Sandra’s heart tale season 2 episode 1

SANDRA’S HEART TALE 💌 (CONTINUATION)
Part 1
BY AMAH’S HEART.

Read the season 1 Sandra’s Heart Tale episode 1

I moved in to stay with my Mom as I also struggle to forget about Joba.

It was not easy letting go totally. But he already made it clear that he prefers his baby Mama and I was only wasting my time waiting for him.

One good thing is that his mother never supported his wh0le action towards me but she was powerless and couldn’t do anything rather than to console and encourage me.

Sometimes it feels like a bad night mare how everything went from a lovy dovy union, looking forward to the future with Joba, starting a family with him when I move to abroad where he was based.
How much I wanted all of this beautiful moment only for my happiness to be cut short.

The hurt was deep, oh…so deep.
From being married to returning back to spinster. A single lady with nothing to count on in my marriage. Not even a child or any achievement. Absolutely nothing except my life intact and body in shape.
That’s quiet something even though my life feels miserable at that moment but Joba have moved on.

I have to tap myself severally so that I can return back to reality.
I wake up one morning and began saying repeatedly to myself.

“Is time to move on Sandra…is time to move on”

We will make arrangements on how the bride price will be returned.

I have to think of what to engage my mind into so that I will stop thinking.

I started staying with my mom, helping her with the little buisness she was doing.
The money I had with me I paid to learn catering and the remaining one instead of spending it carelessly I decided to invest it on something good.
I bought a second hand motorbike, the bike was worked on a little and set for movement.
I had a rider that works everyday, he works with the bike and gives me a daily return just as we agreed.
with the turn up from the bike I use it to get little things for myself.

The catering school I attended was 2 hours daily so must of my time I was home helping my mom too and her health was not the best as of then.

I was also searching for job but the major challenges I was facing within the area that I went job hunting was french.

Majority of the companies in my country said I must have atleast small knowledge in french.

Whenever I applied somewhere to work I was asked if I can speak french.
I will tell them that I can understand but can’t speak fluently.
I let them know that my first language was English.

It was not easy getting a job right in the city that I was based due to I can’t speak french.
Although I understand but that does not count much.
Many of the companies have french speaking clients that are not good with English which was why some of this companies were more concerned with french speaking staffs.

Although there were other big firm that did not mind if I can speak French or not but the distance was much and I wanted to be home on time because of my Mom that was my reasons for applying within the city that we were based.

When the job market wasn’t favorable my Mom suggested that I should enquire and look for a place to enrol for french class.

The only thing I wanted to learn in french was how to speak and intEr×¢t fluently.

I understand quiet alright and speak little but not fully.
Upgrading in that area was very necessary.
English maybe the first language but french follows aftermath.

And that was how I decided that I was going to register for French class.

Things were moving on well for Lucia my sister.
my step father ensure giving his kids the best he could.

Lucia got a visa to travel to UK. she came home and inform my mom and I.
We were so happy for her because I know that when she is comfortable and doing well my mom too will be well taking care off because she is indeed a caring sister to her siblings and a loving daughter to her parents.

Finally her flight ticket was paid and she choose the date she will love to travel and mom and I were informed as well so we prepare few things for her.

And when the day finally came my mom and I together with my other siblings and my step dad went to the airport to see Lucia off.
But I was surprised my step dad’s wife was not there.
I did not bother to ask what happened to her because that was not my buisness anyway.
She usually goes almost everywhere with my step Dad
It was quiet surprising that as all the family gathered to bid Lucia goodbye she wasn’t there.

While all this was going on I still haven’t heard nor talk with husband but I was not bothered anymore because I know one day he will regret his actions towards me. I did him no wrong to deserve what he did to me.

My support system was my Mom. She was always there for me.

Although I’m still healing from all the mishap my husband caused in my life but I was gradually adjusting fine to the new situation.
I became hopeful again

Few days after Lucia left I began searching for school where I could learn french for atleast 3months.

I did some enquires I had 3 options but decided to go for d cheapest.
I was not planning to spend much on that because all I was seeking for is to perfect my speaking.

I made the required payment. After registration text books were recommended of which I bought the necessary ones.

I had to make a timetable for my daily activities.

I go for my catering class in the morning and french class in the evening.
It starts 4pm in the evening so I make sure that I was always on time for the class.
I still get turn up daily from my bike rider.

Things were gradually moving on fine. I was always occupied with one thing or the other.
There was no room left in my mind to wallow in self pity.
Many things were occupying my mind and making me very busy.
If I’m not in catering class, I will be found in french class.
With the little time I have left I assist my Mom in the shop and still read through my text books.

Although I have friends and some men wanting to get into a relationsh¡p with me but I turned them all down.

I was not ready mentally or emotionally for any commitment.
I made it known and they left me alone.

I know some day I will be fully ready for that but for now relationsh¡p was the last on my mind.
I have enough things keeping my mind company and I don’t want any further addition.

After what Joba and the past men in my life did, I was kinda scared of getting into something serious again with men.

I wish to be truly loved and cared for, I want love and commitment that will last forever, a Man that will love and respect and also get same measure in return.
I want to someday get married again and start a family.

Yes, I still have high hopes and praying to God that all of this will be made possible but I’m not in a haste.

I want to first of all recover fully from the first before venturing into another.

My rainbow is getting colorful again, I can feel it in my bones.

tbc