Deeply Enticed episode 21

Deeply Enticed

Episode 21

Bonus ins**t
Trisha

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It’s the weekend and today Tracy and I are the only adults left with the kids alone. Everyone went out except me. Troy had been on the video game the wh0le morning while her sister was on the phone. The younger ones Elizabeth, Kevin and Emily had been running around the living room.
Me: hey… who would like to do something interesting?
I said as I came downstairs with a big box of Christmas decorations and ornaments. The younger ones stopped to look at me and Leonard’s kids just kept on doing what they were doing.
Tracy: hey kids’ your aunty asked if you want to decorate the house for Christmas.

Emily: I love decorating

Me: I am sure you do sweetheart.

Tracy: I was talking to Troy and Rose

Troy: Christmas is not my thing.

Rose: yeah plus we are busy

Me: I often think the reason why these kids never get in trouble is because they waste all their childhood days on computers and phones.
I said to Tracy as I put the box on the table
Tracy: what can we do about it?

Me: well let’s decorate.
I put in a little Christmas music and I decorated the house with the kids and Tracy. It was really fun and it made everyone happy… Troy and Rose then decided to help us. When the other ladies returned I let the kids in the kitchen and started to cook lunch with them.
Mrs. Tyson: I feel lucky to have such a family.

Tracy: good, because for a moment I thought you are going to flip because your grandchildren were in the kitchen.

Mrs. Tyson: I didn’t mean you.

Tracy: I never thought you did

Mrs. Tyson: Trisha… when is your friend leaving my home

Me: just a couple more days’ mother

Mrs. Tyson: you know you are my first child to actually bring friends home

Tracy: I am not surprised by that

Me: Tracy will you shut up.

Tracy: cool I won’t talk
I looked at Henry then at his brothers… what their mother said was actually quite disturbing especially with the fact that I had never seen Henry’s friends and he has never mentioned any friends to me. He smiled at me and I returned the smile.
Me: is it true that you don’t have friends?
I asked him in the kitchen as he was helping me with the dishes
Henry: is that the reason why you seem so worried?

Me: well it’s kind of unhealthy to grow up without friends

Henry: oh baby… I grew up with friends but you know what friends are backstabbers and liars and they keep secrets from you so I don’t want any of that shit, besides I got you… you can be my best friend right…
He said and gave me a k-ss. I felt my heart lighten up as he said that.
Me: well you just have a bad record of friends, my best friend would never ever do that to me. I trust Tracy… she is like my sister you know she used to stand up for me at school because I was too quiet and I let people get away after hurting me… I love her and I know she would never do anything to hurt me.
His facial expression changed.
Henry: babe I told you to trust no one.

Me: even you
He tensed up and suddenly turned away from me and started to pack up plates, it was really getting awkward between us.
Henry: it’s your choice weather you want to trust me or not.
His voice was so cold when he said that and I wondered whether I hurt his feelings or what. I turned to him and hugged him from behind.
Me: I am sorry babe, I didn’t mean to offend you, you know I love you and I trust you.
He held my hands and turned to look at me.
Henry: no its not you sweetheart… it’s just me.

Me: what’s wrong?

Henry: nothing to get worried about
He k-ssed me again and gave me a smile.
Me: well… help me finish washing these plates, you know it s-cks to be on kitchen duty.

Henry: well your sister’s are always on kitchen duty while you are at work.

Me: I know but still it s-cks… I really wish we had our own place then I would hire people to help around the house.

Henry: you want us to move out

Me: is it possible?

Henry: I don’t know.
Emily then entered holding some spoons.
Me: hey baby…?

Emily: mommy what did you to Aunt Tracy?

Me: nothing baby why do you say that…

Emily: it’s just that I saw her going to her room with tears in her eyes and she was coming from this kitchen.
From this kitchen, Tracy wasn’t here.
Henry: baby… Aunty has a very painful head ache

Me: yes I will go and check up on her right away

Emily: mommy

Me: yes baby…

Emily: mommy

Me: what’s wrong?

Emily: nothing I just like calling you
I looked at Henry smiling and he smiled back.
Me: well I am going and I am leaving your father to finish up the dishes.
I went upstairs to Tracy’s room and Emily was right she was silently crying and packing up her bags.
Me: Tracy… what happened
She quickly wiped her tears and smiled at me.
Tracy: nothing… don’t worry about it.

Me: don’t worry about it you barley cry and you are crying right now.

Tracy: I am not crying and I said don’t worry about it.

Me: are you for real… you are really going to hide your troubles from me.
She stopped and looked at me looking like she was about to yell then she took a deep breath then tears came gushing out. I hugged her and we sat on her bed.
Me: it’s okay… it’s okay I am here what happened.

Tracy: you won’t understand… I have to go

Me: you are not going until you tell me Tracy,

Tracy: well it’s my mom… she is sick and I feel so bad that I had been such a bad daughter for leaving her alone now I just want to return home.

Me: oh my god… you were going to hide that from me… I am so sorry my friend, I am going with you.

Tracy: no! She is fine now

Me: what?

Tracy: she is just had an asthma attack and now she is fine… I just feel bad because I wasn’t there.

Me: okay… I can drive you there if you want

Tracy: it’s okay Trisha… I am good, I have my own golf outside.

Me: okay

Tracy: now if you don’t mind I would really love to have some alone time.

Me: ok… remember that I love you and if you need me I will always be one call away.

Tracy: I love you too Trisha
I gave her another big warm hug and left her room.
Zenzele
I was back at her shop again because IG seems I can’t stay away from her no matter how I much I tried to convince myself that maybe I am not the one for her. I know this sounds crazy but I found myself in a situation where I think about her every time. She closed p for the day and as soon as she saw me she froze for a moment then laughed…. I didn’t understand why she was laughing and it was making me a little insecure
Me: hi

Fadz: Zenzele… Wow

Me: wow?
She came to me and hugged me which was totally freaky and arousing at the same time.
Me: hey what changed?

Fadz: nothing I am just relieved you are back
Okay this girl is confusing the nuts of my head.
Me: glad I am back?

Fadz: yes… I thought I scared you off the last time.
Oh baby… It’s going to take more than what you did to drive me off
Me: well… Why didn’t you call?

Fadz: oh you are going to love this one… I don’t have a phone.
She seems comfortable talking to me today.
Me: you don’t have phones?

Fadz: is it surprising?

Me: you are 18 how come you don’t have a phone…

Fadz: I don’t know

Me: so besides that reason, would you have called?

Fadz: I don’t know.

Me: okay… would you be kind enough to share why you said I scare you?

Fadz: crap…

Me: what?

Fadz: do you like?

Me: I thought that was obvious, babe I like you and I want you as my girl.

Fadz: that is the problem…

Me: hold up… will I be your first boyfriend?
She laughed until she cried but something told me that it’s not because it was funny. After she kept quite she wiped her tears and looked at me.
Fadz: no… you will not be my first boyfriend, I have a total of about five Ex-boyfriends… my first boyfriend, John…
She looked at her fingers and took a deep breath. She was trembling.
Fadz: I loved him, I loved that guy to bits, I loved him to a point where I gave him everything, and by everything I mean even my innocence. I was fourteen and he was eighteen
She paused to look at me and I maintained eye contact as I listened to her story
Fadz: my fear of losing him was at a 100% level because he was at a senior school and I was just a junior so I kept on giving him what he wanted.
She looked at me then slightly laughed and looked outside the window. I stopped besides the road to listen to her.
Fadz: One day I found out that I was two and a half months pregnant with his child, he dumped me and denied ever being my boyfriend… I was so heart broken, when I thought about the disappointment and the shame that I was going to bring to my parents I wanted to commit suicide, my sister found out about my pregnancy and she helped me do a backstreet abortion… I fell sick, it was painful. But I just tolerated the pain and told my mom that I had a stomach bug. My sister… she took care of me throughout this time.
She paused to take a deep breath and a glimpse at me.
Fadz: So after that I decided to never invest my feelings in any relationsh¡ps and in all my relationsh¡ps I have always been the one who gets dumped because I refuse to give them s€× and you know what I didn’t care because I tell them what ever the hell I feel like saying… and then you came, and you know what you did right. You evoked all those feelings, it doesn’t matter how much I tried to hide them, you just…
She looked at me with mixed emotions in her eyes.
Fadz: ever since that time you k-ssed me, you got stuck to my head and I find myself everywhere… and I try to pick up myself up but I just can’t and it scares me because I think I am going back to that time when I was with john and I can’t take it anymore because you are not even my boyfriend yet and I already feel so messed up because i am trying by all means to stop my feelings from…. (Got cut off)

Me: Fadz… calm down.
She was talking fast and nonstop, I am pretty sure her words just came straight from the brain unfiltered because her sentences where not making any sense but I understood what she wanted to say. I noticed how she was holding her breath waiting for me to reply her.
Me: breathe…
She took a deep breath
Fadz: so you know why I have been trying to avoid you.

Me: yes I do

Fadz: I guess you don’t like me anymore

Me: why do you say that?

Fadz: because I am used goods

Me: don’t ever refer to yourself to that okay… Fadz, I like you and I don’t think your past is going to change that. I am not going to run away because you had s€× with an assh-le then fell pregnant and committed abortion. i only want you to give me a chance and I will show you that not all guys are the same.

Fadz: he also said he was just asking for a chance

Me: I am not him.
I maintained eye contact with her, I wanted her to know that I am not this John guy and I won’t hurt her like she did but her eyes were full of mixed emotions, uncertainty and confusion. I gave her a k-ss and she responded quite well.
Fadz: please just don’t hurt me.
I smiled… I did it… I did it… electric sparks were flying around in my brain and my heart was dancing h¡p hop. She is my girl and won’t let go like I did with Trisha. I am going to take care of her and give her unlimited love. I grabbed her l-ips again and gave a passionate deep k-ss.