Sade’s heart tale episode 20

SADE’S HEART TALE 💌
Part 20
By AMAH’S HEART.

I’m supposed to be happy for the pregnancy but instead I was filled with fear.
Ayomide was a bit worried too but he said the God that did the first one will do it again and this second one won’t be like the first.
I know he was trying to encourage me but I was still scared.

Doctor warned me to wait atleast two years plus before taking in again.

He said alot of healing needs to take place and I don’t have to stress the pelvic until after two years.
He seriously warned and said it will take lots of time for me to properly heal and my womb will be ready again to conceive.
He even said although the possibilities of me getting pregnant even after two years is very slim. I may not get pregnant soon, maybe until after three years when my body is properly healed and relaxed, without that I can’t conceive.

I wanted to start trying for another baby after a year of birthing Pelumi, maybe we will keep trying until miracle happens.
I was never expecting pregnancy so soon.
The doctor even said is not possible for me to conceive within two years of birthing pelumi so how come?
What happened? Could this be God again defying another of the doctors reports in our lives?
Deep down I was truly happy but looking at the circumstances medically fear settled in.
Ayomide tries to erase doubt and fear by motivating me daily but I couldn’t just forget the troubles I went through with the first.
I’m just trying to recover fully from the cuts and pain before I discovered another pregnancy.

An elderly lady living very close to my house, who was a strong believer comes every morning and evening to help bath the baby.
Ayomide does alot of the things, like tiding up the house because I find it difficult to bend most times.
Ayo drives home immediately after work

How can I even be able to care for another baby, what if this second pregnancy became worst than the first.

I began to petition my fears to God, I asked him to settle in my heart, he should remove my doubts, my worries and fear and replace them with faith.

God took full control and even while in the shop, when I’m not attending to any customer I was praying or reading my Bible.
Immediately Pelumi my daughter clocked seven months, Ayomide put her in creche.
My pregnancy was moving smoothly and as the month proceed, I registered for antenatal.
All my secret prayers was to deliver smoothly without much trouble.
I don’t want to go through the difficulty I went through during the first one, I kept praying against every complications that may arise.
Ayomide was also doing the same.
We pray together every night and most morning before he leaves for work and I goes off to shop.
I never told anyone about my pregnancy, not even my Mother.
She has said that I met never be able to get pregnant again and if I happen to then it will be at my own risk because my life will be in line and I may not be able to survive it again.
There was absolutely no point telling her, maybe not right away

As the pregnancy proceed, I was in my seventh month, right in my shop reading my Bible quietly when I heard a voice spoke to me.
It was very clear that I even thought a customer have walked in without my notice.
The voice asked me not to be frightened because the angels were not only watching over me and the baby but will also take charge of everything that concerns me on that delivery day.
The voice asked me to go and do something I have never thought of or heard off before
The voice instructed me to go to a lab for a certain test called a pelvimetry scan just to know the capability of a natural childbirth
Without a second thought, I stood and left that early afternoon to look for a lab.
It was very loud and clear and He wanted to erase my whole fear.

Deep down I will first of all ask questions like if there’s anything like a pelvimetry scan first before proceeding.
I haven’t heard of it before and hearing a voice that I believe was from God whisper it to me while at the shop is something I have to take serious.

Getting there I asked the lab doctor if there was anything like that and he said yes, he asked me which hospital directed me for the lab and I replied that I came in on my own.
No hospital sent me.

He explained what exactly the test does
After I clearly told him that I brought myself.
After explaining, I told him that I will love to really know if my pelvic can bring forth a child
The lab doctor smile and said he likes my courage because the size matters alot. The pelvic scan determine that for me as he asked me to relaxed back.

I had so much faith as I lay there and he began working.
I was anxiously waiting for whatever he will say as I lay quietly.

Tbc