I’m Sorry – Episode 8

I’m Sorry – Episode 8
BY ANNIE-GRACIE
I couldn’t bring up any as I sat there feeling like a fool. Thoughts of Ann began to flash through my mind. Ann wouldn’t have done anything like with this. Annie is been too awkward and stubborn I imagined. Ann would have even insisted I do it without objecting like with Annie. I then came up with an idea which I knew would be heart aching but I gave no heed because I didn’t want my manh-od to be tired of dancing “one corner” I thought.
I stood up after sometime of thinking and left to the room. As I got there I saw Annie crying but I tried pretending I didn’t hear anything. The .more I took my mind off the more my heart insisted I go to her aid. I then left to where she was seated and and placed her head on my chest as I tabbed her back like a baby. I don’t know the very secret Annie has in rousing the love I have for her.
I realized although after several things that happened between us the love I had for her kept growing bigger and stronger everyday. Would there be a reason that I have been possessed by her love? I kept fumbling on it without knowing what exactly it could be. Annie then sat up after she stopped crying. She then held my hands , “Gerald , I really love you but I’m scared you would jilt me midway that’s why I want us to control ourselves since we are still young. We would definitely meet up and do everything you want in some years to come. Please understand me, I just want the best for the both of us. Promise me you ain’t going to do anything that would hurt me when I’m gone.”
Immediately I heard Annie requesting I should make a promise again than thoughts of the decision I had taken began racing through my mind. Its surprising she wants me to stay over here alone and wait for her until she comes back for us to do it. Obviously I had can’t be faithful but just to give her a positive answer I smiled to show agreement in what she said. She then hugged me elated but my mind and emotions were far from normal.
She released me afterwards and then requested to take leave. I really would miss her though when she’s gone but I realized she didn’t care about that part. I esc-rted and she finally left. I came back really hurt and disappointed thinking of what to do next. I just don’t really know if my emotions were deceiving or such because I was deeply and crazily in love with Annie and would have loved to stay faithful till she returns but was puzzled in thoughts on how to control myself.
Annie is really hurting me I thought, maybe I can’t give her the love she’s expecting. I knelt and prayed silently for strength to have self control while Annie was away. It was indeed a heart aching prayer because it wouldn’t be east to stay alone for probably 3-4months before she returns for holiday. I then concluded my prayer with **With God all things are possible**.
I then turned on my phone and I saw a message from Annie saying she was off to the airport with Ann. I wanted to ask if Ann would also be going but I stopped since I didn’t want her to think there was something going on. I then wish her a safe fight and told her to take care. She promised to do so and I turned my data off. Would Ann be going with her? I thought she told me she would be staying over. I kept fumbling on it. I didn’t know what had come over me. Was I falling for Ann too. Its indeed strange.
Weeks came by after Annie had left and I also prepared for school. I then decided to stay on campus to avoid been lonely. The courses I studied were more of calculations as such I didn’t really sit to read any. Either I woke up to make some research online or I went to the library to read a book. I really wanted to keep myself busy and from any interruptions. Ladies on campus were really pretty and attractive that any man would be ready to go out with them.
I realized most of them never cared of anything just like Ann. My class had the well enticing ladies who were always exclusively dressed with their make ups on which made them looked more attractive. Their beauty I could honestly say was extraordinary just like Annie. I really didn’t know how to avoid of them if they approached me. I would have loved to have their company I thought.
My hall on the other hand was a unis€× hall. They were both females and males and you can imagine how temptating it would be. Most of the ladies either visited the guys or the ladies with the guys. My room was not left out since we were two in a room and the guy dated on campus. The lady been a Nigerian mostly came there with apparels which usually revealed the most enticing parts of her body.
Although I was now in the university but I still had a shyful nature. I really hated mingling with friends but due to my relationsh¡p with Annie so I came over it a little. I could easily talk to my female mates only when we have group discussions. Scarcely would you see me talking to them during normal class. I left to the hostel oneday after lectures and surprisingly this girl was there waiting for the other guy who was still on campus. This time her dress was far beyond imagination. I just couldn’t think far.
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Although I was in the university but that shy nature was still in me. I rarely talked to my mates unless we had a group discussion which usually needs my contributions or such. Most of the ladies in my class were indeed pretty and that any young guy would have loved to socialise with but due to my shyness I couldn’t. Their dressing and make ups to class were always exclusive and expectional. hærdly would you find any without a make up on.
Being new to the place I tried to adapt to everything happening on campus either in class or hostel. I wanted to keep the best part of behavior to suit what Annie requested me to. I was careful especially with the ladies as most of them usually dressed almost unclad revealing the enticing part of their body.Although it hasn’t been easy to take off my eyes from them when you see it but I tried to.
One stressful day after a boring lecture and I left to the hostel ,immediately I entered my heart almost bumped out of my body like a bomb. My other room mates girfriend was there almost half unclad. This Nigerian girl wore a sparkling dressing of which revealed the b-obs.Her fair thighs were showing and they indeed attractive. Immediately I entered I tried returning but she told me I could come in.
“ I think I have to stay on campus maybe you need some privacy” I intentionally said this while staring at her from sole of her foot right through her thighs, almost within it and later her b-obs which were deadly unavoiding. “ You can come in please” she pleaded. I just wanted to but I was tensed up with her attractive nature. Suddenly I could realize that my self control was getting out of sight as I went to where my bed was so I could have a nap.
As I got there about taking of my bag I felt something holding my right hand. I became tensed and almost lost in control as to how to watch back. She then said” I came because I knew you would be coming over, its about time I reveal my feelings I have for you as I can’t hold it anymore. I always come here because of you but it seems you don’t notice it because you want to keep away from but I want you, Gerald.”
On hearing that I was suddenly speechless unable to voice out anything. At that moment I couldn’t even think about Annie or Ann. It was like I’ve been given answers together with questions to solve again. I stared at her not knowing which reply to even give her. She then held my neck but I didn’t want to create any problem between my room mate and I so I tried telling her to stop it but she told her guy had left home. I was surprised she knew it and intentionally came over. What then do you need from me ? I asked her as I sat on my bed. I want to feel you, Gerald. Prince ain’t my taste and it hurts me a lot since he doesn’t make me feel the way I want things to be.
I stared at her as she voiced something awkward about his guy. “ Honestly I’m stressed up and not in the mood to do anything like that” I tried taking off her hands on my thighs. We can try , it would work out Gerald. Two heads can make something great “ she said this as she gave me a rom-ntic look. I was dead in tracks as she begin turning her l-ips just to make me feel that she really wanted something.
It was over two months now and I’ve controlled myself too long I thought. Annie had voiced out clearly not to give in until we about to stay together. A part of me although accepts it but still finds it thriving how uneasy it would be since temptations runs everywhere. Ann on the hand because I didn’t tell her I was in school so I hadnt seen her since.I think only this moment wont change anything afterall I wouldn’t voice it out to anyone so Annie would probably not sense anything.
I switched to normal now as I stared at that enticing nature of God’s creature before . I then held her neck and told her after today I don’t think we should do any such again. She smiled and promised not to. I pulled her up and guess what happened we were out within the clouds almost up to heaven. I realized its been long and I did miss it but I wanted to be faithful to Annie. Just within 15 minutes we were back to normal and she went to the washroom to freshen up.
Indeed she had finally tensed me up and made my day after the boring lectures I realized I was okay now. She came back after some minutes and wore her clothes and later gave me peck and left afterwards. It was though like a dream but indeed a reality . I began to cope up with my mates after the meeting I had with this girl. I had the courage to talk in class and most girl loved my voice when I spoke up mostly during time of questions.
I was beginning to adapt to a new character which supposedly I would say may not help but I wanted to feel okay. My colleagues began to call me *Exprez* which meant to them I was easy to click with.Almost every girl wanted to talk to me in class after they realized I was a shark. They began to ask if I could help them with assignments and personal learning and I did accept it only from the pretty ones I knew I could get something in return.
All that while Annie called usually on weekends and I always gave her excuses. I pretended I was adhering to what she told me. Weeks flew by into months and the time of examination was getting closer. Almost every week had me having an affair in my hostel with a girl after my private study all in the name of lecturing them. Just a semester and I was almost thumbs up with every single girl especially in my class. Most of the guys began to assume that I had magics and that aided me to do so but it was a lie. Every week and the type of girl I meet. Maybe this week was Angela next would be Barbara then Catherine. It followed suit alphabetically.
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