was dressing up to go and
register in a dance class when he
called,saying he was in front of my house. I
went down,opened the gate and let him in. I
spoke to myself that I was going to be strong
so he won’t know how I felt about the wh0le
thing.
Ray: How are you?
Me: I’m fine.
Ray: I must confess,you’re looking good.
D–n! Look at those h¡ps.
We both laughed.
Me: You’re crazy. Thank you.
Ray: Heard you went for Vivian’s dad’s burial.
Heard you even spent the night. Is that how
close you two have become?
Me: She’s my friend nau.
Ray: That’s nice.
Me: So how’s everyone at home?
Ray: They are all fine.
Me: And Wifey?
He looked at me briefly before responding;
Ray: She’s fine.
 
I was about saying something else before he
shut me up with his words;
Ray; You know,I’ve missed you.
The tears hit my throat immediately.
Ray: Better don’t cry. If you do, I’m going to
k-ss you here.
I hit his shoulder playfully and wiped my
tears.
Me: But why did you get married?
He paused,looked at me and lied;
Ray: Because I wanted to.
I don’t know why my thoughts are like that
but I knew he was lying. The Raymond I
knew,who just graduated would love to
explore life a little,besides,he had no good
job at that time so I quickly had to take what
Lucy had told me before; his mum.
Me: And you couldn’t even tell me?
Ray: Don’t say that,I wanted to see you but
you disappointed me. The plan was that we
see,spend some days in a hotel
room,f–k,f–k again and I’ll tell you. You’ll
cry,I was very sure of that but then,we’ll f–k
again.
 
I looked at him and shook my head not
knowing what else to say.
Ray: But I’m sorry.
I was surprised at his apology but what will I
do? Bottom line,he is married and there is
nothing we can do about it.
Me: Its okay. So when is the white wedding
going to come up? Many years to come I
guess.
Ray: Says who? October.(but it never
happened)
Me: Oh! Okay. Good luck then.
We talked about other things before he left
while I went back to finish up with my make
up before leaving for the dance class.
 
Tbc