The sound of love Episode 10 – 11

The sound of love

Episode 10

Zack’s pov **

Oh no, I just made a mistake I shouldn’t have tell her that I’m Zack because the way she dropped the magazines made my heart skipped a beat, … “what’s wrong” Valery whispered in my ear as everywhere went silent Sarah stared at me I searched her eyes but didn’t read anything, Valery got down from my table, she’s a very sweet little girl who asks a lot of questions.. She went to Sarah ah touched her

“mommy, what’s wrong” she asked

Sarah flinched and sighed “oh Valery I just had a thought of something.. She said she’s lying I know she’s sad and angry about it, she also looked very shocked and I felt like the ground should just open and swallow me.. Cause it just felt like my judgement day and I’ll do anything for her to forgive me..

A tear roll down her cheek and I tried to get close to her but she immediately muttered “don’t!! ” and I stopped on my track…

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¤¤¤Sarah’s pov ¤¤¤

“I’m sorry” Zachary… Zack’s voice cracks ..i couldn’t believe I was actually this stupid, I didn’t know what to do..

“why didn’t you tell me” I cried lowly..

“because I didn’t.. Because I felt that it wasn’t the right time I swear I could have told you but î was scared, but seeing Valery I felt like I should tell you, maybe she’s my child” he said

He’s not f-cking serious

I cleaned my tears, I have to be strong in this..

“your child? , Valery is not yours and cab never be yours” I said even though they both look bloody alike.. “but..

“I can’t believe you Zack” I cut him off and stared at his glossy eyes and quivering l-ips..

“you know you’re such an idiot.. And is that the reason why I got this job, oh and the same reason you bought me a car, I can’t believe you, so you were trying to buy my forgiveness how can you be so low Zack.. How could you not notice you were being very stupid,” I yell and he sighed, oh no my eyes have start to water..

I tried to hold back my tears but I couldn’t the memory of me in my prom dress getting raped by a guy that I thought was my friend played in my mental screen and I couldn’t help it but cry..

“Sarah seriously I’m sorry” he said and it seemed like it wasn’t only my mouth and head that was angry but also my hand and immediately I slapped him open walked in, I didn’t bother to turn to him because all my attention had been set on, Zack , I felt like.. I Felt like ripping his head off

“you’re sorry, you’re sorry, that’s what you’re going to say, you think when you say that you’re forgiven, no.. You’re not, ” I yelled and sniffed and cried even more

“did you even know what I went through after you did that, I felt pains for weeks , and after that I was pregnant for her, I started having this traumas about you freaking out every minute my mom thought I was going crazy , she took me to a mental institution I didn’t get any treatment because they found out I wasn’t crazy after all, ..but the doctor said Valery could die if care wasn’t taken, after taking meditation classes , it took my traumas away and I was fine and now you want me to forgive you after everything, you’re the most selfish person I’ve ever seen ” I tell him and cleaned my tears.. He wanted to speak but he couldn’t..

“oh and here if you think you can buy me with your car or any of these” I say and gesture my hand in the air before throwing his keys at him and dragging Valery hand and walking away, I’ve got to stay away from him..

“Sarah” I hear him calling me but I’m not a fool to answer …

I took the elevator and as the door closes I cried.. “mommy what’s wrong” Valery said crying to..

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I didn’t give her a reply because she’s too little to understand..

I cleaned my tears and turned to her “everything’s fine, honey but don’t worry I just quit my job and I’ll be spending time with you okay” I say but she didn’t nod.. She still wore frown on her face,

As the elevator door went open I drag Valery hand and walked out, we were in the cafeteria ready to burst out the exit door to get out of this goddamned building when I heard my name, Zack’s calling me..

I turned and saw him running up to me and then stopped Like five feet away from me..

“what!” I yell and my voice echoed in the wh0le cafeteria that the people passing stopped just to look at Me and the person I’m yelling at.. And was thrilled to Zack’s their ‘boss’

“I’m sorry ” Zack yelled back.. And everyone watches the show surprisingly.. I rolled my eyes

“you’ve got to be kidding me” I said and was about to go when he slowly went on his knees ..and the people watching gasped..

“I’m so sorry” he said again and it seemed like he will break down in tears any minute “you hurt me Zack and sorry can’t fix that, I’m sorry too because I’m not the Sarah I was in high school, go look for your sarah” I say and drag Valery out..

I took the bus even though the people in there were very crowdy, I didn’t care, I carried Valery on my th-gh and I faced the glass as the bus went moving, u couldn’t help it but cry.. Zack caused a lot pains in my life, physical, emotional and mental

I thought I was going to die at sixteen when I haven’t even lived yet, but all thanks to my therapist, and meditation classes which helped me get rid of bad traumas and nightmares I was fine, I cried remembering all that happened when the bus stopped I quickly cleaned my tears and came down with Valery, immediately I opened the door and walked in with Valery my mom knew something was wrong

“what’s wrong” she asked

Instead of replying I cried even more and she glanced at Valery who was dozing beside me..

“go to your room, I’ll take Valery to bed, she must have had a long day too, cause she doesn’t sleep during afternoons” my mom smiled maybe trying to cheer me up but I Just couldn’t get a hint.. As my mom took Valery to her room I went to my room and sat tiredly on my bed before my mom walked in..

“okay now.. What’s wrong” she asked

“it’s Zack.. I met..him” I crack

“I don’t understand” my mom eyes flutter and I cleaned my tears and cleared my throat in attempt to talk clearer..

“I.. I didn’t realise Zachary, my boss was actually zack” I cried and my mom say beside me and rubbed my back. “so that was the reason he bought you a car” my mom said and I nod

“and he told me to forgive him that he’s sorry but I can’t forgive because I know what I felt mother” I cried..

“don’t say am taking his side I’m taking neither sides but I think you should forgive him” my mom said

“what? Mom you know exactly what I went through” I yanked and my mom nods

“I know but, its all in the past now, everything happened for a reason sweetie and it has already happened you can’t shift time, you just have to let go and forgive him, because if you don’t the anger will just stay within you and festered and it will end up hurting you” my mom said

“no way mom. I can’t believe you’re actually saying this” I yanked and cleaned my tears, she sighed and said

“look think whatever you want to but, just forgive him, be thankful he admits, accepts and begged, be thankful because Valery was the best thing ever! Don’t you see like I said every disappointment is a blessing.. And yours is.. ”

“Valery was a mistake mom” I say and regretted I said that

“she is but not anymore she’s your pricest possession, at least she’ll have a father think about this hon huh” my mom said and u sighed.. I don’t want to forgive Zack.. It’s just so hærd even my mom don’t get me.. . Just then we heard the door bell go and my mom stands up and head out.. To the living room..

“sarah” she calls

I sniffed and cleaned my face with my hand and head to the living room to see Zack sitting on the couch impatiently, immediately I came in his eyes lit.. His face looks pale like he had been crying and his hair was all rough and his nose was red and his eyes soaked and looks heavy

If he’s here for forgiveness then he’s wasting his time..

EPISODE 11.

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** Zack’s pov **

Immediately Sarah left with Valery, I sighed and got on my feet people had been watching the scene but I didn’t care all I cared about was Sarah forgiving me and I won’t forgive my self If she doesn’t forgive me,

I quickly head back to my office, grabbed my car key and hurried down the flight of stairs, I didn’t take the elevator and I didn’t know why,

I entered my car and sighed heavily I have to see Sarah that were the the only five words that came and played in my mind.. As I was about placing the key in the ignition my hands were shaking, I was scared and nervous I could feel it.. I slammed the key angrily on the passenger’s seat and hit the steering wheel angrily, a huge f-cking lump was hanging at the back of my throat and I suddenly went hot, my grip on the steering wheel became tighter and I hit my head occasionally on it

Dang it..

Damn me..

Damn me,

I didn’t know when tears started to gush out of my eyes and I couldn’t hold it In so I just let it all out one of the greatest pain is regret, it is really killing me now, it is eating each and every single flesh in my body and my back suddenly became heavy like I was carrying a burden of guilt..

After cleaning my goddamned tears, I grabbed the key and turned on the ignition and without wasting time I drove to Sasha’s house..

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I got to Sarah’s house with my swollen eyes, and red cheeks and nose and packed my car in front of the compound,

I got down from the car and slowly walked to the porch, I sighed heavily and knocked on the thick and plain Woody door, Mrs Sydney opened the door and I breathed calmly I didn’t know what could have happened if Sarah was the one that opened the door

“Zack? ” Mrs Sydney said tilting her head for response and I nod immediately

“please Mrs Sydney I really need to talk with Sa..

“dont worry just come in” she said and gestured her hand backwards and trust me I was surprised and happy,.. I walked in and sat down on the couch and she called Sarah

“Sarah!!” she called and Sarah came out and when she sighted me her glare almost gave me a heart attack.. But I just breathed in and looked at her warmly but it didn’t work she still had that angry look that made my palms sweaty..

“I think I’m going to leave you two alone” mrs Sydney said and walked away with Valery in front of her,

“what? ” Sarah breathed out harshly

“Sa..rah.. I.. please.. I’m..let.. ” I stammered not knowing where to start from

“look Zack or Zachary which ever your name is, if you’re here for my forgiveness then I suggest you leave because I’m not forgiving anyone, not today ” she remarked harshly and the lump in my throat which felt like leaving minutes ago came back and I shut my eyes and played the horrid scene from six years ago In my mental screen, I gro-ned in disappointment as droplets of tears fell from my closed eyes wetting my eye lashes .”Sarah I’m sorry” I say still with my eyes closed, I didn’t hear her voice so I slowly went on my knees spread out my palms and joined them together and opened my eyes..

“Sarah, please I beg you please forgive me, I did wrong you know that, I’m sorry for not telling you who I was I’m seriously very sorry” I said and the look on her face made me calm down a bit, she had this sympathetic look, she feels pity, for me..

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*SARAH’s pov*

Oh no, he’s getting on his knees, his eyes closed what am I going to do

“Sarah, please I beg you forgive me, I did wrong and you know that, I’m sorry for not telling you who I was I’m seriously sorry” he said and I swallowed my saliva and looked at him In a sympathetic way, “you’re sorry I get that” I said and sighed I glanced at the floor then at him

“you’re sorry and you want me forgive, I know that’s the reason you’re here Zack but it’s not really that easy, for all those years it was like I’ve been through hell and—-

“I know, I know Sarah that’s why I want to make up for it, I want to. Make some adjustments and amendment, I want to be a part of Valery’s life, so please just—

“can you please sit down I’m not comfortable with you kneeling down” I said cutting him off and he nodded and sat down on the couch again “so just please let that get behind you, you really have to move forward please Sarah” he said his voice cracking I couldn’t take it anymore, maybe I should forgive him, not maybe I will forgive him, what if mom was right,what if I don’t forgive him and the anger grows and festered in me and I’ll be the one who’s going to end up living In guilt..

It’s actually good, he admits, accepted and apologized, mom was right he is a great person..

“I hate to say that you’re right Zack, but you are right, we both know you did wrong people make mistakes and you’re among those people so actually there’s nothing else I can do than to forgive you, so there you go, you have my forgiveness” I breathed out and his eyes suddenly lit

“really” he stood up in shock and I slowly nod observing his eyes as they suddenly went from sadness to happiness

“oh my God thank you thank you Sarah you don’t know how much this means to me thank you” he said and strangely hugged me, I flinched on the in,side but calm down..

“it’s okay you can head back to. Work now” I said as we disengage from the hug and i stood up and held the hem of my shirt..

“thank you so much Sarah” he said and wiped his face with his Hand and I gave a knowing smile

He walked to the door and sighed heavily, a sigh of relief I guess, I felt like a load has been pulled off my chest and it felt good.

“thanks once again” he said and finally walked out and I couldn’t help but smile..

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T. B. C