My Mind as A Teenager – episode 8
My Mind as A Teenager
episode 8
Law: Am sorry,it wasn’t intentional.
Me: Its okay. Goodnight
I was about leaving when he held my hand. I
refused to look at him because I knew what
the discussion was going to be all about. I
also knew that I was going to refuse him if
he talked about it.
Law: Rose look at me. Why are you avoiding
me? Did I do anything wrong?
I still didn’t look at him so he turned me
around.
Law: I need an answer now. You can’t just
keep quiet and still avoid me.
Me: Law please,seniors may be out here any
moment and I don’t want to be in their bad
books.
Law: Is that all you’re concerned about?
Me: For now,yes.
I saw the hurt in his eyes. He looked away
but didn’t leave my hand.
Me: let me go back to my class please.
Law: what kind of human being are you?
He sounded very angry and I was shocked.
He continued.
“I didn’t want to approach you but I saw
myself doing it. Why did you give me so
much hope at the beginning? I should have
believed those who said you were a l£sb!an.
Me: what? me? a l£sb!an? Are you crazy?
I was angry but I still managed to keep my
voice calm.
Law: am not crazy. Prove them wrong then if
you’re not a l£sb!an. Listen,I love you and . .
. .
I snatched my hand from him and stared at
him for a while.
Me: You don’t love me. You only came to me
to verify if I was a l£sb!an or not. Listen,I
have a boyfriend back at home. I love him so
much and won’t let anything or anyone
change the feeling I have for him. As for the
gossips,you all can say whatever you want to
say. Excuse me.
I blurted and walked into my class.
Some questioning began from my friends
immediately we got to the hostel.I refused
saying anything to them including Regina.
I stayed glued to myself till the term ended.
I lost my friends and I think I even lost the
ability to think straight. This is the point
where I’ll say that not having friends is the
worst thing that can happen to anybody. I
thought I was strong enough to be on my
own but life proved me wrong. Even now,I
still regret not confiding in my friends then
because I still feel isolated. It was a
Christmas break but I refused to travel
home.I stayed with my uncle who taught in
my school. That was how I remained far
from home till I finished ss1. My people
thought I wanted to be in that environment
and my uncle needed the extra hand so he
helped convince them to let me stay. But the
truth was that I was running away from Frank
and Vivian.
That was how my life turned sour. I had it all
but I didn’t have friends who I could
communicate my feelings with.
TBC
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