Debbie’s secret Episode 7 – 8
🤫DEBBIE’S SECRET🤫
CHAPTER 7
I open my eyes slowly to adjust the rays of sun passing through them.
“where am I” I mumbled and sat up on the bed.
I held my head with my palm. my head is aching so badly. what happened.
I scan the room and realize that I’m in the hospital.
“what am I doing here” I thought to myself and just then the door flew open. mom came in,side alongside Thandi.
“Thandi find a nurse and tell them Debbie’s awake”
“Alright” Thandi says and walks out of the room
“how are you feeling now?” mom ask
“how did I end up here” I ask ignoring her question
“you almost killed yourself Debbie. I just don’t know what’s running through that mind of yours. do you want to die and leave me here all alone” she asks almost breaking down
“mom please not now. you don’t know what I’m going through” I tell her
“how will I not know. you’re my daughter and I’m also a mother. perhaps you don’t know the feeling of having just one child who constantly tries to commit suicide. don’t you know I’m affected?” she asks
I didn’t respond so I just turned to the other side
“I want it dead and I don’t care if my life’s on the line anymore cause it’s better I die than being the subject of mockery” I tell her and just then Thandi walked in with the doctor.
she examined my body and checked my pulse.
“I can’t believe you tried to kill yourself Debbie” the doctor says.
“I didn’t see you trying to help me out. so I did what I had to. I just hope the baby’s dead” I say plainly to her
“how is she feeling now?” mom asks the doctor
“great and the baby is okay as well. good thing you rushed her here on time or something would have happened to the baby or worse Debbie” she says to mom
“Debbie is fine now and out of danger” she adds
“did I just hear you correctly? am I still carrying the baby”
“yes you are. Mrs Stack can I talk to you outside” the doctor says to mom
“Sure doc” mom reply and follows her
the walked out and shut the door while Thandi just stood there staring at me.
“Is everything ok doctor” Mrs Stack asks the doctor once they were outside
“you have to get rid of Debbie’s pain one way or another. I’ve seen many victims of teenage rape and believe me, it doesn’t go well” The doctor says
“I don’t understand”
“if Debbie doesn’t forget the pain soon, a lot of complications might come up. I know what she’s going through and why she keeps acting like this. she’s just a teenager, has a life ahead of her so this rape could a wh0le lot of trauma especially during birth if she hasn’t killed the baby then” the doctor says putting her hands in her pockets
“what do you suggest that I do?”
“She needs someone to talk to. so it becomes a part of her. I suggest therapy. a place she could really open up how she’s feeling in,side cause somehow it’s been bottled up in,side and I suggest you act fast before Debbie takes another drastic action that could end her life cause she’s not scared of death anymore”
“thanks doc”
“in the meantime, I’ll give you some drugs that Debbie should take so she doesn’t have complications in her early stage of pregnancy”
“Alright. I really appreciate”
“you’re welcome Mrs stack” she says as she gave a smile.
“I still can’t believe why this baby doesn’t want to die. I thought it’d be dead by now” I say to Thandi and just then Mom opens the door.
“Maybe the baby doesn’t want to” mom tells me
“I’ll have to get rid of it”
“can’t you see. if that baby was meant to go, it would’ve but it doesn’t.” mom tells me
“whatever. what did the doctor say? is she getting rid of it”
“she’s not getting rid of anything. aren’t you even listening?” mom yells at me
“Mom…
” you could die or your womb could get damaged. you’re talking about having a child at a tender age, have you ever thought what would happen, if you eventually got married and can’t produce a child for your husband” she says holding my hand in hers “Debbie please try to understand. I will be here with you until you give birth instead of dying in an unforseen operation please” she begs
I removed my hands from hers but didn’t utter a word.
we went home after I got discharged from the hospital. I went up to my room to sleep. later, mom knocked on my door.
“come in its open” I tell her and she came in and sat down
“I’ve made dinner, come and eat and take your medications”
“I’m not taking any drugs, if that’s how I loose the baby then I’m willing to take that chance” I tell her
“Debbie please. you’re putting me in a very tight situation as it is. I know you’re hurting and I know it pains you to carry that child now but please you just can’t throw your life because of a baby” she tells me
I stood up to drink some water
“After giving birth, you can still go to school. I won’t stop you from achieving everything you planned on achieving so please try to help me as well Debbie” she begs and sniffs
“you’re crying?” I ask her
“well what do you want me to do when you’ve clearly signed a death wish for yourself?” she ask “please take this and I also booked you up for therapy sessions with Lady Anne. so please agree to this”
“Alright. don’t cry mom. I hate seeing you like this. I’ll go”
“promise me”
“I promise Mom”
“here” she says handing me some pills and a glass of water. I drank it and gave her the glass.
“that’s better” she gave a weak smile
“I want to go to school and write my exams mom” I tell her
“it’s not a problem sweetie. you can go then maybe after school, you go for therapy alright?” she asks and I nod
“I love you Debbie, don’t ever forget that”
“I love you too mom” I said hugging her tight as the tears rolled down my cheeks.
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YOU ARE READING DEBBIE’S SECRET BY KIARI HORSFALL
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🤫DEBBIE’S SECRET🤫
CHAPTER 8
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“Mom I’ll be going now” I say taking my bag from the room.
“have you had your breakfast” she asks
“yes”
“and what about your drugs”
“I’ve taken them”
“here, I packed you lunch” she says giving me my box
“thanks momma. I love you” I say k-ssing her cheeks while I head out the door to school.
I arrived and walked into class.
“I’m so glad you came, we’re writing today” she says as she approached me and I nod
“So have you gotten rid of the um… baby?” she whispers pointing to my stomach
“no. I’m keeping it. I wanted an abortion but clearly I would die if I try it” I told her.
“Don’t worry you’ll be fine” she tells me
I noticed Freddie walk in.
“I have to talk to Freddie” I say leaving Thandi and walking up to him.
“Freddie can I talk to you?” I ask
“yeah sure” he says putting his hands into his pockets.
“about the dance… ” I start off
“so are you going with me” he cut me short
“No I can’t. ”
“but why. you said you were gonna think about it”
“yes and I did think about it and I just can’t go with you. something came up and… I’m sorry” I say and walk out on him to my sit.
I spent the rest of the day trying to get away from him.
After school I went home, and got prepared for my therapy session with Anne.
After eating, mom gave me the address and I went there and knocked on the door.
“Hello” I called as I knocked repeatedly and someone opened it.
she looked like someone in her late thirties I’m guessing.
“I’m looking for one lady Anne. I was directed here a therapy session” I explain
“are you Debbie Stack?” she asks
“yes I am”
“come on in” she moves aside and I step in
“thanks” I say
“Sit down. what can I get you? juice?”
“no. water will be fine” I said and she brought a glass while I drank it.
“Debbie Stack. almost eighteen. daughter of Emily Stack am I right? she asks
” how do you know?”
“I just guessed. so how are you?”
“feeling better”
“and the baby?” she asks again
“it’s still living in,side me” I say
“wanna start the therapy session?” she asks smiling
“yeah if I must” I say and she takes a seat next to me.
“I want you to close your eyes Debbie and tell me exactly what happened that night” she says
“No. I don’t want to remember”
“I can’t help you Debbie unless you help yourself” she points out to me “please”
“OK” I say closing my eyes trying to remember. the memories flashed back and I opened my eyes.
“I can’t do it. I don’t want to remember any of it” I sniffed
“You have to face it Debbie so it becomes a, part of you and you can move on. I know what you’re going through but you’re gonna have to do this for yourself so you can let go and have peace of mind. you want that don’t you?” she asks taking my hand in hers
“I do”
“so please I need you to be completely honest with me and tell me everything OK?”
“Alright” I say closing my eyes again.
“Tell me what do you see?”
“I’m walking down a path” I tell her, my eyes still shut.
“yes go on” she says.
I tell her everything that happened that night and how I was raped. it went on for close to two hours. it just like I opened old wounds cause I couldn’t stop crying.
“shh” she hugs me “you did great. I’m proud of you Debbie”
“thanks”
“Don’t worry, the fear will be gone in no time okay” she says and I nod
“I have to go” I tell her
“Alright. I’ll walk you to the door” she says and gets up from her seat.
“thanks again Lady Anne”
“you’re welcome” she says and shut the door after I exit.
I don’t know why but I feel light. it’s like a burden just lifted up my shoulder. I guess the saying was right. a, problem shared is a problem half solved but in this case it’s better.
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About a month later, we were finally through with our exams. I heard that Freddie asked another girl. I mean he was bound to since I didn’t agree to go with him.
Thandi on the other hand went with someone else while I stayed put in the house. my stomach has started protruding and I don’t want people to see me and start pointing fingers at me. Thandi was the only one who visited me. when our results were out, mom went to get them in school.
I still went for therapy session with Lady Anne who constantly kept telling me it was going to be a boy. liked I cared anyway. she was really helping me get rid of my fear and slowly I was beginning to accept the fact that I can’t undo what was already done.
“Debbie sweetheart” mom called one afternoon after coming back from the grocery store
“yes mom”
“This will look nice on him don’t you think?” she asks giving me some clothes
“you can’t start buying stuff, we don’t even know if it’s going to be a girl or a boy” I tell her
“I just thought it was nice”
“stop spending unnecessarily mom. I don’t even care if this child walks around unclad cause after I give birth I’m sending him to an orphanage” i say to her
“don’t be that mean”
“what so he can ruin my life and I can’t ruin his? if it stays here, it’ll constantly remind me of what Happened cause anytime I’ll see it, I’ll remember what it’s goddamned father did to me” I say grabbing some milk from the fridge
“oh I got your results from your exams”
“oh really. let me see.” I say taking it from her and tearing it open.
“OMG mom I passed” I yell
“really? yeah look at it” I say flaunting it in her face
“I’ll finally be going to college next year. thank goodness” I say and mom hugs me.
“I’m proud of you sweetie”
“thanks mom”
After I give birth, I’ll finally put my life back on track
there is a light at the end of the tunnel after all.
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