My bestie and I episode 7 – 8
MY BESTIE & I.
07.
©️✍️Sha Ron ✍️✔️
I locked myself inside throughout the next day. I came out when I was certain no one was around, everywhere was quite and silent.
Gosh! You should have seen how worn-out I was, I went straight into the kitchen and ate up all the remnants of food.
When I was done, I found my way into my room to find him seated on my bed.
My heart thudded and I became afraid he will hear my heart beat, I wanted to go back outside but his words stopped me.
“What happened to you?”
What sort of stupid question was that, huh? He doesn’t he happened to me. Mtcheeew.
“Yvonne, did I do anything wrong?”
You did everything wrong by loving that stupid girl! Can’t you see?!
“Okay, fine… I’m so sorry for anything I must have done wrong without knowing, I… I just want us to be the way we were before”
Would that ever happen? I guess not! Maybe in our dreams!!
“Go” I heard myself say, my heart had sadly replied to his words but I can’t even stand the sight of him, it hurts the more when he’s there and fails to understand.
What should I tell him? That I love him? His heart already belongs to another and I can’t stand him choosing her over me, I might die of heartbreak.
“Excuse me?” He asked looking at me surprisingly.
I met his gaze for the first time, he doesn’t look happy at all, he looked like he wants to cry.
“Get out of my room” I wasn’t shouting it though I had wished my voice was more audible.
“Yvonne… what’s this sudden attitude towards me about? What did I do to you?” He came closer to me and I moved backwards.
“Alright, am sorry about that guy, you know…and… sorry if I had offended you unknowingly but I’m not going anywhere” he said again when he realized I wasn’t gonna talk.
I brushed past him and went into my bathroom, I took shower and ordered myself to be a good girl, how possible was it that I’m killing myself because of a guy whose heart belongs to another.
He has always treated me like an elder brother, in his eyes, I’m his little sister and that’s what I should get into my damaged head.
When I came out of the bathroom, he wasn’t there but I heard his voice and I knew he was probably talking with either my mom or dad.
I locked my door and fell on my bed for another round of heart aching weep.
***
I hid myself inside and refused to talk to anyone including him as he persistently came to visit for two weeks before I went back to school.
I kept to myself in school as well and went about each and every day thinking of him, I have tried to forget and let go but the more I avoid his chats, the more I loved him.
One fateful day, he appeared on my door step, I was surprised when I opened the door to see him but I allowed him come inside.
Not because I had the zeal but more because I have really missed him, I offered him a drink and told him that I wanted to go somewhere.
I don’t even have a place in mind, I just wanted to go away and maybe when he’s tired of waiting for me, he would go back home.
“I will wait for you” he accepted simply without questions.
I left and came back at twelve in the middle of the night, I had gone clubbing with a few of my friends, something that I have never done before.
I drank myself to stupor and staggered all the way to my hostel, when I got to my door, he stood there.
I felt glad about it, but I wished he had gone home. I had thought he would leave, after all, am not the one he loves.
“When did you start drinking?” He asked helping me go inside my room.
I ignored him and concentrated on pulling off my shoes to get ready for bed, I don’t freaking care about him.
Stupidly, my heart says the opposite, I really care and I really love and I really miss him. My oh my!
I was lucky I don’t loose my mind when am drunk because I would have said everything that night but I rather became calm as drunk as I was.
I lay down on my bed quietly and was almost halfway to sleep when he said something that made me look at him again.
“She left me”
What?!
“What did you say?” Those words took away all the dizziness and sleep away from my eyes, I went closer to him to find out that he’s crying.
Now I get it!
I hadn’t even looked closely at his face earlier to see all the sadness and dark circles under his eyes.
A part of me was happy while a part was sad, I am happy that she left and am sad that she broke his heart and now he’s sad.
If you care so much about someone, you will always hurt when that person is in pains, what greater love could be more than caring deeply.
“I did everything for her” he commented as he laid his head on my shoulder and wept.
“I’m deeply sorry, I failed to notice your hurting moments, am really sorry, Henry” I couldn’t hold back my own tears.
“No one else knows, and do you know the funny thing?” He cupped my face and laughed sadly.
When I shook my head, he said “she said that am broke, that I don’t have a car and that am not her kind of man, could you imagine that?”
She’s just a foolish girl, has she ridden a bicycle in her miserable life! Even I who has so many cars at my disposal loves him while the idiot is breaking his heart.
Well, this might work for my own favour.
“Am very sorry Henry, every disappointment is a blessing in disguise, just forget about her, she’s not worth your tears” I advised.
We slept together on my bed that night, nothing happened as usual so don’t get your hopes up!
But things where running through my mind, I wanted so badly to ask him if they had been intimate.
I know it wasn’t my business but I would feel bad if they have because I hate to think that she had been his first.
The only thing I should be worried about now is how to tell him about my feelings for him, right?
All night, I held him close to me and thought about what to do next and wondered if he loves me at all!
Read – Under the moon light episode 15 – 16
MY BESTIE & I.
08.
😍😜🤗🙊🙊
©️✍️Sha Ron ✍️✔️
I think I dozed off to sleep when it’s almost morning because I had stayed awake half of the night drowning in fantasies.
I was awakened by Henry, when I sprang out of bed, I saw that he’s all dressed up.
“Good morning” I greeted rubbing at my face, sleep was still disturbing me sef.
“How’s your night babe?” He replied pecking me.
“As gorgeous as you!” I said with a smile eyeing him.
“I see, I heard a bell ring early this morning, don’t you have lectures this morning?”
“Oh yeah! Later in the day, you are all dressed up, why so early?” I asked standing up from the bed.
“I have to go back to PH. I will come visit you again, my boss might start complaining because it’s been about two weeks I went to work” he explained curtly.
“Well…okay. Can you at least eat something before you go?” I said feeling sad chewing my lower lip.
“I made tea and bread, I even kept for you so help yourself. I will get going now so I would be home before night falls” he said.
Then, I realized how early he must have waken to get going. I had thought we would spend today together.
I felt really sad that I can’t even get a chance to talk to him about my feelings for him and I don’t have the balls to say it now.
“Mmm…take care of yourself and don’t think too much about that…girl, you… deserve better and… I wish you journey mercies” I said.
“Come here babe” he drew me into his arms for a hug.
He kissed me on my forehead and took his leave, I stood on the door and watched him until he is out of view.
I felt like something special was walking away from me, I felt like I shouldn’t have let him leave, my heart missed him and longed for him.
I could only hug my door and wish he would just turn around and run to me.😥
*Three weeks on*
It was exactly what I felt!
No calls, No texts, No chat!😩😨😔🙁😓
I felt lost, I blamed myself. He’s probably paying me back for all the snubs and missed calls.
I called and chatted but got no response, combining school and work was too stressful plus the distress that his ignorance caused, I became afraid I might fail my exams.
I resigned from all the jobs, it’s not like I need money, I had used it to distract myself and I still need it now but I don’t want to disappoint my parents no matter what.
Being their only child, I always want to make them proud and never make them feel like they should have been favoured with more children.
Quiting my jobs didn’t gimme the time for my studies as I craved for, do you know why? I guess yes!
You already know, I keep wondering and thinking about him and why his behavior towards me changed.
The little times I called my parents, I asked after him and they said he is doing good.
I even called his mother and he confirmed that nothing is wrong with him, that maybe he simply didn’t want to call me or reply when I do.
I went to the extent of calling his sister who told me that she isn’t with them anymore, that she is at her fiance’s place planning her wedding.
I was surprised, she’s getting married and no one cared to tell me, what a great shock!😬😲
I prayed for my exams to end quick so I would go home and see the way things are going myself.
To my own favour, exams came and was gone as quick as I prayed for and though I didn’t do an excellent work as before but I passed.
I packed up a little belongings and boom! Home I went.
When I got home, I got a very bad news. I prayed for death…😓
I was broken for real. I wept like a child and I almost cursed my life.
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