just a little sin episode 44

JUST A LITTLE SIN
Episode 44
By AMAH’S HEART.

” Do you believe in God? He asked me

I looked up from the plate of food in front of me and then went back eating

“…Do You think it was God that saved you during your attack? He asked again

I ignored and didn’t bother answering him.
“…is there even God? Does God truly exist?
This time, I feel really bothered and had to stop eating to answer him.

“Listen John, I don’t know the exact thing or answer you seek from me but whatever you seek, I don’t have any answer for it.

“You told me that your mother was a dedicated Christian, do you usually follow her to church? What do you un-derstand about Jesus Christ..” He asked again.

“Okay, can you just leave me alone so that I can concentrate with this food? You didn’t come all the way down here to start interviewing me about my faith, or did you? I asked him

“Is obvious that you don’t know God, yet he saved you..” John said again

I ignored him, carried my food to eat outside instead.

John bothering me about God is becoming tiring for me

I wondered why he found the need to engage me about God.
Ever since I told him briefly of the dream I had during my trauma lone time in the bush
When Omie appeared like an angel and saved me from the terrible war I was in and she volunteered to show me the right path that leads to God.

John kept boring me with religious talk.
And it was not because he was preaching salvation to me but it appeared more like query

He wanted to know my stand with God which is the only explanation to him on why I was still alive after everything.

I narrated my whole encounter to him and told him that I was afraid to go back to madam because she may do worst to me than what I went through.

I told him of my ordeals and he was surprised after listening to me.

John agreed that there may be trouble if I return like that, he said madam may even arrest me because she doesn’t joke with her money and ever since my disappearance she has been cu®sing and swearing because she thinks I deceived her and ran away with her money.

Who wouldn’t be angry with the way I disappeared without a word or trace.
And even if they decide to go to those selling plumbing materials in the big market to make inquiry if I happened to stop by at their shops, that’s even worst because I didn’t even get to the shop before I was attacked.
Nobody will believe anything I say and she may get me arrested.

I don’t know what to do or say that will save me from further doom

I spent four days in the hospital, it was on that the same fourth day that I was discharged to go home.
Lydia, she never missed a day out of the fourth day.
She promised to visit everyday and she kept to her promise
It was on the the second day I managed to see with my second eye which was initially blood shot.
I saw her clearly with my two eyes instead of one.

“My name is Lydia Jackson, I will stop by tomorrow again to check up on you. I’m seriously praying for you and I know God never fails..”

That was her exact words, and she kept to her promise.
Lydia came everyday with food, fruits or a change of undies
I felt loved, I felt cared for and I looked forward to seeing her everyday and it was not because of whatever gift she will be bringing for me but because her face brings warm to me.

After I was discharged, she was there and a taxi was ready and waiting outside the hospital gate for me.
All the hospital expenses were paid and I don’t even know how that happened.

If I was to pay, where will I see that type of money to even pay
I was still thinking about Madam’s money, it gave me sleepless nights right in the hospital
If not for the sleeping tabs that was included in my hospital drugs, which made me sleep off easily, I wouldn’t have been able to sleep.

The major thing that occu-pied my mind was madam Kash money

What will I tell that woman, what kind of convincing explanation will I give her?

I have been gone for about a week with her money which was meant for the plumbing materials.
She gave me enough and I didn’t intend spending all of it because it was more than what I needed.
But the attackers took all the money.

I explained my situation to Lydia and she decided that I will stay with her for the main time until I decide exactly what I intend to do.
She asked what she can do to help.
I un-derstand that she can’t possibly help me with cash, she has done way too much for me already.
I asked her to help me in going to my Madam’s house, she should ask for John and tell him to come and see me.

I stayed over at Lydia’s house after I was discharged from the hospital.

John finally came to see me on the second day in Lydia’s house.
I was having breakfast that morning when he arrived.
Lydia offered him some food but he declined.
I narrated everything that happened to him and how God somehow kept me alive.
He saw the whole wounds and unhealed scars on my body and that made him believed my story.

He wouldn’t have believed me any way if not for the evidence on my body.
He appeared surprised after I narrated everything to him.

He told me all that have been going on back at the house
And how everyone thinks I escaped with the money.
He said, I should think it through before coming back because many may not believe me and may even think the injuries are just fake
Make up wound just to covered up my deeds.
Madam’s daughter the second one, Jenny is trying to even po!son the heart of her mother against me and madam is begining to consider it all.
Madam may not be ready to listen to whatever explanation I have to offer, but will be ready to lock me up until I provide all the money she gave me.

John concluded that if I believe in God, God could have soften her heart even before I arrive but is obvious that I don’t.
He didn’t say it like he meant it, it was more like a joke.

John jokes alot, he even joke when one isn’t in the mood for his lame jokes

I told him that I didn’t really know who exactly sent those men after me but it appears like the former plumber is the culprit
He agreed.
He said the former plumber is hurt because of the way I collected his job, which he was using to feed and grow himself financially.
Anyone will be bitter with such act and will go to any extent just to hurt whoever that was in the way of their happiness.

He mentioned that the plumber came to the house twice to see madam since I have been away but he can’t tell what they discussed.

After I heard John said that, I became more worried.
The plumber intention was probably to kill me but he doesn’t know that he can’t take my life just like that.

John came to stand where I was sitting out, he said he was going before his absence will be dictated.
He asked me to take care and heal properly first before coming to madam with all that happened and I should seriously pray hard so that she believes me.
I can also choose not to come back, so that everyone can believe whatever they want to believe and with time they will gradually let go of everything that happened and move on.

If I’m well enough, then I should probably get a Job in another place or think of what to do with myself.

As I was walking him out, he asked if Lydia and I were already an item.
She saved me with the help of few others, took care of me in the hospital and paid off hospital bills before bringing me to stay at her place.
John asked if there’s any romantic stuff going on between us because is obvious the girl likes me

John obviously was trying to put the wrong ideas in my head but I refused to dwell on that.
I have a heavy burden on my che-st that I need to get off soon
And is how to go about it that I’m thinking off
Going back to madam is the burden, anytime I think of it, fear grip me.

I thanked John for honoring my request to come over and see me.

I gave him Lydia’s number to call and let me know if there’s any new developments back in the house.
He promised to do so and he said he could have gone to speak to madam about everything I told him but madam will think otherwise.
He later left.

I went back to think of my next line of action, I don’t know which is the best thing to do as of now.
I can’t be living on Lydia
The expenses will be too much on her.
I’m sure feeding and taking care of a stranger is definitely not what she planned for.
I have to go back and present myself to madam.
I know John gave me a scare with his words, he said madam is shrewd and may røast me alive but I don’t care at all.

I haven’t had peace of mind ever since, I need to go and clear the air, whatever madam intend doing with me then is up to her.
She can do with me as she please.
I survived the first harm from multiple men, I will survive whatever comes my way.
I know is not by my might but the true God of Omie will make it happen.

First thing tomorrow, I will be leaving to see madam.

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