just a little sin episode 56

JUST A LITTLE SIN
Episode 56
By AMAH’S HEART

For the first time I visited her lovely place, very neat and organized.
Her sitting room is like my entire apartment.

“Is really a lovely place you got here, do you stay alone in this big house..?

“Mmhmm” she replied with a nod.

I guess she wasn’t finished with her reply and didn’t bother pushing further. She is probably not in the mood to talk.

I saw a photograph of a very young boy, hanging on her sitting room wall and another photograph of she and the boy in another section.

She offered me home made food and drink, I just couldn’t refuse her meal.

I sat on her dining with her and ate quietly while scanning the entire house with my eyes.

The big screen television was showing an Amish movie and she seems to be taken by it.

“This movie is a series, this is episode twelve of it and is very interesting. I know this is not your kind of thing. What type of movie or television show do you like watching..” she asked

“I haven’t really find any one to fancy yet. I watch whatever that comes on the screen but hardly pay attention. Recently I have been focusing on the Gospel, you know things like faith talk show and worship songs..”

“Great, this is also a moral filled movie. The Amish people are very religious and I sometimes admire their unique way of life…”

I nodded quietly.

The table was cleared after eating and as she packed it to the kitchen, I offered to help and she didn’t say no.

She washed and I dry the plates and keep away.

So many things traveled through my mind as we silently worked together.

It was just two weeks ago that I finally muster the courage to ask her out for a relationship.

Is over two years now that I have come to know Omie, and we have been friends ever since.
She has being my rock of support both in my spiritual growth and every area of life.
I have liked her, admired and appreciate everything about her.
She is different from so many women that I have come across

I know i may probably loose her friendship or she may decide to stay away but I just needed to open up.

Ever since I got my own place with the help of our fellowship members, also through Omie’s influence.
She also helped me secured a big job offer, we have become more closer than before and through my closeness to her, my feeling has grown.
It was no more sister in Christ, I wanted more.
I prayed to God severally when I noticed how much I was so attached to her, I asked God to help me out and I did not want to do things carnally
I wanted God to guide my footing that I may not sin with my actions and thoughts.
After I summoned courage to make my feeling known, she didn’t respond positively or negative.
Although she looked at me strangely and said “listen Tom, the thought of God is my action base”
I didn’t understand what exactly she meant and she didn’t bother to explain.
I told her that I have already prayed about it before coming to her and she asked me to pray more and God will reveal things to me, it can be in dream or like a trance..”
This was the third time of same proposal.

I decided to seek God more but nothing was revealed to me.
I decided to let God’s will be done, probably God will speak on my behalf and if I’m not the one for her then I stand with whatever God decides.

It was just two plates remaining, I decided to break the silent which was almost chóking me

“Are you alright..? I asked.

“Mmmhmm..” she replied again with a quiet nod

Omie can be very lively whenever she’s in the mood but most times she’s quiet and very unpredictable.

I remember how she advised me to register for two professional courses and I did.
It was after the first professional course I was able to secure a job and the offer was very good.

While at the job, I registered for the second course which took me about seven months.
I attend only weekend due to my present job and at the end the course, my results was outstanding.
I was upgraded to a higher level and it comes with a better salary.

I decided to invest into plumbing materials and as the money comes, I channelled it to opening a big shop while still working.

It was the same period John called me that he was jobless because madam has sacked him too.
He confessed that he was paid by madam to convince me to accept the Madam’s offer then, but when he couldn’t make me change my mind and I even resigned, madam was not pleased and had to dismissed him.

I decided to help him by employing him in my second plumbing shop.
The first is bigger and I have about two workers and one plumbing in it.
The second shop is not big.
I have two workers, John and another young man.
I visits most weekends and the second shop isn’t turning up so well but I excused because it was suited in the outskirts of the main market while the first shop is inside the market.

John was grateful and I told him if he was diligent and truthful with my goods and income, I may end up settling him sooner so that he can open whatever business he wants.
He promised to do so.
I pay all my workers salary even when the turn up is low, I still pay the agreed amount.

I was growing financial and all round.
I began to plan on settling down with the woman of my dream, who is strongly built in the Lord, there’s no better woman than Omie.
I was even planning on getting a bigger place for myself.
I thought it will be the will of God, it will please God greatly if i settle with a God fearing woman
A real one not one with pretense like Chumi.
There’s no better woman who I have not only found favor but also found God than Omie.
She’s a replica of godliness and virtues woman.
But her response makes me feel unworthy of her or could it be that i still have a long way to go in Christiandom and is untill I attend that level that I can approach her.

I felt godly enough, I love the Lord and stay clear every way that is unholy, I try not to be a fanatic religious worshiper, those people that follow every symbols and patterns in the bible, those who thinks they’re holier than others just because of how many times they pray or read bible or attend church event.

No, I love the Lord truly and serve him with everything I got, I’m a free man who associate with everybody except sin
For any way that is filled with filthiness and unjust I will never be found close there.
I try not to judge others, I try to obey the Lord and walk in the path that seems right before him.

I really don’t know what else to do to be counted worthy of her.
I wish she can open up and tell me.

“You don’t feel that I deserve you, probably my faith is still new? If you can tell me what to do..”

“You’re okay Tom, your faith maybe new but is strongly rooted and besides is not so new. Is almost two years of your seriouse walk with God. Is far better off than people born and breed in the faith yet they don’t know where exactly they stand..”

“Thanks Omie! So what exactly is the problem..”

“I never said there was a problem, or did I? She asked as she turned to look at me before returning her gaze in the washing sink which she was rinsing.

I took a deep breath before asking “the picture of the young boy in the sitting room, who is he?

“He is my son, I’m glad that you asked. Jeremiah is his name and he’s my son..”

I almost dropped the plate in my hand out of shock.
I wasn’t expecting such a response.

Omie has a son? How come i never knew for over two years of knowing her. She have never mentioned it.

And she looks too young and appear innocent to know a man.
How is that even possible.
Is Omie married, who is the father of the boy.
I had a thousand and one question as I gently dropped the plate in my hand where it supposed to be before taking few steps away.

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