just a little sin episode 48

JUST A LITTLE SIN
Episode 48
By AMAH’S HEART

She was about rounding up with her cooking when I stepped in.

“I was worried that I won’t meet you at home and there’s no phone to call you, I’m happy to see you again..”

She wiped off the sweat forming in her forehead.
“I’m glad you came Tom, you don’t know how much I have missed you. I was thinking of how to see you again and was afraid something bad has happened due to what John, your friend told us that your madam will do to you but I usually rebuke such thoughts. I pray for you everyday…I have never stopped” Lydia said with a satisfying smile.
She was indeed happy to see me just like I was

I was grinning from ear to ear as I listened to her speak.

“…I went for youth and singles fellowship in my church this morning, I stopped at the market on my way back to get some foodstuffs and few groceries. I’m just rounding up with cooking and you will be well fed in no time and after which you will tell me everything that has happened back at your work place ever since you left. You’re looking different though, more finer and I’m very delighted to see you this way” another perspiration formed and she didn’t bother attending to it.

I nodded quietly with a smile as I stared at her.
Her happiness was contagious
She looked at me and blushed before leaving.
She brought food and I asked her to sit with me so that we can eat together
She appeared a bit shy.
She told me that she wanted to take her bath first before eating because she was almost covered with sweat.
I told her to go ahead, I will wait until she is done with her shower.

I waited until she was done refreshing, she came to join me and we ate together.
I thanked her for the food, she urged me to eat more but I was filled already.

After the small table we used in eating was cleared,
We sat talking, I told her everything that has been going on with me and she was indeed happy for me.
She said only God deserves the praise because it was all miracle from God.

I also told her about John who totally changed ever since I arrived.
Lydia said that I should not to fright over him, that God will arrest him with time.
She excused herself to do the dishes.
I stood to join her.

I remember when I was down, she took care of me without complaining, now that I’m fit and healthy again, I’m going to try as much as possible to show her my gratitude even in the little things.

She insisted I go and relax while she wash the dirty dishes but I wasn’t ready to back down.
She couldn’t talk me out of it and gave up.
As she wash the plates, I rinse before putting away.
We went back to continue talking after the dishes.
I felt this awkward emotions to hold her and kis-s her
As I watch her smile while talking, She sitting beside me, her sweet scent filled my nose
I was getting carried away.
I have live with her in the past and never for once feel this way or even think towards engaging in any emotional affair, I never had any sort of feeling except gratefulness of how she cared for me.
The urge became huge the more I watch her, I try to concentrate and think of something else but it wasn’t working.

“I never knew you had all this goodness in you, you’re seriously a fine man and is not a flattery, sincerely. You’re handsome Tom, you looks so smooth and fresh and that makes me wonder if you’re the same person a month ago that looks disfigured. Is God not good like this…? I’m in awe of his wonder. Tomasi you’re the real definition of God’s miracle. I’m de-eperly grateful to God for all your testimonies and nothing and no one will stop the great things coming your path..”

I wasn’t really paying attention to all she was saying, I was just watching her li-ps movement, her che-st and I remember how she hug-ged me earlier when I came in.

Right at the door, she threw her arms around me and I held her very close.
Her body was so soft and warm.
I didn’t think much about the hug untill now that I felt like I’m attra-cted to her in some ways.

“Can I hug you again..” I asked her shamelessly.

She was a bit taken back by my request
“Uhmm..! Yeah..sure..” she said slowly

I gently drew her into my arms
I deliberately pressed my body into hers, so that I can feel those her round bo0bs and the warmness that comes from her

I got carried away with the way it all makes me feel.
She struggled a little to pull back but I wasn’t even ready to let go.
I try to kis-s her and that was when she gave me a hard push and struggled off my arm
“Tomasi, I don’t know you to be like this? What got into you?

“I..uh..” I lost words to say. I became speechless

“This can only be sin lur-k-ing in your heart, you nurtured it and it gave birth to your actions and could have birthed more sin if not that i was strongly rooted in the Lord..”
“… I’m sorry but I don’t entertain worldly pleasure and is my everyday prayer that God should continue to give me grace to overcome it whenever it comes my way…”

I gasped out. I really don’t know what to say.
Infact I felt so ashamed of myself
I wanted to disappear right away.

I thought she will reciprocate, with the way she threw an admiring tactics at me, I thought she wanted me like I do.
My whole emotions disappear, it was overpowered with sháme and gu!lt

“I’m sorry Lydia, I don’t know what came over me. I think I will be leaving now..”

I stood up and she didn’t say a word, she was only watching me and I couldn’t read anything from her appearance.

My legs shakes terr!bly as I marched to the door
That’s when I realized that gu!lt is a strong rope that can hang one to d£ath even before judgement takes place.

“Tom, is never too late to seek God with all your heart and find out what he has in store for you. The fear of the Lord leads to Life, we all must give an account to God for everything we do here on earth. God will judge our earthly deeds, including every secret thing, we-ther good or bad…” She said while standing

“Yeah, you’re correct. He sees all and knows all, God is a chief judge and lawyer too… right?” I don’t know if I was making any sense, I sounded very dùmb but I needed to say something to feel at ease
Instead I felt even worst.
She didn’t respond, Lydia gave me a puzzled look after my last sentence.

“I will continue praying for you Tom..” she finally said.

“Okay..bye, bye bye…” I said and wish the ground can swallow me at that instant
I quickly walked out.

On getting home, I couldn’t erase what happened off my mind.
Even the following day, when I prepared so early in the morning and went to church to avoid running into Zee, who wanted to go with me.

All I can think off was what happened between Lydia and I.
Lydia said it was because I entertained sin in my heart which later gave birth to the embarra-ssing thing I try to do.

I will try to focus on today’s service, is a new day.
I have seen Omie and she was very happy to see me.
We will get to talk after service.
I have looked around for Konji and he’s nowhere to be found.
Omie is on her ushering duty, I will probably see Konji after service and also have a little chat with Omie too.

Maybe after today’s activities, I may finally forget what happened between Lydia and I and the guilt eating heavily at me will finally leave me alone.

I need to be free from the shamefulness of yesterday
I’m somehow glad that she did not consent to the act.

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