( love,why me?)
By chidinma jerry.
She stood up
“I love you so much that’s why u told you not to love me,not to marry me.
i can’t get mad at you Sam cos I am not even good enough for you.
Remember I told you
that i wasn’t your shreya anymore, this is my reality;i can’t stay without a man.
i left u to see a man and I will keep leaving to see a men until you understand that i wasn’t made for you baby.
am an escort and am even embarrassed to cal you mine.leave me Sam let me go I wont be mad at you if you let me go”i said.
“I can’t believe you just agreed to the fact that you went out to sleep with a man shreya, I wanted to make you my wife”I said.
“Well am not good enough for you,u can’t keep me in the house,i can’t be a decent wife to you.”She said.
She took her phone and rushed out,She didn’t even Look back.
THIS is the most painful moment of my life but I the truth is i don’t deserve Sam.
he dumped his ex for cheating on him,i don’t want him to die of pain because I know I will do worse.
I need him so badly,few days with him made me so happy but finally I lost him.
I opened the gate and that was when I heard his voice.
” SHREYA, you are going nowhere”he said.
I turned and he came to me, He was shedding tears.
“Nachari cheated on me so I left but you SHREYA, even if you cheat, cheat, cheat and stab me;I am going nowhere.
I have actually decided to love you till I die.
I don’t care what you do or what you have become.
So better return into the house with me because You are going nowhere.
We will fight this together
We will overcome this together
SHREYA,am ready now,
Am ready to love you now
I won’t hurt you again
I won’t call you an escort again
I will die with you.
Live for you
As long as you promise to never leave me” He said and i just hugged him tight.
He took me back into the house and I sat on the bed with him.
I already bathed where I was.
So I removed my cloth and sat on the bed with him in my undies.
He smiled like a baby and kissed me.
“So what did you buy for me,”he asked
I smiled and lifted the box of
don’t want chocolate, I want you.”He said and hugged me tight.
“Sam if i tell you the truth will you believe me?”i asked
“Yes” he said.
“I didn’t go to Michael’s”I said.
“Really” he added.
“Yes I left immediately after u left cos staying alone makes me misbehave.
I went to my friends house Sandra.
I waited until 4, that was why I came back exactly by 4 cos u told me u will return by 4 and I was timing you.”I said
“I knew you saw that text Michael sent last night, i knew, even
when you marked it as unread and kept my phone.I almost went to him but i didn’t.I want to change for you” I said
He hugged me tight.
“I feel warm and you feel cold so…. ” I pulled out his shirt and hugged him tight.
he laughed and we fell on the pillow so I fell on him.
He gently tapped my back.
“Will you follow me somewhere tomorrow by 3am
“Or course I will follow anywhere
We both laughed.
Soon I felt sleepy and I felt him cover us well. I felt warm with him. I was happy.I am happy.
Even if the Red colour never touches me.
I am happy to have met Sam again.
I woke her up as early as 3 and we went out.
” Sam where to?
“To the ocean behind our house”I said.
“They can’t accept my prayer, am a sinner”she said.
Soon we walked down and finally arrived at the ocean.
It was so quiet and real.
The moon was out.
” Sam do you know what happens today?.
“India celebrates colours,we also honour the goddess of love and colours;Aphrodite”i said
She was wowed.
“You made me love India shreya,u made me get interested in our traditions” i said
She smiled and we walked in then knelt down.
It was so cold, I was scared of being bitten by a snake but shreya was so comfortable.
She freed her hair and covered it with a veil.
The water got up to our Tummy.
I watched her as tears streamed down her eye
My own tears streamed too.
SHREYA finally hummed a tune.
It was so powerful.
one of the most powerful and beautiful sounds a human
being could ever make.
I felt so emotional.
I watched her as she hummed with her eye closed.
She deeped her face into the water and lifted it.
her lyrics melted my heart
🎼oh mother oh mother Aphrodite
“Oh mother oh mother Aphrodite.
“That My wrong,which is so wrong.
“That My sin,which I did consciously.
“Can you forgive?
🎼 oh mother oh mother Aphrodite
“You are the goddess of love, Give Me a chance because I sinned for love.
“Give Me a new life because I failed love for love.
🎼you said love is beautiful please bless my love.
“You said love is true,please help me to be true
“I want a new live oh goddess
“Repent me,oh Aphrodite!!.
She took my hands and held me tight
🎼 I call you , I call you!!
Just like i did, right from when I was 3.
What will you do, oh Aphrodite
“Your child is back oh goddess.
have you forsaken me..
🎼 my future is dark make it bright
Shall i not wear red, but red is yours
Oh mother oh mother I came back
Will you really keep quiet oh Aphrodite
What a voice.
I felt a heavy lightning.
Even the water was no longer calm.
🎼 I know I have a sad destiny.
“Please change my Destiny
“I know I am too dirty.
“Please clean me up.
Oh mother oh mother
She carried water and poured on my face
She carried water and poured on her hair.
I held her hand and we both walked out.
“Lets go home shreya”I said
She nodded,And that was how we left for India.
We arrived home and we where warmly welcomed.
My mom and grandma,everybody hugged shreya.
My dad hugged her everyone Misedher she was smilimg happily.
Until my brother rushed out
“Sam welcome”he hugged me.
He turned to her..he tried hugging her but halted
SHREYA looked so sad and shocked she bowed her face down
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( love,why me?)
By chidinma jerry.
I used my eye to tell Ely what I wanted to tell him and of course he understood
“SHREYA right,what a coincidence”he said and hugged her tight.
“Where did you meet her?”my dad asked.
“Hahaha I once had a fight with her at a supermarket from there we become friends”he said.
My dad nodded.
My mom, cousin and grandmother dragged shreya away.
My brother dragged me into his room and locked the door.
” Sam what are you doing,you know she’s an escort and you want to marry her?”he said
“I love her but I … I just have one question. Uhmm shreya,did you sleep with her?”i asked
“I didn’t,i almost did. It was when Jennie cheated on me so I went out and bought her for the night.she was so much fun we spent time talking and talking we forgot to even have s£x..she’s a great girl but Sam… this place is too spiritual. You don’t know how embarrassed shreya will be if the truth comes out.even the priestess who Is supposed to bless your marriage;what if she foresees it..are you really ready for this?”he asked.
” I didn’t meet shreya an escort I was the one who defiled her ely.I love her so much and I decided that I will marry her.. no matter what”I said and he hugged me.
I felt someone at the door and I hastily opened up it was my mother.no God why
“Mom” I said
She angrily walked out so I rushed her
“Mom please don’t tell anybody what you heard..I love shreya”I said
“Sam a prostitute is a prostitute..seems the english word ‘escort’ is confusing you..Why do you want to ruin our reputation?”she asked
“Mom no one knows,I know and I love her that way. if you love me mother please you need to accept shreya”I said
“My son will not end up with a useless woman..do you know how many men she has been with? Sam! are you even thinking? do you think you will be able to trust shreya?
what will your daughter grow to be? think Sam think”she shouted
“Mom please I beg you,if you fail me I will never forgive you.it’s my mistake I want to make it..don’t tell anyone about this ..just keep quiet,after the wedding ritual I will take her away.this is my cross to carry”I said.
She ran out
Thank God I didn’t sleep with Ely.Am so scared.
Now Sam already told his grandma about our wedding.
She already fixed the date.
I miss my nuni,but am scared to visit the temple.
Sam’s mother walked in
“Oh mom”I said.
“Dont call me that,shreya if you love samrhat you need to leave him”she said
“Dont call Me mum,its a curse If you call me mum.” She said.
My tears fell like water.
I felt a blow to my heart.
“If you love yourself you need to leave Sam.What do you want from my son?
Do you even have a womb after all those pills and nonsense?
Are you still good enough to give my son the satisfaction and pleasure he deserves which he should be getting from an undefiled traditional Indian maiden.
You lost your self respect
You are a taboo shreya
You broke the tradition twice.first you got defiled before your wedding night now u are an escort..I curse the day my son met you shreya.
What will you give birth to? Tell me”she shouted.
“Mother…its still Me,me shreya” I said.
“You are a prostitute,you failed as a woman shreya. from a worshipper to a prostitute you cursed yourself.you can never wear the red colour shreya and you won’t wear it in my house.
Only a blind priestess can bless your union to a man because I know the goddess has forsaken you.even the goddess can’t accept you” she said and walked out.she opened the door and I was shocked to see grandmother.
The old woman couldn’t even look at me.
she used her veil to cover her face and eye.
I started crying.
“I need to wash my face for I just met and unpleasant sight…cursed be the day I brought you into my home shreya”She said
She said and rushed out.
Sam I told you love is not enough
Why DiD you bring me here.
Am going..I am going out I can’t stay here.they all hate me.
I will visit my nuni at the temple and leave from there.
Am sorry Sam
I snuck out from the window
and returned to the temple.
.I waited outside for my nuni for hours but no sign of her
I tried walking in but all the temple lights and flames went off so I came back out and the lights came on.
even the goddess is rejecting me.
I sat outside crying,all I could remember was my good old days.
I sat facing the atonement stone in front of the temple I wrapped my hands around the rock in pain.
“I came back,why won’t you forgive me mom”I said in tears
Right from when I was 3 I was introduced to worshiping you..
When I was five I drowned while trying to worship you.
From 10 slept in the water with you
From 14 I worshiped you morning and night.
it is painful that you are watching my life get riuned.
Was I so wrong that you can’t help me.
I devoted my time and my all to you.
Every day I did every ritual to make you happy but you why are you so wicked?
I ran into the water.
“I agree that I was to be your bride water God but why didn’t you become a mortal and marry me.
How dare you punish me
I knelt down in the water.
When I asked for rain it rains
When i asked for storm it stormed.
But when I asked for you I see your shadows,are not human so how will shreya marry you water God.
I was not fully a worshipper yet when I let a man defile me.
I was still in training,i was not fully your wife.
If i ran away after my final ritual as a worshipper then you are right to forsake me but if I left as a trainee then you are fool for punishing me.
Judge me but judge me rightly.
Have mercy upon me ,All I want Is Sam.
I sat down in the water and cried my heart out.
I stayed there till morning came
I had to leave before people see me.
But where do I go to?
I feel so cold.
I walked down and soon I arrived at that spot where Sam defiled me.
I saw a poisonous leaf and plucked it.
I want to die now
Sam’s mother was right, i Am a curse.
I will only cause pain for Sam
I will only ruin his life.
He deserves better.
He deserves a clean traditional Indian girl.
I washed the death leaf in water and ate it
But only one rather 4
I love u
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