s*x and Fasting episode 4

s€× And Fasting PART 4
 
 
 
We eventually got home the next day after staying in the hospital all night. His sister left us in the hospital later in the evening after confirming that Kenny was okay. Kenny was withdrawn and quiet and it felt like the cycle had started again.
 
It was still surreal that it was just yesterday morning we agreed to call a truce and it felt like that did not even happen.
 
”Darling are you okay? I asked after he had
settled down on the bed”
 
”Lola, no I am not okay. You know what? I
regret marrying you. I don’t feel like the man that found a wife and found a good thing because it’s like your sole purpose is to cause me sorrow and sadness”. My mouth was agape.
 
I just did not understand the reason for such anonymity. ”You know when I decided to marry you I had a plan. I knew what I wanted. I wanted a woman
who will love me and make me happy. I wanted a life of joy and happiness. I wanted to build fun memories of just the two of us even outside the kids but I have not had any of that with you.
 
It’s from one problem to another. We have been married for just 9 months and already I am tired”
 
”Kenny, why will you say all these to me? Why?
 
What exactly have I done to destroy your so
called happiness so much?”
”Immediately after the wedding, it took about 2 weeks for you to even calm down enough to let me deflower you. As soon as that was over, you got fixated about pregnancy making s€× totally boring.
 
When I was talking to you about just enjoying each other and having fun, all you did was lie down there missionary style claiming that is the best way to get pregnant. After five months of that, you went into your so called fasting period and now because of all the frustration you have put me through, I went to ride my bicycle just to vent and got into an accident? Did you know it was because I was thinking about you that I lost concentration? And to crown it all, it’s like the devil was trying to crack a joke, testicular trauma?
 
I am tired madam” I sat there in silence not knowing what to say and
after a while I just got angry. ”How dare you Kenny?
 
How can you blame me for your sadness or so called unhappiness?
 
I wake up daily praying for you and this is how you repay me? Was it not when you married me your business went from struggling and started excelling and you dare insult me? I wont let the devil use you more than he already has. This conversation is over. Do whatever you want”.
 
I stood up from his side and walked out of the bedroom with deep confusion in my heart. For the first time I wondered if it would not have been better staying single.
 
 
 
My conversation with Kenny made me realize he didn’t value me as his wife and so I made a decision to give him space. I called my mum and told her I was coming home for a week. I was able to convince her Kenny supported my decision and I packed my bags. I was going to go home for a week. The next morning I told Kenny about my trip,
 
”I listened to everything you said and I have decided we probably need to give each other some space. I am taking a break and travelling to my parent’s house”. I said
 
Kenny shook his head, ”you should be ashamed of yourself Lola. In fact when they call women to
stand up, you should hide your face in shame.
 
So you cannot take care of your home, you can’t satisfy your husband and now rather than deal
with your problems you are running? ”Kenny, I refuse to be insulted. I sat quietly while you heaped insults on me yesterday but that doesn’t mean I will continue to take it.
 
You said my presence is causing you sorrow and now I am giving you space. I will take the time apart
to pray for us”
 
”I don’t freaking need your prayers madam.
In fact, God will not answer that prayer because he has told you everything you need to do in the Bible. Stop praying for me and start satisfying me”.
 
”Ehen, so the other day, when I bought s€×y lingerie and waited for you at home, did you not leave me hanging?
 
You are confused and don’t
know what you want”.
 
”You want to go? Fine! Get the hell out but you just might not meet this marriage when you come back”.
 
”Like I said, I will take the time apart to pray, God will sustain our home” I told him emphatically.
 
He just shook his head and closed his eyes on the bed, effectively ending the conversation. I packed my bags and headed straight to the airport.
 
Late in the night that day, while I sat in my parent’s sitting room, my mum was trying to get stories out of me. ”So why didn’t Kenny take a break with you madam?”
 
”Mum, he is busy with work, that’s the same thing I told dad before”.
 
”That doesn’t mean he should not spend a weekend with us. We have not seen him since  the wedding.”
 
……………….To be Continued……………….