Stella’s diary episode 31- 32
🌺🍓 STELLA’S DIARY 🍓🌺
(The Girl I Am 💖) 🎶
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Written By 🖋️🖋️🖋️
Damilola Faleke M 📚 📚📚
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Chapter 31
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🌺 Stella’s pov 💖
“Yes Jason is my brother whom my dad abandoned done years ago to live with another woman, right now he has already relocated to Africa. We are just alone taking care of ourselves. My mum left me in the hospital says my dad. He said she fled with another man, so I never really enjoyed the love of a mum. Though it hurts but I’m over it already” I said to her cause she seemed really interested about my story.
“Are you sure about what you’re saying?” She asked looking scared.
” Of course, it’s my story you Know. My life and how I lived it, there’s definitely nothing wrong with it. I’m used to be unloved, I was even rejected by my own mum. Do I don’t even need anyone’s sympathy” I said
” Your mum didn’t reject you” she said looking really sad.
” How did you know that, you weren’t there, you Know nothing about my family” I replied her
” No I… I.. I was just saying that because I know a woman can never rejects what come out of her. But about your mum, don’t you have at least a photo you could use to recognize her or anything” she said
” I wish I did. But my dad burnt them all down. But I don’t care anymore, we’re already getting used being alone” I replied
” No, don’t say that, there’s still hope you guys can all come back together, you don’t know what can happen” she said, I almost bursted out laughing, but I was too sad to do that.
” You really have a big Faith ma’am Karen, but sadly, I don’t and I’m already used to living that way, I’m sorry I have to go now” I said
” No wait, can you at least show me a picture of your brother Jason?” She asked
” Uhmm. I don’t think I can, you shouldn’t even be concerned about this, the way you seem so intrigued, I have to go now, bye” I said finally walking out gratefully she let me, cause I really don’t want to be rude to her, like people are saying I’m becoming, like they even have the right to judge one’s behavior, just like they misjudged Alexa. Well I don’t care about what they think, as Alexa advised. Now I think I should go meet her, since I probably have nothing doing, and she and Smith are the only ones hanging out with me for sometime now, or should even say they’re the only ones I hang out with.
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🌿 Karen’s pov 🌻
I can’t believe it, I’m even crying now, can Stella be my daughter, or it’s all a coincidence in her story compared to mine.
Cause I felt bad when she talked about how her mother rejected her from birth cause she was unwanted, it felt like my own daughter whom I actually abandoned is telling how she feels and can’t accept anymore to be part of her life, it hurts and stings. I do feel something is up I must find out. I keep telling myself it’s just a mere coincidence about her story, but my subconscious mind keeps telling me there is something more to it, the name of her brother, her mum running off, her dad burning her mum’s photo,and he living them for another woman.
It’s quite close to my own story, cause my husband was cheating on me with other women and was planning to remarry and that was the main reason I left. I can’t bear watching my children living with a step mum and siblings while I’m still alive with them. I left and later on he sent me a divorce file, which I had no choice but to sign.
I wanted to start a new life in NY, but I couldn’t even do anything, cause the fact that I left two kids behind keeps hunting me till now.
And again Stella said they’re just two.
What’s going on here? I think I really have to find out my self.
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🍀 Olivia’s pov 🍀
“Are you sure about what you’re saying Olives?” Miss Natalie asked, she usually calls me Olives instead of Olivia, I’m quite used and fund of it already. I just told her that I and Stella are backing out from the concert that’s coming in a week and three days time.
“Miss….
” Just call me Natalie” she said with a smile before I could even finish my sentence I smiled back giving her a small nod
“I just feel we’re not ready, and can’t handle a live concert with a lot of 5 star artistes there” I said
” You know what Olives, I feel there’s more to this than you say, come over let’s talk” she said leading me to a s₱0t where we both took a seat, we were in her private studio.
“There isn’t really anything ” I said to her
“Okay, if so, where is Stella?” She asked
“She’s quit busy and couldn’t come” I said and she stared at me weirdly
“I’m not buying that. I even offered you guys to come here anytime you want to practice, you both seemed happy about it why the sudden change” she replied
” Yh you caught me. I and Stella are no longer friends, that’s the deal” I replied
” Are you serious, how did that happen?” When asked.
” It’s a long story Natalie, I’ve been trying to figure out how everything change in the blink of an eye, but it’s not really as easy as I think” I said
” So because you two have an argument which you both are being childish about, you decided to drop out of the concert? Does she knows about this?” She asked
” Yes ..I mean know, we haven’t really spoken to each other for a week now. I suppose to be at school now, but just decided to come over to cancel our role cause I don’t think we can really walk together” I said and she smiled
” You know, the first time I saw you two together, I saw a spirit of unity and love of friendsh¡p between you guys, and that was the main reason I picked interest in you both. You guys are meant to be together to be on the top of the world, and I’m sure you know that, and she also knows it. Maybe she has a reason, listen to her. And you also tell her what you’ve been holding deep down in you, let it all out to her, that’s what friendsh¡p is all about, you don’t have to be fake with each other, be yourself to each other. You both are going to perform in that concert no matter what happens” she said
” But….
“No buts….. In the next three days, I want you guys to be back together” she said
” But I’m not at fault”I replied
” You see, that’s where the problem is actually from, you keep throwing blames at each other, that’s what destroys the greatest bond one could ever imagine. Don’t worry I’ll talk to Stella. But something tells me, she’ll soon realize the big mistake she made” she replied smiling and I smiled back.
” Thanks mis..I mean Natalie, I believe” I replied and she walked me out, while my driver drove me back to school.
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🍓 Stella’s pov 🍓
“Hey Smith, you really are a genius” I heard Alexa say to Smith. I was going to meet Alexa in her own practice room when I heard voices from within, she was talking to Smith. I don’t why but I just decided to eaves drop into their conversation.
“Hmm, I told you to trust me from the beginning, all your struggles were just in vain. I’m such a smartie” Smith said and I wondered what they were talking About, I wanted to walk in but stopped when I heard my name.
“Stella is so dumb as hell, she is quite stupid than I thought, how wish Olivia can be like her, the. I would have been ruling this school already” Alexa said and laughed.
Huh?? Me??
” Hmm maybe” Smith replied
Smith too? I thought he said he was already developing feelings for me. I leaned more to hear what is more to come.
“You know, I thought their friendsh¡p was gonna last forever, but friendsh¡p can last with a fool in it” Alexa said and laughed. ” And again I’m sure the concert they thought was a big deal cause they were chosen won’t work for them anymore. Not to even mention how she shunned Jeremy, he’s definitely gonna hate her, and now Amaya is my next target” she added
” Hmm so what are you gonna do to her after you get your desire” Smith asked
“I’m gonna use her against Olivia, Olivia actually thinks she’s weigh to wiser than anyone but she totally thought wrong, cause I’m gonna use her dumb friend against her” Alexa said and Smith chuckled.
I already had tears flowing from my eyes without a stop, Olivia was right. I was actually trusting Smith and taking him as my closet. Not knowing it was all a plot it was all set up from the beginning. I’m indeed dump according to Alexa. I don’t know what Alexa did hurt me so much, but not as much as getting the idea that Smith was in it.
I still stood there surprised and pained with tears in my eyes when the door cracked open. It was Smith and Alexa.
“Hey Stella” Smith said smiling and Alexa did the same beside him…
They still have the guts to smile at me
Chapter 32
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❤️ Stella’s pov continues ❤️
The painful part is how they still smile at me, like they never just ended a negative chat about me.
I’m totally over. I hate myself now, I wished I have listen to Olivia, I wished I have never met Smith. Jeremy was right about him and Smith told me it was only jealousy. I shouldn’t have been so stupid to even think Alexa isn’t bad from blood and was just being neglected. It’s a shame on me I admit.
“Stella? What’s going on with you, you’ve been staring for 3 minutes without a word” Smith said with a look of care on his face, he’s really good at pretending.
“I should have known from the beginning, but I was just so stupid” I said with tears flowing from my eyes as the stared at me weirdly.
“What are you talking about Stella, you’re crying” Smith said trying to come closer to me, but I shift backwards avoiding his touch.
“I can believe you guys were never who you appeared to be to me. I hate you guys but I hate myself the most for believing you too could be of any good” I said angrily
“Stella what’s wrong with you, you’re already getting me pissed with those words of yours” Alexa said.
” You don’t have to pretend anymore cause I heard all your conversation” I said and Smith face fell immediately but Alexa acted like it was nothing.
“Common, it’s not our fault that you were so dumb to believe I could actually mingle with a dumbass like you who keeps on taking my glory” she said rolling her eyes.
” Right, I was dumb, but Smith I never thought you were this way” I said walking away angrily. She doesn’t even feel like anything has happened, I hate her from within. Even Smith. I thought he was a good friend to me, he never meant all he was saying, he was just fooling me around cause I was a fool. Jeez!! I feel so useless.
I was still walking when Jeremy blocked me. What? He never comes around this place.
“I guess you finally realized” he said staring at me.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about” I said walking away but he held my hands dragging me with him.
“Come with me” he said without even waiting for a reply. I knew he was heading to his practice room.
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🍋 Jeremy’s pov 🍋
“What do you want from me?” She asked trying to wipe the tears off her face.
” Stella,you’re crying” I said
” It’s not a problem, I don’t think you should even care about me anymore” she replied
” But I do, you did too remember?” I said
” I’ve been a total mess, I’ve been rude to you and all those that care about me for two people who were just deceiving me” she said.
” You mean Smith and Alexa?” I asked and she nodded positively.
I knew this was gonna happen, but I promise not to care if it eventually does, but here I am trying to console her.
“Stella, have I ever told you how much I appreciate your friendsh¡p and care towards me? I’ve never been this happy and open towards anyone, but you brought out that part of me, and Fred the h0le in my heart a little, I appreciate that alot, I won’t because of just a little thing as this abandon you towards the cruelty of Smith. He doesn’t deserve you a bit” I said and she nodded. Jeez!! I sulk at this never consoled someone before, not surprised if it wouldn’t work on her.
“Thanks Jeremy, I’m sorry for talking to you that way the other time, I was totally out of my senses” she said
” I understand okay? You don’t have to apologise, wait let me get you something” I said walking to my fridge to get her water, that’s what is good for her now.
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“Thanks Jeremy for everything, I feel really guilty for what I did and how you treated me in return” she said
” You taught me, remember?” I said holding her hands and she smiled at me nervously do I removed my hand just to make her feel comfortable.
“I think I have to go now” she said
“Uhmm..where are you going?” I asked
” Home, I’ll take a sick excuse home” she said
“You know you have to go meet my mum right?” I said to her, that’s definitely gonna be a bad idea, cause I ditched Amaya to attend to Stella when I saw her that way, and I’m sure Amaya is fully aware which my mum also is.
“I know, I’ll try” she replied
“Stella, I understand how bad you’re feeling, but I won’t advise you to do that, don’t worry I’ll be by your side if anything happens” I said moving closer helping her wipe her tears with my hands and she stared nervously at me, so I just handed her my hanky. I wonder why she acts that way just on getting closer to her.
“Thanks Jeremy, you’re really a good friend” she said and I smiled in return, jeez, when last did I smile.
” But I’m still scared” she said
“Why?” I asked
“I don’t know how to face one last person, she’s the main person I have to apologise to, she has already fore warned about a situation like this but I insulted her, and she has been the one there for me from the beginning, the one who made me realize myself even when I thought I had a horrible voice, I can’t bear the fact of realizing how bad I’ve lost a friend, but even though we are never gonna get back together, at least I still want to pay her my apologies” she said and I did felt her pain in,side. That’s actually weird to me cause I don’t think I even feel any emotions.
“Look at me Stella, breath in, and out” I said and she did as I instructed.
” Everything is gonna be okay, even better than you think, trust me and have faith” I said and she smiled nodding. I think we’re one step ahead, she finally smiled.
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🍓 Stella’s pov 🍓
I’ve searched almost everywhere for Olivia but couldn’t find her, when one last place popped into my mind, our usual place, her private studio.
I walked towards the door with a trembling mind. Then I did what Jeremy advised me to do, breathing in and out. Then I finally gained the confidence to knock on the door. I knocked twice before she finally opened up, and I couldn’t help but notice the surprise look on her face afterwards.
“Stella?” She said still surprised and I nodded
” Did you know where you are? At Olivia’s place, the control freak?” She said, oh I called her that
” I know, Olivia, I need to talk to you. Even though you won’t want me coming in we can talk here” I said
” Anything the matter Stella? You look pale and sad” she said studying me closely.
” I just need to talk to you Olivia” I said looking downward.
“Come in Stella” she said opening the door w¡der for me to get in.
” Don’t you mind?” I asked surprised
“I’m not such person Stella, just come in let’s talk” she said and I walked in.
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” So now tell me, what actually happened, I’m really lost here, why aren’t you with Alexa or Smith?” She asked and a drop of tears flowed down my eyes which I was quick to wipe off.
“Stella what did they do to you” she said her tone changing.
” It doesn’t matter, I just came to apologise for what I said and did, I feel really bad and stupid, I hate myself for what I did to you, you were the only friend I ever had from the beginning but I was so stupid, I neglected you,I should have believed you when you told me Smith was off no good but I was blinded by his deceitful words. I know we being friends again is a total impossibility, but I just want you to forgive me, to gave a free mind. Olivia I’m really sorry” I said and suddenly she quickly rushed to high me.
” I’m so glad you’re back Stella” she said still hugging me and I smiled happily, she actually forgave me.
“Thanks Olivia I think I have to go now” I said to her
” Where? Isn’t this our private stay place” she said and I smiled happily
” Really??” I asked and she nodded happily
“I can’t just say we won’t be friends again just because of that stupid Smith, that was his plans from the beginning but he actually failed, cause our friendsh¡p overcomes all” she said and I smiled happily.
” Thanks Olivia. I can’t believe this” I said happily.
“You have to Stella, I’m so glad you’re back, I really missed you” she said
” I did the most,I guess what they said is right, that ‘ you wouldn’t realize the value of what you have unless you loose it’ I really didn’t realize” I said and she smiled
” Come to think of it Ste, I just came from miss Natalie’s place, I was planning on cancelling the concert, but she advised me not to. She actually gave me three days for is to settle our disputes and gladly, it didn’t even take hours” she happily
” Such a coincidence, I totally forget we were having a concert. Jeez!” I said.
“You don’t have to worry girlie, we have time to practice Stella and Olivia break limits, they are the strongest team ever, and that’s why some bad eggs are trying to get between us” she said smiling.
” You’re definitely right, they almost succeeded but they never will in their lives again” I said
” Definitely” Olivia.
” Common let’s go get some snacks, I’m famished. And let’s go show them we are back together, and later you’ll tell me the last part of what happened” she said
” Totally agree with you girl” I replied and we did a high five.
Never would I ever, leave Olivia again, experience is always the best teacher, but I also learnt something, I’ll never let my emotions lead me anymore.
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TBC