Incomplete episode 16 – 17
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Writer: Anonymous❤️
Sequence 16
Justine was almost k-ssing me then he pulled away his face from mine and looked the other way, he closed his eyes and covered his face with his hands and for a few minutes no one spoke or made any movements.
“I am sorry, I got carried away he said” while facing down
“It’s nothing” I answered feeling disappointed.
“I thought you would be mad at me” he said shyly
“No ways, so tell me about your relationsh¡p story” I said
“Should I get you anything to eat or drink?” he asked
“No I am comfortable” I answered
We decided to sit down on the mat because I was more comfortable there,
“Well I have never really been a fan of girls even when I was growing up I made it a point to date only one girl and later marry her, when I was in grade 12 I met Anita, she was my first girlfriend and I really loved her, I told her I didn’t like playing games and I wanted someone that was serious about me, Anita accepted saying she loved me and that’s how we started dating, I loved Anita so much, I used to buy her gifts and give her most of the things she wanted since I came from a rich family and money was a never a problem with me. After we completed High school our relationsh¡p continued, my family knew her and I knew hers. We went to different universities but still made time for each other, I honestly thought she loved me “he said looking sad
“You don’t have to continue if it makes you feel bad” I said. He just looked at me and continued talking.
“One day I paid her a surprise visit at her hostels and got the shock of my life, I found Anita in bed with an old man I didn’t understand why she would cheat because I gave her everything. I dumped her immediately and blocked her. When she came to ask for forgiveness I chased her away. It took me time to get over Anita and two years later I met Charity, she seemed different from Anita, she came from a poor background and was down to earth, I loved her and we got engaged six months later. I then got to discover she was just after my money and had another boyfriend so from then on I decided to quit on love till I met you” he said
“This is so sad, I am sure you will meet a decent lady soon” I said avoiding what he said about meeting me
“I have already found her and I promise even if I have to wait for 10 years I will wait for you Pam” he said
“I am not right for you I am damaged” I responded
“Then let help you heal, let be a father to your child” he said
“I think I need to sleep” I said
“Okay I won’t push you lets go to bed” he said
Each time i slept at Justine’s place I would sleep in his room, there are too beds so we slept separately. We spent the night chatting and joking about the things we have been through.
“So what kind of women do you like?” I asked
“Well I love women who are God fearing, women who are independent, respectful and down to earth and I have found that in you” he said
“Oh Justine, I don’t want to lead you on, you have to forget about whatever you feel for me, find someone out there who will be willing to share your dreams with you” I said
“You don’t understand Pam but its fine, I am okay with being your friend, as long as I am close to you then its fine” he said
“You are a nice man and believe me when I say I wouldn’t have hesitated to date you if we had met in different circ-mstances”
“I know that Pam, don’t get guilty for this “he said
We talked for a bit then I started feeling sleepy but I was failing to sleep so Justine came to join me in bed, he kept rubbing my belly and singing for me till I slept. When I woke up the next day Justine had his arms around me and he was sleeping peacefully. I didn’t move because I didn’t want to disturb his sleep so I just kept staring at him for a while “How come I hadn’t noticed how good-looking this man that lay beside me was? “ I thought
His side beards were perfectly shaved in a straight line suiting the shape of his face, his dark bushy eyebrows and his long eyelashes made him look so cute, he had a French nose and very smooth skin. What woman would want to hurt such an attractive creature? His l-ips were well curved and looking at them made me remember how long I had last been k-ssed.
“Stop staring you are making me feel shy?” he said when he opened his eyes
“Morning handsome” I said
“Morning beautiful, did you sleep well?” he asked
“Of course I did what of you?” I asked
“Who wouldn’t sleep well in the arms of such a an adorable lady” he smiled
“Stop flattering me” I blushed
“Oh she’s blushing” he said
We woke up and I bathed in his room while he bathed from downstairs, Justine bought me a number of clothes which he keeps at his house so when I go over I don’t have to worry about clothes. I wasn’t really feeling like getting dressed. I was feeling extremely tired so I wore a big t-shirt and a wrapper, all I wanted to do was lay down. When I was done Justine came and invited me for breakfast, after eating I thanked Justine for the food then went to lie down. We spent the day cleaning his apartment and doing laundry before he took me back home. I was feeling really tired after the tiresome day although Justine did much of the work and I was just helping as a form of exercise.
One month later, “gosh I look too big, I can’t wait for this baby to pop out” I told Chloe
“Me too” she said
We had bought everything needed for the baby they were so many clothes and toys, Justine and Chloe where over buying things. My baby’s necessary was ready and looking awesome I just couldn’t wait to hold her.
“So do you think you will tell your ex about this baby?” Justine asked when we were watching movies at my place.
“I doubt I will, that guy has so many issues, he treated me so badly so for now I will just keep the baby to myself” I said
“Fine, I will be a father to this child and some day when we get married I will adopt her or him I would like the baby to carry my last name someday” he said
“You and your dreams” I laughed
“Dreams do come true you know” he asked. Each time I spent the day with day I would feel content, there was never a dull moment with him he made sure I was happy all the time.
Two weeks later I started feeling very sick, I was experiencing pains in my lower back then I also had some sort of period cramps and lots of pressure and sharp pains. When I went to see a Doctor about the pains they told me my body was getting ready for giving birth so I needn’t not to worry.
Friday evening the 23rd of March I was home alone, lying down on my bed, Chloe and Joe had gone for a work function while the kids where visiting Joe’s sister so it was just me at home. Chloe didn’t want to go but I told her I was fine, I didn’t have an appetite though, I only managed to eat a few snacks and drink my lemon water.
I called Justine and we talked a bit then I started feeling sleepy and hung up and slept, around midnight I was awoken by sharp pains in my lower abdomen and I immediately woke u, I felt like urinating but when I went to the toilet nothing much happened. I went back to my room feeling much better then but few minutes later the pain started again and this time it was more painful and persistent, my lower back was also arching too much, I tried to stand up so I could get my phone and try and call someone but walking to the table was also a struggle.
I managed to take my phone, I could hærdly walk around because I was feeling heavy and my legs were almost numb. Just before I could call Chloe I felt like something heavy had landed on my cervix then immediately there was a continuous trickle of warm slippery water and everything I was wearing became w-t.
I started panicking I called Chloe’s line it rang twice but she didn’t answer, I tried Joe’s line it took me straight to voice mail then I tried Justine’s line and it rang without being answered. I was nearly crying and very scared of what might happen if no one came to my aid because the pain was awfully bad and I couldn’t walk.
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Writer: Anonymous❤️
Sequence 17
I tried calling Auntie Christine but her phone was off then I remembered she usually went for over nights on Fridays. “Gosh where is everyone when I need them?” I was in so much pain and the last person on my mind was Dan, I had deleted his line but I still remember it so dialed it immediately. Dan was last person I wanted to see in my state but then it was better to call him so he could help me and his child than wait for me to lose my baby.
The phone rang for a few minutes and Dan answered it, “Hello, Hello, Pam” just before I said anything, I heard a beeping sound on my phone indicating that there was an incoming call. I looked at my phone and it was Justine so I answered his call and Dan’s line went on hold.
“Justine please drive here quickly please” I said
“Whats happening?” he asked
“My water broke” I said
“I will be there soon, please hold on” he said
I was breathing in through the nose and out through the mouth as we were advised during ante natal classes and I tried to keep my mind off what was happening but it was hærd to ignore. The pain was on then off for a short while and back on, this went on and on till Justine arrived 30 minutes later he must have been driving really fast.
“Pam! Are you okay?” he asked breathing heavily
“Please get the small suitcase on that table and take me to the clinic” I told him
Justine carried me to the car, carried the bag and my phone, he then drove me to Coptic center, talking to me all the way. Encouraging me to stay strong and as we were approaching the hospital, my phone started ringing, I told Justine to pick it because I couldn’t talk.
“Hello, Justine speaking. I am driving Pam to the hospital call back later. Yes! Can’t talk right now am driving. Coptic Diagnostic center Ok. Bye.” Justine spoke to the person on the other side of the line.
We got to the reception, I gave Justine my card and he showed the receptionist who quickly directed as to the maternity wing but since men are not allowed into the maternity wing. Justine had to remain in the waiting room and I felt alone and desperate I was then told to lie on the bed I was feeling cold, I covered myself in blanket and the mid-wife came to take details of me. She recorded the time we entered the hospital and asked me a few questions then did a quick check on me before she left me.
The nurse predicated that the baby could come around nine hours or so, I looked at the clock in front of me and it was 02:14am. Nine seemed like an eternity to me. I was Impatient and desperate. I turned and turned or the bed which was cold and w-t but time was not moving. I wished I could fall asleep but sleep was not on my side either. My legs where becoming heavier and I was running out of options, I tried standing up and walking about in the room, but nothing could help. I was really thirsty for some water, I called the mid-wife to bring me water but she told me water is not allowed, I felt helpless.
I looked at the wall clock again and this time it was 04:58am and the pain was now more constant and sharp. I was almost out of breath, I felt hot and then cold again. The mid-wife came to check me again and she said I was getting there. She encouraged me to breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth. I asked for Justine and I was told he was still waiting for me.
I heard words from outside and shortly my sister walked in with a worried look on her face.
“Pam you will be just fine honey” she said while holding my hand. “Am deeply sorry I wasn’t there for you when you needed me, I forgot my phone in the car and Joe had switched his off.” She continued.
I looked at her and just nodded, I couldn’t figure what to say but I was angry with my sister, I knew she was always there for me and it was not her fault that things happened on such a . But I couldn’t explain anything.
“Justine is waiting for you, but I am now here can I let him rest?” she asked
And again I just nodded. She left, I looked at the time once again and it was now 05:45am.the mid-wife came in. I told her I wanted to answer the call of nature then she told me I was not allowed to because I may push the baby out. So she checked me and said the baby was really close. She encouraged me to try and pull the baby out i tried to push a number of times but nothing, she tried to help me by pressing my tummy but still the baby could not come.
Then she called the Doctor and the Doctor suggested that if I fail to push the baby I should be operated on because time was running out.
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When I heard the cry of my baby I cried out of joy, I forgot all the pain I went through to have her. Knowing I was finally a mother brought back so many emotions I had a flash back of all the name callings, the insults and beatings I got for not being able to conceive at that time. Gosh I finally had a reason to live. I kept looking at Chloe with tears streaming down my cheeks she couldn’t hold back her tears as well, she held my hand tightly and we cried together.
“It’s a girl” the Doctor said
“Oh my little girl” I cried even more
“Hold her” they told me
When I held her I couldn’t believe God had made it possible for me to hold such a fragile precious tiny human that fitted perfectly on my chest. The joy I felt at that moment is unexplainable my baby was the definition of perfection. I had never been filled with this much joy all my life.
Justine came in later and when he held her, I could see tears threatening to fall off his eyes. He was the first man that held my baby, the only father she would ever know. I was exhausted and so I closed my eyes and I started reflecting on what happened before giving birth.
When they told me about the operation, I was so scared I was going to lose her because I was falling to push.
“Try h-rder Pam, push” they told me. I was trying to push as much as I could but I was slowly losing my strength.
“I think let’s get her ready for a C- section, if we delay we might lose the baby” I heard the doctor saying while giving instructions to his colleagues.
I saw one nurse rush outside to get the paper work done for my operation. Chloe was against the operation but time was running out, I needed her to sign off the papers.
“Pam you can do this, remember how much you have wanted to have this baby, you have to push as hærd as you can, she whispered to me then she started praying.
The mid wife came to check how I was doing, and while she was talking to me encouraging me to relax and be calm, I was in so much pain, I didn’t even have the power to scre-m I kept biting my teeth to keep the pain away, then I suddenly felt the urge to push and I pushed.
“It’s coming” she scre-med
The all rushed to my bed and encouraged me to push some more.
“You can do it Pam, you are doing just fine please don’t give up” The doctor said
I was pushed as hærd as I could, the pain I was feeling at the moment was nothing compared to the child I was about to give life to. I breathed a sigh of relief when she when she was finally out. I gave birth at 06:20, 24TH March
Finally my little one came out weighing 3.5 kg then I breathed a sigh of relief as I lay back on the bed. 24th of March 2014 at o6:20 and she weighed 3.5Kg’s.
“Mmmmmmmmm yes I have” I said. They all looked at me eager to hear the baby’s name.
“I have named her Tasheni” I told her
“Lovely name, Tasheni Mumba” Chloe said
“No Tasheni Chansa, do you honestly think I would let my child carry Dan’s name?” I asked
“Was just making sure” she said
“She will be Chansa just like you and I” I responded
I was discharged at 10 hours Chloe drove me home while Justine followed us behind. When we got home I placed my little one in the nursery, I left her with Justine as Chloe helped me take a bath, after bathing I slept just next to her.
Justine went to his place to take a shower and he promised to get back shortly because he didn’t want to leave our side.
“Let me take a shower too, I am exhausted” call me when you need anything I will be with my phone” Chloe said as she left the room
“Alright” I said
I got my phone and called Auntie Christine so I could tell her the good news then afterwards I took photos of my baby and sent to some of my friends.
I also called Nono and let her know about the baby, she promised to come over the following day. Nono had left Dan’s house when I left and I managed to get her a job at one of our church members’ house we had been in communication the past few months and she knew about the pregnancy.
I was busy texting when Tash interrupted me with her crying, I put my phone down and carried her then I started br-astfeeding her, as soon as she slept I laid her back on the bed. I kept staring at her not believing she was really mine, indeed God blesses people at his own timing, I had all the reasons to praise him hence the name Tasheni.
Chloe’s house help came into the room while I was still looking at my baby.
“Someone is here to see you?” she said
“Who is it?” I asked
“It’s your Ex husband “she said
“Can you watch over Tash while I attend to him?” I asked her
“Of course why not?” she responded
I stood up and slowly walked to the living room, Dan immediately stood up to greet me when he saw me enter.
“Hi” I said
“Hey, you called yesterday and didn’t say anything and when I called back I was told you were being rushed to the hospital, I went to the hospital today but was told you gave birth and was discharged” he said
“I am sorry for calling you yesterday it was a mistake and you shouldn’t have come here?” I said
“You were pregnant Pam” are you married?
“Dan all that is none of your business, thanks for checking up on me, if your will excuse me I have a baby to attend to” I said while standing up
Dan stood up too and followed me behind then he held my hand. “We need to talk?” he said
“Dan, there is nothing to talk about here just leave before Chloe gets downstairs” I said
Dan came in front of me and now we were facing each other while he held my hand, I don’t know what I felt standing that close to him weather it was hate or love but all in all I didn’t want him in my house, seeing him just brought me back memories and for a moment I stood still looking at the man that destroyed me.
Justine entered after a while and found Dan holding my hand as we stared at each other.
“Babe you are back” I asked then instantly yanked my hand off Dan’s hand
“Yes I am, I will be in the nursery if you need me” Justine said
“Oh that’s the guy you have been seeing” I see you have done well for yourself Dan said while clapping his hands.
“Dan leave” I said, he looked at me from head to toe then walked out. After he left I went to Justine. He had his face facing down.
“What was he doing here?” Justine asked without looking at me
“I kind of called him” I answered
“You called him so you could get together? You told him about the baby? Did he see her?”
“Justine it’s not what you think, he didn’t even see her, and I didn’t call him for that”
“I love you Pam very much I would hate to lose you but if you had to choose him then I will walk away”
“Justine I am not choosing anyone here, I called Dan when my water broke, I called him when……” Before I could finish my sentence Justine cut me short
“I understand he is the father to Tash anyway” he said that
“You are not giving me a chance to explain myself here?”
“No Pam there is nothing to explain, I am old enough to get the message loud and clear the way I found you guys looking at each intimately, I am old enough to know whats going on” he said
Just before I could answer him, Chloe entered the room.
“I will be going, will see you later” Justine said
“But you just got here?” I pleaded
“I need to attend to something”
“Okay “I said feeling so defeated and hurt. Then he stood up and walked out, I heard the car drive off a few minutes later.
TBC