just a little sin episode 53

JUST A LITTLE SIN
Episode 53
By AMAH’S HEART

Omie spoke to me extensively after the Bible class, I felt energised in my spirit man and knew that I was indirectly conceding to sin, even without knowing.

To run this spiritual race with a clean slate isn’t easy at all, there alot of things that God frowned at and even some of the things we take as normal is on the list

She said I have to resign from the job, she was ready to look for other jobs for me but is going to take a little time.

I agreed at first but really pained that I have to start all over on another job hunt.

I decided to give it a thought first

I visited Lydia to know how she was fairing and I went with lots of goodies for her.
The strange thing is ever since I gave my life to Christ and started on this heavenly race of mine, I no longer have any kind of emotional feelings for any woman
Not for Lydia or Omie
I was really focused and the only challenges I have was madam and whatever her secret plans towards me is.

Whenever I think of Lydia, I always say a prayer or two for her because she played a great role in my life, that I will never forget.
I see her as a sister in the Lord and a God sent in time of need.

I feel very much attached to Omie but not in a wrong way, rather in a good and cordial way
I feel absolutely nothing for Lydia and whatever happens in the past, no longer bothers me
Is a neutral, sisterly relationship that I now operate
She is not into me and already made it clear but she promised to help me in my walk with God.
Which was the exact thing I needed.

Getting to her place, I gave her several things I got for her plus cash, which I packaged in an envelope.
She accepted everything except the cash but I insisted and refused to take it back.

She thanked me greatly for my kind heart.
I stayed a little more, even ate a delicious pancake meal as we talked about how to have an uninterrupted faith in God.

She may not be very good like Omie when it comes to teaching but she is a good prayer warriors and a fantastic adviser, like a hope giver.

I left after I was done with the pancake and malt

She asked me to visit anytime that I’m free and I promised to do so.

As I walked back home, I try having some quiet time with myself and God.

I like looking back and brooding over the past

I have really come a long way, I’m not very easy to be convinced over a thing, I’m a stubborn son of my father, unforgiving, revengeful fellow.

I have done lots of wrong in the past and do not deserve mercy
I’m imperfect, that’s true but I try not to center on my imperfections to do wrong.
The good thing about me is that I stand for truth, justice and håte to pretend.

I’m a very straightforward man and I love my mother.
I still remember Duni, who was supposed to be my first love but she threw my love back to my face and said several things, things that hurt me back then.
She even said that I had a bad breath which isn’t true and said that I’m not worthy of her.

I’m glad my friend back then confirmed that I was very okay as a man.
Duni’s dèãth hurt me de-eply and I wanted to revenge on her behalf.
Thinking back, I will say that it was one of the most fool!sh things I ever try to do.
I later ended up with beautiful Oni whom I thought I can finally spend my life with as husband and wife
I know I used a love chärm to get her so that I can hürt Juru, her then boyfriend but it came to backfire on me heavily, thank God for my Mama who with her kind heart saved me from dóom

Oni had wished for death because of the ill treatment from her Dad and step Mom and I rebuked her severally
She wanted to die like her Mom because of the way her father and step Mom treated her.
After several months of håting her, I fell for her without knowing how.
I was ready to be the father of her baby and be the husband of her youth.

The exchange of bride price was planned and the two families gathered to join us together but war broke out between Oni and her step mother.

That was how I missed getting married that day and looking back now, I can see it was all God’s doing which I’m grateful for.

He saved me from Oni, I could have have a late wife and people will refer to me as such if not that the wedding didn’t hold due to the fight that broke out the very day.
I have been angry and wanted to reschedule for another wedding day but Oni said she will have to give birth first and I agreed.
Only for her to d!e during the delivery but her baby survived.
Everyone believed I was responsible for her pregnancy but I had no hand in it because I never touched her except for few cuddle which was late in her pregnancy stage.
Indeed, God works in a mysterious ways and I thank him for saving me from what I couldn’t save myself from.
I didn’t realized that God’s hand have been on my life untill now.

Yes, the tormenting dreams that almost drive me insane later stopped but the guilt feeling remains

I have met Konji during my second visit to the city and he offered me a crâzy job of going to Churches, pretending to be und-er the influence of the holy Spirit and falling und-er the anointing during prayer so that at the end we will be paid

I couldn’t involved myself with such act and Konji got himself embarrassed during the church drama.
It was then I met a God sent Omie, whom I have mistaken for Oni due to the striking resemblance.
She has been the light on my path ever since

Now, I und-erstand clearly that it was a big sin.
that Konji’s fake performance, which he tagged hustle is a sin and any act against the holy spirit is one of greatest of all sins

I never participated even as an unbeliever, I can tell good from the bad and washed my hands off such thing.

Looking back at my life, I’m grateful to God for his guidance
He cared for me even when I don’t know him much.
Now that I have decided to follow him fully, allowing old things to past away, I thought it will be a smooth journey
But the road is truly rough and giving up is far easier than continuing on this rough track
But I’m not going to surrender to ev!l monitoring spirit, who are looking out for my failure in this race.
I won’t give them reason to celebrate, no matter how difficult the road maybe, with the help of God, just like Omie had said I will overcome

I prayed quietly as I returned back to the house.
Month will end in nine days, counting from today and I will be able to collect my salary and tender my resignation.

I’m going back to Yoara, to live with him.
Is unfortunate that I still haven’t gotten a place of my own.
Is a good thing that he was no longer dating or planning to marry Chumi.

We will just be two brothers and will spend time talking about God together.
We will race on together in God without anything interrupting or any woman distracting our journey of faith.

Yoara will be happy to see that the new me is very serious with the things of God.
I know he will be very happy

Is a good thing I’m no longer in the world.

I called Yoara to ask how he was doing, I wanted to know the situation of things around him first.
He sounded very lively, I asked him what was going on with him, he said nothing serious.
He was just happy.

He then later disclosed to me that Chumi came back begging and confessing to him and he decided to forgive her

They’ve patched things up and planning their wedding again.
He said whenever the date is set, he will send the invite to me.

After the call ended, I really didn’t know what to think.
Going back to Yoara was no longer an option.
I have to look for another option.

Konji was not a better option.
Is not just because he lives in the trenches, but his kind of person can land me into trouble
He had refused to leave gambling and other dirty acts and focus
I don’t want to be part of any of his doings.

It seems I will be stuck with madam a little longer
This is one of the most difficult personal race of all time

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